Where the Walls Still Know My Name

I didn’t realize I was a ghost until I walked into the living room and no one looked up.

No startled glances. No shivers. No “Did you feel that?”

Just silence. Familiar silence. Heavy, dusty, and thick like the curtains we never changed.

At first, I thought I was dreaming. Everything looked exactly the same: the maroon tiles, the purple room, the photo of my fifth birthday crooked on the wall. But when I touched the doorknob, my hand passed through.

That’s when I knew.

The house had a pulse once. It beat to the rhythm of holidays, burnt toast, door slams, laughter, arguments that ended with hugs. A home with a memory of its own, alive in the creak of the floorboards and the slam of the screen door.

Now it barely breathes.

There are strangers here. They walk through the kitchen like it’s just a room. They don’t know that the third cupboard squeaks because it’s hiding a love letter taped behind the shelf. They don’t know the backyard tree was once a pirate ship, a rocket, a secret fort with passwords whispered in dirt-smudged hands.

They don’t know.

Time didn't steal this place from me — people did. Gentrified it. Sterilized it. Repainted the walls where we marked our heights in pencil and pride.

They scrubbed away the fingerprints but not the history. Not the things I buried here.

I remember the fire. Not real fire — the glow, the warmth. Christmases wrapped in flannel and cinnamon, Dad’s big chair sitting empty the year after he died. No one sat there again, not even by accident.

That chair was sacred.

That silence, sacred too.

Eventually, I left. I had to.

College. Cities. Lovers. Addictions. Recovery.

And then, nothing.

When Mom passed, I came back for the funeral. But the house... she didn’t know me anymore. She smelled of disinfectant and oxygen tanks. The couch was replaced. The singing was gone.

And so was I.

Now? I drift.

Through time. Through doorways. Through versions of me that still laugh and bleed and believe.

Through my ten-year-old self who used to press her nose to the frosty window, waiting for the first snow.

Through my twenty-five-year-old self who lay on that bathroom floor, certain she'd lost it all.

Through my grandmother’s ghost, who still hums lullabies in the laundry room.

It’s all here. Every version of us. Every echo.

They’ll sell this house soon. I’ve seen the boxes. The estate signs. The arguments between cousins over who gets the china.

They’ll gut it. Flip it. Strip it of its soul.

But I will still be here.

When the new owners stand in the doorway and suddenly feel the need to cry, that’ll be me.

When the power flickers every year on December 14th — my birthday — that’ll be me.

When they try to hang something on the nail under the archway and it never stays… that’ll be me too.

This place was not built of wood and nails.

It was built of lullabies and secrets. Of late-night talks and last goodbyes.

It was built of us.

And they will never understand.

So I linger. I haunt. I wait.

Because love doesn’t leave, and neither do ghosts like me.

I was born in this house.

I lived, broke, healed, and died in it — over and over again.

And when the last picture is taken down, the last box wheeled out, the last breath of “home” whispered in the hallway…

I’ll still be here.

Click.

Like a memory.

Like a secret.

Like a song only the walls remember.

Forever home.

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