Romantic entanglements

In one of my romantic entanglements. I loved, I mean, I deeply loved her with everything in me and everything in the everything in me. You know, I never cared about the popular ideology of measuring love and not showing lavish love to someone, if not they'd take you for granted. Nope, I was a lover without restriction and reservation, it got fine till things changed...

I literally begged for attention and care. I apologised when she was wrong, just for peace to reign, I'd overlook a lot because of love, but she wouldn't, she'd nag and complain and the hassle was much..

I'd wet my pillow with tears at night because love unappreciated to me is more painful than death. It is highly disastrous to pour the best of you into someone who doesn't care. I was devastated but I couldn't go. Ask me if I were in a relationship back then, I'd say YES, but it was a relationship with Hades..

It continued this way, the more I tried to break out, the more I sunk in. Have you ever loved someone so much that you hated the fact that you loved them that much?

This feeling was my committed friend..

I knew I was emotionally abused and manipulated. It actually trampled on my self esteem because having to beg for love in a relationship is a show of some self esteem issues. Do you know you could have a good self esteem but if you love the wrong person, they can make you feel so insignificant? So inadequate..?

I met a pastor friend who spoke into my mind. Encouraged me and the beginning of my freedom began. I was terribly depressed. I mean, it was glaring from my looks that something was wrong, a friend even asked: “Peter, are you sick?”

I began to drift away from her. Started spending time with friends and more books, and my healing started. I would be fine this week and the next week I'd feel like calling her and getting back to the prison of manipulation..

• Because you miss someone doesn't mean they are right for you. You can be so abused till it's so common to you that you feel it's love..

• Pain is part of healing...

At last, after many months. I got fine and moved on.

This is the plight of many of you who are in relationship. You are in a one-sided, abusive, manipulative, chaotic, self-disastrous relationship, you are only in the class of those who are dating but you know there's nothing truly ideal about it.

The joy of being in a relationship is not in the name or class of: “IN A RELATIONSHIP”

It's in the joy and peace it gives you. In how it soothes your mind and the positivity it exudes into your life..

Let go of every relationship that makes you feel used, abused, manipulated, and weak. If you have to beg, to work hard to be cared for, work hard to be given attention, believe me, it is so wrong and you'll end up destroying yourself..

I've been there. It's difficult to let go, but “Sometimes break up is the greatest success a relationship should attain, it'll hurt your feelings, but will start your healing and preserve your destiny..”

You needed that heartbreak to be stronger..

You needed that disappointment; that betrayal, that frustration..

You needed to cry at night and groan and wail..

You needed all those pains to be stronger..

Imagine the terrible things you've been through and you're still beautiful. Just imagine that none killed you. Now you know better and you are stronger. You see, there's no better way to be strong than through pain. You've got to pass through pain to learn endurance..

When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left. People leave you because they are not joined to you, and if they are not joined to you, you can't superglue them to you. Let ‘me go. You got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You got to know when it's over.

Nothing just happens.

If they walked away, it's no accident..

If you tried to make it work and it didn't work, its no accident.

Accept it as the will of God. You've got to cultivate the gift of goodbye..