Amber Escaping Reality

Chapter 4

It’s been around two weeks since the last battle,so many gone! I'm still trying to hold up,trying to escape my current reality. In fact I am packing currently, leaving to earth. Maybe a small vacation or just moving there. I don't want to face the facts here ,I don't want to face what is coming.Many told me this will happen, the fact that they said it. day after day don't hold on to him,he can be gone in a second.Over and over again and I didn't listen. The fact is I don't know if he is really gone.I couldn't see the dead bodies after that battle.I did not see who was alive either.

Just the pain, makes me wonder why.So many questions and yet I still know the answer.

I have to move ,I have no choice.My mindset is being switch from one reality to another.I don't know if I am dreaming or awake. If I am still living or I am dead. If I am walking or standing still. I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T KNOW! I DON'T KNOW! It is all a blur and it feels like a mistake at the same time. I swear I am breaking down, or maybe I should just lay down and rest. I been without sleep for days now. I am not hungry or feel the need to get up and smile. Am I still dreaming or is all of this is reality. Please let it not be reality cause I can't take it.Not anymore, I need to find a way out. I NEED TO FIND A WAY OUT!

I am moving that's it, I am packing and leaving tomorrow. It is a ten hour flight but I will better . I will be ok,I will be strong and will learn something new. Meet someone new,but at the same time I don't want to. Nobody will be able to replace him. What if he appears ,he comes back and I am gone. What if he is thinking I am dead, and he is doing the same thing I am doing.It is all too much to think about. This is all so fresh! COME ON AMBER GET YOURSELF TOGETHER! You fought in over ten wars! You lost not one but both of your parents!You have seen over five thousand dead soldier! Pick yourself up!Do it for Giance,come on do it.

I feel my mind is going crazy. I can't stop sobbing, it's been like this for days. My heart feels stab, like someone is doing it over and over again.All I remember is his smile, his laugh,the way he use to talk.He had a very strong accent. Hey I am laughing ,I am laughing! I haven't laugh in days and days on count.I miss his hugs, his kisses,his love. I don't know if he is gone or not but I will say this.

Our love is temporary, yet it is forever. Feelings set from day to day, hope renew no matter the time.Distance can't hurt us,distance only make us stronger, even if one of us is gone.I know you will watch over me as I will watch over you.You are my first and my last. You are unique yet almost the same as me.I know you will guide me like I guided you.I know one day we'll meet again.Being in this location or another ,I will see you.Goodbye my love,goodbye my prince. One day we shall meet again. Goodbye sweetheart,goodbye my knight.My heart is yours no matter what.

Chapter 5

Well its here,moving day. I have to say my mind is blank today. There is no emotion, nothing to make me react. It is like time is frozen. Amber hears a voice outside, her ride is here. She gets on and on the road she goes.She thinks of nothing,she does not know I am doing that.She feels nothing for now,she does not know I am doing that. By me I mean Giance, yes its me.

I survived but not as I wanted.The battle took a lot from me. In fact you might say I am almost dead but I am not. By spirit got separated from by body in a blast.I am still buried underground. No one have found my body yet and I don't expect them to. What surprise me do is that it is still being preserve. It walks around in the tunnels,but I don't know who controls the body.

If I knew it will be a relief.I don't want Amber to see my body but not see me.That will hurt her and break her heart. I lost for now but I won't give her up at all. I am just glad she didn't get hurt in battle.That she survived and fought to the end.My girl, my precious angel, I will follow you to earth.No one will hurt you and no one shall touch you.I do know that I wont be in my body for a long time. So I hope you find someone to protect you and keeps you safe.Keeps you smiling and fill with joy.

My heart is yours,forever more. My sweet , sweet Amber. The explosion was aim for you. I couldn't live with that my whole life.I couldn't stand to see it happen. By the Gods I still don't know how I survived. My body should be burn into pieces and non existent right now. I shouldn't even be wondering,but I guess I got a second chance. My dear, dear Amber, I will keep you safe and sound. I love you my love, I love you.

Amber hears a voice and its surprises her.Is it Giance,is he here. I dont see him but I feel him.

I get off and I go to my new home.It's a small house two floors,three bedrooms, living quarters,kitchen and bathroom outside.Its a nice beige color on the outside and a light blue on the inside.It use to be my dads house, I love it that it is still up.As I walk in I start to see all the pictures.My dad since the age of one,it is wonderful. I knew they said I looked like him but I did not know how much I did.This is amazing ,I feel safe here.This is my new home ,this is my new home!

As I put my clothes away I hear a knock on the door.As I go down I notice it is a familiar voice,its my aunt.My aunt Lucy is here,yay I get to see family.I open the door and she hugs me, I don't need to hide my wings in front of her cause she already knows everything. To tell you more she was the I stayed with once my mom died. She went up to the seventh realm and raised me till I moved out.Once I did that,she packed her bags and moved down to earth again. I love her she is like my second mom.She ask me how have I been,whats new and many more questions.I answer them all as we eat. one minute turns into a hour and the hour into hours. She stayed there for the night since it was too late to leave.We talked some more until we both fell asleep.

I have to say, I needed that so much.To have family near me was the best.To feel peace and harmony for once. Feel secure that nothing bad will happen to me is very calming.I have a protector,I wonder if Giance is doing this. I wonder if he knew that I needed it and moved her to come.We were even talking last night and she told me if I wanted ,I could move in with her or she can move in with me.To lend a hand with food and just help me get back on my feet. I said yes ,so she is moving in and I am so excited.The next day she moved in and I have to say I feel happy for the new chapter.The new chapter that is about to start and I cant wait to smile again. Look at everything new, in a new perspective. I do have to hide my wings but I do not care at all.Hello to the new me,hello to the new world,hello to a new day.New land,new adventure, new friends,new hope.