Why I'm Glad My Twin Sister Died

The most unusual or unexpected feeling I have ever had was feeling glad my twin sister Holly died. Holly died last year when she was hit by a drunk driver trick-or-treating with her friends. I stayed home because I was sick and also I knew I was 'fifth-wheeling' because the group was all her friends and I knew no one would miss me. I did cry at first but mostly I am happy she's gone. I have never told anyone about this unusual feeling because I think my mom and dad would be mad and everybody would like me less than they already do. Why I feel glad Holly is dead is because of 3 main reasons which are that we were too similar (looks only), we were too different, and because after she died people are nicer to me. In this essay I will go into more detail about all of these reasons.

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First of all, Holly and I were identical twins which means we looked exactly alike. Mommy always wanted to dress us in the same clothes. She thought it was fun but it made everything worse because people always said things like 'we can't tell you apart' and they would call me Holly and Holly Hannah. People always put us together in things like we were a set, like a two-pack you buy in a store. Holly liked it but I didn't because I wanted to be just Hannah and not Holly-and-Hannah. They acted like it wasn't a big deal when they messed us up but I thought they should be more sorry because at the end of the day we are different people. Also us looking exactly the same never worked in my favor. If I did something nice, my teacher said 'thank you Holly' (but it wasn’t Holly, it was me) and if Holly was bad (which she sometimes was!) the teacher would say 'Hannah we talked about this' so I got blamed.

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Second of all, we were too different to be twins. If we were different and not twins, it wouldn't be as bad I dont think because people wouldn't compare us in everything. Some examples of how we are different are 1) Holly liked camping and sports and I like to be in my room and read, 2) Holly had a lot of friends and I don't and 3) Holly did not get so anxious she got sick and then left the classroom when she wasn't supposed to or attacked another student with scissors or wrote secret curses for all the other kids to die that the teachers found and told our parents- but I did. 4) Holly is really nice and I'm not that nice. That sometimes made me mad because if she was less nice I wouldn't always be the mean twin which everyone thought I was but I wasn’t, Holly was just stupid nice.

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The last reason I am glad Holly died is that people are nicer to me after. Examples of this are my teacher in third grade let me pick my seat after Holly died and also let me do my last two school projects without a partner even though it's the rule that we always have to have a partner. Another example is that right after, kids in my class that were mean to me stopped being mean to me and some of them even invited me to play with them (they don't invite me to play anymore, but they are still not mean, they just ignore me which is better). The last example of this I will give is my parents. When Holly was around I felt like they always liked her better, but now I am their only option so they like me best. They are always worried about me, which can be annoying like when they made me see a therapist or try to hug me too much but mostly it is a good change because they say they are proud of me a lot and last Christmas, right after Holly died they gave me a ton of presents.

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In conclusion, I was glad my twin sister died, for the reasons of: she was too similar to me, we were too different, and people were nicer to me afterwards. I feel like this qualifies for the five-paragraph essay topic of 'an unusual or unexpected feeling you have had' because no one else I knew was glad Holly died. I felt like I had to pretend I was super sad, which I was a little but not a lot. Holly said she loved me a lot, and I think I loved her a little, but not a ton and I don't know if I believed she really loved me or she just felt sorry for me or bought that stuff about how because we were twins we were supposed to have a special connection. Anyway, it is easier with her gone and I can just be me. Now I am the best one because I am the only one.