Going for a Bumble Hookup

I was never into hookups let alone casual stuff. But there comes certain times when you get lonely and you crave cuddles. On the weekend, when my friends left for home, I longed to be in a different space. I wished to be in someone’s house, cooking something, watching a movie or blasting music. I wanted to feel the warmth of someone and yearned for cuddles as well. More than everything I needed a change. I was sick of being in the hostel. I identified myself as a demisexual and I never wanted to have sex and a kiss was the maximum that I could do. I had met a guy on Grindr and he invited me to his place. He was a doctor so I found meeting him at his place safe. I made him promise that he will allow me to stay that night. He did that on account of me agreeing to have sex with him. I didn't want to sleep with him but I wanted to be in his house as I said earlier. He told me that he was having same-sex attraction and he was into sexting and gay porn and had never done anything with a guy. So he wanted to experiment with me, to check whether he was actually gay. He said his biggest dream was to blow someone. And I was stupid enough to go even after hearing all this. When I was about to board the bus I was having second thoughts. What if he turns out to be a serial killer even if he is a doctor? What if he cuts my dick? Brushing aside such thoughts and mustering up courage I boarded the bus.

While I was on the bus he asked me whether I wanted to smoke with him. I had stopped drinking and smoking a few years back and I wanted to be in my complete senses. He sent me a snap holding a joint and I got scared as he was going to pick me up in his car that too being high. I got angry and scolded him for creating unsafe situations like this, jokes apart what I was actually doing was the most unsafe thing. His excuse was that he is high all the time. When I got down from the bus he was waiting with his car. I got inside and he looked older than in pictures. Anyway, I was excited about staying at a new place. His house was spacious and to my surprise, I found there extra beds. Now I realise that this guy must have had roommates. As soon as I entered the house I realised that he wanted to get it done as soon as possible. He lit a joint and I decided to take a bath. Still, I don’t know why the water was so hot as I was literally getting boiled. Still, I washed myself as I didn’t want to be sweaty while I doing it. It was that I didn’t want to smell bad for him and later he should not tell others that he had to do it with an unhygienic person.

I got out of the shower in a towel and he started observing me and said that I look hot. I was too skinny and lacked self-confidence. This was the first time someone complimented me and I eased up a bit. He asked me if I was wearing anything underneath and I replied in the negative. He got excited and asked me to go near him. I wanted to take things slow so took a new boxer out of my bag and wore it. Then I sat with him a little close on the bed and both of us were thinking how to begin it. I should have noticed that even from the beginning he was not comfortable accepting his sexuality. H said, “Listen, this is gonna be like a clinical procedure just to check whether I am into guys.” he was He said, “See, how are you gonna start, for me I will start with your dick”. I said that I may first kiss him. He was so insecure about accepting his sexuality and was trying to give the image that he is not really into this but was willing to experiment with me. I asked him to play something, and he got confused whether it was about both of us playing games or playing music. In that confusion, he put his arms around me. I hugged him but he was eager to take off his clothes. Before I knew he was blowing me and wanking for me. I was trying to be more passionate but he was doing it fast. I did my best to make myself clean, but when he kissed I realised that this guy hadn’t even brushed. Even though his hair was wet he smelled really bad without a proper shower. As I have said, he was pretty high while doing it. He said, “It's my first time with a guy I should be high dude”. It has been just a few minutes, and I saw that his windows were transparent and the curtains were not covering them. I got scared as we were really visible from the outside. I told him that and at first he said stuff like its fine, they don’t care kind of things. But a few minutes later he said he was scared and wanted to end it abruptly. He asked me to leave as soon as possible and at first, he said that the windows being open turned him off and then he said that he is actually not into this. He added that my being really cute has failed to satisfy him, so he might not be into guys. Within a few minutes, I was out of the house and he dropped me at the bus station. Still, I wanted to be nice and offered him a hug, but he just wanted to get rid of me as soon as possible. I texted him a few times, while on the bus, saying that it was great to meet him as if it would make him feel better. But there was no response. I grew terribly sad. I couldn’t believe how fast he switched his persona after meeting me. The guy who said that I can stay and I can visit whenever I wanted to suddenly wanted to get rid of me that too abruptly. I felt like shit. I regretted a lot going to his place and still, I totally avoid going to someone’s place to meet them.