Train to nowhere but ..

She went into the train as her nearest kind of a shelter and escape. Waking up she had no memory of what had happened to her, She had no ticket, no idea where the train is going and where and when it is gonna stop. The idea of finding out wasn't also for her. She felt like she want to hide from all worlds and from everyone inside in there for a moment this feeling kept her trapped in some blurry memories that She still couldn't see clearly to know where was she actually heading to.

Suddenly She felt that love state and a feeling of freedom synchronizing with the whole and all community in the train. The one that You have when You are really young and travelling exploring on your own.

Even the kind of excitement to explore the new unknown.

She felt like she does really want to connect again and even willing to start new connection and getting the information for her path in this train.

However people that surrounded her didn't seem so open to have a chat. She decided to walk around and find a better place or maybe even a company to be with for a while during this train trip reaching nowhere so far as She knew nothing about.

She decided to go to the bar area to maybe grab some food there was nobody in there, maybe it was too early for a breakfast or morning tea or a coffee. She finally decided to ask anyone to find out the time. There was someone standing in the hall smoking cigarettes. His silhouette was quite thin and firm his side profile revealed He is not only handsome kind of a male but also His clothes were enough elegant to reveal his status. She was dressed randomly you couldn't guess Her age, occupation or a job, nor Her status. She had Her voice shaking but still approaching the Handsome male and decided to find out more about the train.

The men suddenly stopped smoking and started to stare at Her while she was approaching Him. It made Her even more shy but also more open and confident to ask being already spotted. He seemed kind of amazed by Her look and the way She carried Herself towards Him. It seemed like they know each other from years. She finally got closer to Him enough to say Hello ! He caught a blush pretending It wasn't Him who actually starred at Her. It caused Her a Huge smile and Her face started to shine even much more brighter and with openness of a happy child.

She started to feel as if that's no longer about the train and the questions. It felt like a destiny to met Him. There was something about His attention and attitude that started to intruiged Her. She started to wander if She does really knew Him from past.

Hello ? She finally got the courage to start the conversation.

Yes - He answered.

I would like to find out and suddenly She realized that asking the question like Where are we heading will be more than bizzare to start from. Hmm Can I know the time ? She kind of silently asked.

Yes, please it's 6.30 am - He said.

Oh, Thank you - She answered

Do you think they will open the Bar around 7:00 ?- She asked

Oh, I am afraid they are opening full service around 8:30 and most of the breakfast is reserved. They will open the area without reservation around 11:00. I think we all have this information on the other side of the ticket. He politely answered.

Ah, Yes behind the ticket She bowed Her head down as a little girl trying to say but I don't have it and I am completely alone. Thank you, You are very kind. She answered as If nothing.

You are welcome. He answered with an expression of a shy smile.

The conversation and situation She found herself in was enough embarrassing that She decided to walk away not carrying more courage to ask more information.

Hello Miss ? - He suddenly asked had not idea from where this affection and attraction arrived towards Her but couldn't just let Her go this way.

Yes ? - She turned from already a rush of trying to run away.

I actually have two places reserved for a breakfast and full service till the evening. Would you like to join me ? He seemed so confident asking, the answer No was not included from His eyes there was a curiosity that made Her to hang on for a moment.

I actually - She wasn't yet sure about the answer. She had no phone, no ticket, no memory and She met a handsome stranger asking Her to join for a breakfast or even whole day. She tried to answer but my ticket ..

He said - Oh, no worry I can give You mine with breakfast reservation.

Oh - okey then, let's meet at 8:30 at the Bar ? - She suggested.

Yes, great ;) - answered the men

She wasn't yet sure about the idea at the same time She had little choice about it. All that troubled Her head was why is She on that train and where is She going ? Where is Her luggage ?

She definitely needed to find out the destination before meeting this handsome individual otherwise She will be more than awkward during the next conversation with Him. She kind of bothered Herself for no reason.

What was more important was to get back to her consciousness and restore memory or maybe it was better this way to let go the memory. Start new life.

What if She has a husband? Boyfriend? Or love ? What if she has kids ? So many questions were jumping in her head. She needed to stop and take a longer break for some breathing.

While she was taking the breath a very pretty young girl was giving away travel magazines to all passengers. She thought maybe that's the chance. Can I get one?

Yes, sure - the girl answered

She felt like someone out of this script out of the movie. She went through the magazine there was no info beside products with discounts and some not very interesting interview with the latest celebrities. She could recall one of them. She suddenly saw a shift in Her memory where she could link the celebrity to Her Instagram account and recall Her latest posts. I saw them last week she said. Omg ! my memory is coming back to place. Her happiness was arriving greatly! I am all right I will be fine ! She started to talk loudly. It gave her courage to ask more questions maybe someone else this time to find out a place of a destination.

She already made a plan. Hello Madam ! She turned to an elderly lady that was probably looking for a toilet in the long hall. Do you know how much time is still left for the next stop ? Next destination? Enthusiastically she asked.

Next destination ? The elderly woman answered with a doze of an irony. There is only one destination with this train.

Yeah I guess so - She answered waving Her eyebrows in a questioning way.

I am in a hurry to the toilet Miss, please forgive me - the woman replied.

Yes, yes sorry Madam. - She answered even much more confused. Still carrying a hope.

Well in the last scenario She may go for the breakfast and find out during the conversation with the handsome male is what She thought about next.

She started to walk pretending She is going for Her seat. She actually had no seat, no number. So she was just going from one place to another. She started to feel sleepy and tired, though If she wanna make it for the breakfast She does really need a good rest. There was not much time left. She just went into the first free seat she saw. She looked outside the window and She saw the train passing by with the speed of the light, She got into her senses by the speed of the light am I in Asia ? Are we going to Tokyo ? Or Singapore?. The amount of International Travelleres was high so She wasn't even able to spot by the nationality or get any clue about it. Suddenly she said to herself Omg ! I can check the infos on the train and the language!! I need to find a board with rules ! She loudly exclaimed to Herself.

She quickly left the seat as if in some kind of an almost a paranoic state in the look for rules and warnings written anywhere. Most of which were in English but She needed to find the one translated in more languages. She came to the toilet and saw Russian like letters. She started to feel discomforted. She couldn't believe Her eyes so it's Europe .. it's Russia we May go to Moscow or from Moscow.

She didn't feel safe anymore and full of worry. She started to dream about not being in the train rather quickly get out from it.

The tiredness caught her terribly low she just went for another free seat and fell asleep quickly.

After not even 30 minutes the conductor started to yell at Her Miss, Miss , wake up ticket please !

Miss, ... ssss please wake up ! There are two thousand more passengers to be checked ! - Conductor almost shouted out !

Two thousand She moan from a half asleep away that's a long train she talked herself silently. Oh I must have left the bag in the toilet !? Where is my bag She exclaimed? - in a trusty way

The conductor answered Miss I need to follow You to the toilet then ! Okey let's go !

She stood up from a seat as if nothing and followed Him instead.

Which way Miss ? He asked

I think I came from that direction on the left the last time .. She moaned.

Okey let's go fast ! Hopefully it will be still there this train is not for an average person wallet. Let's hope no robbery in here - He replied without an idea or tiny suspicion about the case.

She started to worry and sweat on the way thinking what will be next. Her nervousness was reaching a peak inside but not for that long.

On the way passing by the Handsome men with cigarettes appeared

Oh it's You ? - He said surprised

Yes - She replied quite worried

Any trouble ? - He asked

We are looking for a bag that Miss left in the toilet maybe you saw it ? - said conductor

I was there Yes, I haven't seen any. I wasn't looking around that much. - He replied .

Oh Miss wait, that's Your ticket with breakfast service included in case You needed to check in. - He gave Her the ticket.

The ticket ? - Conductor said

Do you travel together? - Conductor asked kind of surprised

Yes - answered the men, I mean from now on Yes ! and He put a smile on His confident face look.

Well, in this case let me check Your ticket Miss, and please go back to look for a bag, if it's missing please inform me or any other security guards, they will be walking here quite soon I guess - Conductor confirmed in an official tone.

Yes - She answered totally glad and confused.

How will She explain herself and what about the bag that doesn't even exist at least not in this train - She thought.

The Handsome men introduced himself, I am Victor let me accompany You to find the bag,

Oh, You are so kind, How will I thank You enough Sir, - She replied.

Victor, my name is Victor I hope I don't look that much old for You to call me by name.

Oh no Victor, I am Senia, She replied completely out of nowhere.

Senia that's an interesting name

I think I could give Him any kind of name and He would just say Yes to everything.

His kindness was both fascinating and a little bit suspicious.

She didn't know what to say on the way so She asked; So are You living in Russia ?

Russia ? - He answered a bit shocked.

Why is that ? - Victor looked distressed

This train doesn't travel from there or in there ? - I should have read the info on the ticket. She thought.

Victor started to be more than confused by that question and started to wander what is it all about ? What was so attracting Him to Her that whole mystery since the very start of Hello !

He decided to ask straight forward question. His intuition was leading Him into. So You didn't buy the ticket for this train ?

She felt more than embarrassed to answer at the same time was it Her fault? Not at All. She was just thrown into that kind of a life nightmare.

No I didn't, I have no idea where we are going and why I am here. Her honesty made a huge impression on Him.

Miss I could say the same even though I bought the ticket I know where are we going and I was supposed to be with my future wife. Life is a big Joke at times and also a huge Mystery.

I think this man doesn't care much, absorbed with His own tragedy, I was just on the way for His suffering she moaned silently to Herself.

Why is that ? What happened? - She asked

I cheated on Her, not on purpose not even in real, I cheated on Her virtually completely accidentally I didn't even know I can feel this way for another unknown. He said having his mind more troubled but somehow He felt relief of telling it to a stranger like me. She was glad for His honest way.

I am sorry Victor, I hope life will treat You better next time, You will be in love. She said.

I am in love with life and with Her completely but I can't manage my life, my wife, myself anymore. He said

I hope You will find the way Victor. She said

That's the way, that's the only way to take this journey alone He said

That's why We are on this train, that's why We met in here

Coincidences you think are for nothing ? He said.

I don't know Victor, I have no memory from past that much anymore, I don't know what am I doing here. I met You and All seems different, better all tragedy of this situation became some kind of exciting discovery for me.

You see, I knew that's the only way to think from that perspective things that don't work will lead You to something new. He said.

Victor ? - She asked

Yes !? - Victor replied

I am serious I don't know what I am doing here, I have no bag, no documents, ticket, luggage no memory of how I gotten in here. She said once again

Why do you care ? Victor answered.

You have ticket, we can spend all day figuring things out. His way of saying things without a care was both showing of his confidence, wisdom but also revealing a bit egocentric approach to an issue.

What will happen if we reach the station and I will be asked to show documents? She worried.

That shouldn't be of Your worry Senia.

No, why so ? - She asked

This train will never stop. It never does stop it only goes forward. You are here not for a reason. You probably reached a moment in life where You had no choice but to go away from circle of no stop.

The only escape was this train the train of going only forward without carrying for the past, without the stop. He added we don't know where we are going but we are going !

She couldn't understand, she was trying to manage. She looked at the ticket it was written No stop train - one way ticket - no station

She slowly begun to understand so we will never get out from here ? She asked

Never, but people will be coming here more and more from nowhere and everywhere like You did. Like it happened to You ! .

So we are stuck here forever ? Without a choice ? - She reacted quite shocked this time She couldn't take it in a calm way.

Yes, kind of Yes and No - He said

It's not We who decide about the future of this train but there is a different choice a different way for those who learn to really love.

Oh, so It's not so bad yes, - she said with Hope

Well it's like You can't plan or make things it will all happen naturally for the luckiest ones.

Real love will save You from the non stop without a stop life.

That's the only solution to be back again in a new dimensions and out of this train.

Miss Senia, - He said with a goodbye sound;

I must go, my mission in here is over.

Hmm, - what about the breakfast ? - She said

The breakfast, You have the ticket I will be there but I need help another. I am sorry I didn't explain You all at first. I thought you will not accept if I did.

Oh, She replied totally misguided by his way

She shouldn't have put on some hope for that connection. Things that seem like a magic are never here for longer.

Victor ? - she said ; Is it a love train ?

He smiled, Yes ! It is - Victor answered

She smiled too.

They disappeared going into the opposite directions.

They saw each other at the breakfast. He was there with another man and two women. She was there alone sitting next to the Italian family that was making her smile every time they said a joke. She knew love can't find her and She can't find a love. She knew it must be someone completely unexpected someone new - She thought It was Him.

She lost the way but She found her sense.