The last breathe of love

You never know what you have until it's gone.

A statement of truth in this current moment. Because as I watched the yellow I missed the blue , as the clouds sunk I missed the way they so effortlessly swayed and wished I could dance with them one last time .

I lay on the grass , the green shards intertwining with my skin quilting me from danger , it was a feeling I knew I would miss -whereever I ended up .

My heart was still beating and my lungs were still full but every moment could be my last , and so I savoured what I had left.

I watched it happen , watched as the world I had taken for granted collapsed around me . Civilization was lost , hope was lost and yet here I lay. Wasting away like this was a normal friday , lay as if everything was nothing and I was a perpetual child like one before .

We never know when we're running out of time.

A presence lingered near mine , the only thing managing to draw my attention from the beyond. It was him , smooth skin , soft hair . The last person I would see before I die .

A tear pricked my eye and his sturdy hand wiped it away , a soft smile gracing his lips . And in those dark brown eyes no ounce of fear lingered , no heavy weight of death dragged down his last bit of life.

“I love you.”

I shook my head . “No you don't .”

“I love you .”

The tears now fell , cascading over my pale skin and joining the grass as if they were so desperate to protect me from what would come .

But the tears weren't fear. I wasn't scared.

“You're just saying that . You're going to die , so you think it's right .” I couldn't control the shake in my tone .

How dare he!

How dare he?

“No , I’ve sat with regret for a while , sat with the missed opportunities . Yet I can never find regret , I can never stoop to hating you. I came here tonight not to be unfair , but I could not live in the afterlife without letting you know that you had my heart in this life. And if you believe in the next life , I promise to find you then and right my wrongs.”

Vulnerability emitted from us both , the deity of destruction could wait , wait for us because we couldn't leave yet.

I wanted to beg for time , plead asphyxiation for the knowledge of not having enough time left.

“I loved you from the very beginning .”

“And I loved you too .” I was sobbing now, my heart pounding and my head racing .

I had to die to feel so alive .

Oh how fate was cruel.

I sat up and touched his face , opening myself to the darkness that would ensue us and the air that would fail us. I embraced it all to touch him one last time.

It wasn’t enough , but it was all we had .

“Trust it to be now .” I half laughed and he bought us closer , placing his head on mine . “That it all comes out.”

His scent corrupted my soul, stealing my final breath . And with him in my heart and lungs I died a pleased woman .

A loved woman.

“Fate had ideas , we are not over my love. This is a short -passage until we meet again."