Rediscovering My Sexuality

For most of my life I have had a very active and awesome sex life. I was a giver with no demands and would do almost anything to please my lover. It was indeed my great fortune that the first few women I made love with were much older than I was and the experience gained was priceless. In addition, at the age of sixteen before I lost my virginity I read a book called The Happy Hooker by Xavier Hollander. For me it was the complete guidebook on how to be a great lover. More important than the wide variety of sexual activity described in great detail, it taught me the incredible importance of respect and admiration for women. That women were to be treated with dignity, kindness and compassion. I learned the importance of paying attention to them. Listening without criticizing and with an open mind. Invaluable education. I still maintain that every young person, male and female, most especially the males, read that book early on. I took that knowledge and ran with it. Boy did I run.

So it was through the years I enjoyed my sex life. I learned pretty early on how to easily tap into women's desires and wants that they were not comfortable revealing. Most women have an intense erotic side and often they do not reveal it easily. I learned to make a woman at ease with herself and make them feel that they could be themselves 100% without any type of judgement at all. Of course over the ensuing years my love life became better and better. All that being said, I found myself in my latter years having no sexual activity nor the desire to engage in any. For a variety of reasons my life began a dark out of control downward spiral. In retrospect I seem to have awaken one day and found myself to be over 400 pounds and very much in ill health. In many ways I had simply given up and expected to die a miserable morbidly obese early death. Truly my life was a nightmare. Then one day while in my doctor's office a life line was thrown to me. I happened to notice some information posted on the wall regarding a weight loss program the hospital provided. He explained it was a stomach reduction procedure. I said I wanted in. The program was intense, disciplined and without a doubt the most difficult task I ever accomplished. In just about a year I had lost 180 pounds. My health issues slipped away and I was transformed into a new and much better version of myself. Life was so good again.

I settled into a new town and started a new and wonderful chapter of my life. I was still in a very negative mindset with regards to women. Dating evoked apprehension and even a bit of fear. I was quite literally starting from scratch. With zero confidence and lots of insecurities about women, I really did not know how to start. I do have a great personality, fantastic humor and I still knew how to treat women. That was enough to slowly turn the tide and sow the seeds of desire for the company of a woman once again. At this point It had been almost seven years without any sexual encounter. I missed the soft touch of a female's body. Kissing. Foreplay. The smell of a woman. The incredible sound of a woman's orgasm. Even just laying close together in the darkness. I missed it all. I was not sure of the rules and procedures, if there are such things, about dating. But I was more than ready. Vanity was never my thing, but I was now in the best shape of my life and was getting a lot of compliments. What an incredible boost to hear that I was attractive after what I had just lived through.

So I am at my doctor's office for a check up and the nurse's asst. called me in. As I was following her to the exam room I noticed what a lovely seductive body she had. A bit roamy if you will. My favorite. I have never been one for thin women. Her behind was ample. Very sexy. Thin waist and fantastic breasts. I was stricken. Once in the room I saw that she was a very pretty gal. Beautiful heart warming smile and her eyes said she was a genuine honest person. We chatted and right away our conversation clicked. She took my blood pressure and while doing so held my arm against her body as her arm lay across mine. What I felt was amazing. The softness of her skin against mine and the warmth I felt was something I had not experienced in a long while. Our conversation turned very personal rapidly. We shared many interests and similar paths through life. She was incredibly intelligent and a very strong lady. A single mother working her way through life in such a positive way. I was so impressed. And almost nothing turns me on and attracts me to woman more than if they are smart. I love that. After the exam, we sat in the room for another 15 min. conversing in depth about ourselves. Almost as if we both stumbled onto someone we could talk to easily instead of just holding it all in. We exchanged numbers before I left. I was I admit sort of overwhelmed. She was just so beautiful. But there was this... she was quite a few years younger than me. Normally that would be a deal killer for me, but not this time. She was special. Nonetheless I could not imagine she would be attracted to me or interested enough to contact me. But to my ( put on a happy face here ) she did text me and sent me pictures of her. This was incredible to me. I was going to have to this take this slow and easy. This lady was just too special to chase off by doing something stupid.

Thus we began a continuation of our talks and began to become friends. I found out she also had not had any sexual activity in a long time. A brutal ex husband and the responsibility of raising her children had put her personal desires on the back burner. As we became closer friends we began to hang out together on occasion. We could always converse easily and we were just the type of friend each of us needed at this time in our lives. I never broached the subject of sex. I was leaving that to her. There were revelations about her sexuality from time to time. I ascertained she was a very warm and caring lover. Eager to have sex but was gun shy. We both knew it had been a very long since either of us had sex and the topic did come up now and then. But I was still very careful with her. She was fragile and like me was dealing with self respect and confidence issues. One early summer evening we were sitting on her back deck admiring the colors of the clouds as the sun began its decent. The kids were gone for the weekend so we were free to just lounge around as we wished. We had made our way through most of a bottle of a fantastic red wine. I looked over at her as she gazed off in the distance. The golden rays of the setting sunlight highlighted her profile. She wore short cutoffs and her smooth legs seemed to glow a deep bronze. Her incredible breasts were awash in sunlight pushing through her blouse. I knew then if I allowed myself, I could fall in love. A massive rush of just how beautiful she was fired across me. I was feeling the long lost highly erotic feelings once again. It was fantastic and at the same time scary. With a surge of confidence, I told her she was one of the most beautiful ladies I ever knew and that I was proud and honored to be with her on that deck. She gave me one of her heart melting smile and whispered thank you. Then as if in slow motion she rose up of her deck chair and stepped over to me. She took my hand and kissed it. I could almost feel my heart race. Then she leaned in and started kissing me.

Instantly our lips matched up perfectly and we began a long, deep erotic kiss. Her mouth was warm and perfect. I just knew it would be so nice as I had fantasized often of kissing her. Just before the point of the kiss becoming frantic and furious she stood up and said I will be right back. All I could do was take a deep breath and nod. I was wearing shorts and noticed after she walked away there was little doubt that I had a huge hard on. I drained my glass and thought, oh well, it is what it is. I tried to adjust the bulge so it was not so obvious, but with little luck. Soon she came back and approached me from behind. She wrapped her arms around me and gave me a soft kiss on my neck. "Follow me," she whispered. As I followed her to her bedroom my mind was reeling. Was it finally going to happen? All kinds of thoughts were flashing across my mind. Her room was very dim with only a few candles flickering their tiny flames. We stood next to her bed and our lips met again as we embraced in a beautiful loving fashion. I did not realize how much I missed kissing. My erection was in full bloom so there was no use trying hiding it now. With her arms still holding me she began to say maybe this was not... and then I knew it was time to take control of the situation. I put my finger to her lips and reassured her this was okay. Very okay. That she was in good hands with me and at any point she can say no. I told her now is the time to relax and enjoy the moment. I said this was our special night and she was my queen to worship and would be treated as such. Again the killer smile and we began to kiss again. This was going to be an awesome night I thought. For both of us. Little did I know!

As we explored with deep warm kisses, she reached down and gently felt my hard on. I heard a soft murmur from her. I pulled away just a bit and asked her to turn around and close her eyes. "Pretend you're blindfolded," I said.

"Okay," she said, "but why?"

As she stood with her back to me, eyes closed I told her this was a moment I have waited for a very long time. "I am going to undress you slowly and discover your body with my hands," I said. I was almost in a dream as I could not believe this was actually happening. I felt up and down her arms and kissed her neck several times. She wore a button up blouse which I greatly admired as it showcased her incredible boobs bursting to free themselves. I reached around and began to unbutton the blouse. I let it fall to the floor and spent a few min. letting my hands wander over her back and stomach. Her skin was so warm and baby soft. It was magic to me and it was obvious this was turning us both on big time. I whispered, "You smell wonderful and you have me so turned on now."

She replied, "Oh me too."

She reached back to touch me but I gently removed her hand and said "Not yet." I then had a bra to remove. I slowly slipped the straps down her shoulders. I kissed her over her exposed shoulders and neck. Then I undid the clasp. I did not let the bra slip off yet. I slowly slid my hands around her chest under the bra until my hands were cupping her boobs before I let it slip off onto the floor. Oh my God I thought, these were even more outstanding than I ever knew. I massaged them and felt the heavy flesh in my hands. Her nipples were rock hard and as I gently pinched them she lay her head back on me and said "That feels so good." I continued on her front side a few moments and then slide my hands down to the cutoffs she was wearing. I undid the button and drew the zipper down while I kissed her neck all over. The shorts dropped and revealed pale yellow panties with lace trim. I explored her thighs and the exposed butt cheeks with my hands. I still could not fathom what was happening. Her sweet smell and her soft skin was something like a dream to me. I could feel her tremble slightly as my hands roamed. Then the time came that would determine if we were to go on. I very slowly slid my hand down the front of her panties. She moaned and adjusted her stance to give me easier access. I first felt her soft pubic hair. Wonderful I thought. It was trimmed and just felt perfect to me. I was still kind of freaking out because it had been so many years since I had felt a warm soft pussy. I felt down further and caressed her lips and instantly felt how wet she was. I gave her clit a quick twirl and she almost jumped in my arms. I reached my other arm around and slipped her panties down her legs. She leaned her naked ass back into me and rubbed it on my very hard dick. I let her go and sat back on the bed telling her to turn around. My first look at her pussy. Stunning. So pretty and pink.

I didn't want to do this so soon but I reached my hands around onto to her incredible ass cheeks and pulled her forward to me. I put my mouth on her moist warm lips and began to kiss and rub her with my lips. She put her hands on my shoulders for balance and started a low intense erotic moan. I put my mouth on her very aroused clit and sucked it with a swirling ease. In seconds she was almost convulsing and she pushed her pussy hard into me then let out a long hard moan followed by "Oh God Im going to cum!!" I could feel her body convulse and felt her pussy get wetter as she began to pull my head into her crotch. I sucked a bit harder as she writhed through her orgasm. As she began to relax I started sucking her wet pussy again and she had another powerful orgasm. She flopped back on the bed almost glowing in the aftermath. She apologized for getting off so quick due to the length of time since she had sex. I told her was perfect, no worries at all as I was sure I would do the same. Hell I was almost afraid I was going to cum already. I stripped down quickly and crawled onto the bed. My dick was so strong and hard now. It had been awhile since I was aroused this much. "Lay back," she said "and let's see about that quick thing." Now this whole scene was progressing faster than I thought, but I just went with it. She slid over to me as I marveled at the mind blowing naked body next to me. She kissed me deep and long as we touched each in a slow loving fashion. She then began to kiss her way down as she put a hot hand around my cock. Her fingers gently felt the shaft and my now very fat swollen head. She caressed my balls and said "oh how nice." I keep my pubic hair short and have none on my balls.

Suddenly I feel hot breath on my dick and then the greatest feeling I ever had, her mouth swirling over my cock head and easing down as far as she could. She worked her tongue all over as her mouth slid up and down. I could feel it building up and told her I was going to cum. She smiled at me and said, "See, you too!" She then started to move her mouth faster up and down my bulging cock. I could not hold on any longer.

"Are you ready for my cum?" I asked.

"Hmm Hmm" she replied as she sucked on my hard head. Then I began to cum and for a moment was lost in pure heaven as I unloaded in her mouth. I felt a rainbow of emotions and was almost too shaken to move. It was an unbelievable blow job.

"See," she said with a laugh. "Quick for you too!"

"There is plenty more," I said as I snuggled next to her warm body. We lay together talking about what just happened as we lazily roamed our hands over each other. It was at that moment in time when all the past frustrations and heartache began to fade. Very shortly we began to continue our newly discovered sexual partnership in what turned out to perhaps the most incredible erotic weekend of my life. And that, my dear readers, will be in chapter two.