The regret of obession

The regrets of the infatuation keep a girl, she fell in love with a boy in the same class, at that time, she was on the second year, not beautiful learning achievement is also general, and she liked the boy is the best boy in their class, she knows there are many girls like him. Because of the self-conscious ordinary, the girl hid this feeling deep in the heart, no one told, she just study very hard, especially the boys are good at science and chemistry, she learned especially good, is the class in addition to his best. So because of this reason they have more contact than usual between them, she often find excuses to ask him for advice on the subject of physics and chemistry, and he is also very patient to make the answer. At the time of the problem, facing the boy's serious expression and detailed explanation, the girl's small heart filled with happiness ...... in the boy was transferred to the girl's neighboring table one day, in the discussion of the topic with him, the girl deliberately dropped the pen in her hand on the ground between and the boy, and then deliberately pretended to inadvertently put her hand on the boy. Bend down to pick up the pen ...... in the girl's memory that was her first and only physical contact with the boy, when that feeling of excitement and do thievery, still very clearly in the mind, although it has been so many years, every time the thought of inadvertently will still have a feeling of rapid heartbeat. The first time I saw him, he was in a different class, so she couldn't see his figure and hear his voice every day, her heart was filled with loss, and her grades slipped unnoticed. Until the arrival of the first monthly exam in junior high school, she saw the honor roll his ranking is still in the third position, while her name is not on it ...... his heart was touched, so from then on she began to study again wholeheartedly, and the purpose is only one: to make their names ranked in the nearest place to his. Just in the size of the test again and again her ranking is always one or two behind him, no matter how hard she can not reach the fourth position, again and again disappointed but turned into her motivation to learn, finally in the last of that midterm, she succeeded in getting their names ranked together, only this time she third he fourth ...... similar results Let them choose the same school, just the same school different class, but, for such a result, the girl has been very satisfied. Just after the start of the school year she could rarely see him, even if they met he only lightly greeted, such a situation makes the girl feel infinite sadness. The second year of high school, she and he were reassigned to a class, just know the news girl excited insomnia for several days. But the situation after the start of the school year but again let the girl feel disappointed, because his side is always surrounded by too many girls, while she can only be a quiet spectator, although she also always look for opportunities to find the tacit understanding when they once discussed the problem, but, helpless, junior high school memories of him seems to have been very blurred. However, the girl's appreciation for the boy grew with time. The name of the boy gradually became synonymous with the perfect boy in her mind, and she was deeply fascinated by him. The time flies in the high school three years ended, the welcome is a long summer, also in that summer the girl deeply experienced the boy's attentiveness and thoughtfulness, in time and again in the gathering, the girl's heart originally scattered emotions gradually converge into a deep fondness. However, the girl still did not express something to the boy, still playing her big-hearted character as a friend. The girl's world completely lost the boy's figure, and it was at that time that the girl realized that without the boy's world loaded with only loneliness, and it was at that time that the girl was hooked on sleep, because as soon as she slept, in the dream she could see the boy's bright smile and gentle voice ...... just every time The waking up thoughts will increase a few points. There was a time when the girl was hooked on the Internet, and she ran to the school's Internet cafe almost every day, because she knew that the boy often online, and every time she saw the boy's name on QQ and classmates, the girl's heart would miraculously calm down, and not see his name her heart would be very uneasy ...... when the sisters in the dorm room were talking about When their love, the girl will quietly lie in bed outlining the boy's outline. The girl did not know if this was called love, so she did not dare to say his name out easily, and the girl did not say this feeling to the boy, because the girl understood in her heart that the boy's feelings for her and her for him were different. The actual fact is that you can find a lot of people who are not able to get a good deal on a lot of things. What do you feel about me?" The boy over there froze for half a day, he returned a sentence: "To be honest with you do not feel, all along I only think of you as a good friend, and I promised a person to wait for her four years." Such an answer, in the girl's expected, but personally heard him say, her heart still in a sudden feeling of being hollowed out. The tears just flowed down, for the first time for the two words of feelings, but also for the first time to experience the cramps of a broken heart. The actual fact is, you can't let go, you can't stop missing him, you can call him and say with indifferent words that she will also wait for him for four years, but she knows in her own heart that saying it represents a promise, not a joke, and this also becomes the best excuse for her to miss him and dream of him, deep inside, she is always looking forward, looking forward to the day when her obsessive waiting can expect a sincere return from him. ...... in the contradictory struggle to let go and insist on two years of time, in two years of time, the girl has experienced a lot of maturity and a lot of thinking on this issue, she gradually understood that her insistence and infatuation in exchange for perhaps only his burden and scruples. So on the day he sent a searching text message, she knew he might have found a girl he wanted, so she took the opportunity to tell him that she understood her feelings for him were not love, and she would no longer insist on that four-year contract in the past. But the girl did not know that the boy's girlfriend is the girl's best friend, in just know, the girl covered the quilt silently thought the whole night, the original intention to ignore him and her friends, but, in the end, the girl is still too kind, not two days, she gave up their original insistence, because she did not want her friends and he was hurt, just she seems to forget, in fact, she is the one The most deeply hurt people ......