THE FEAR that has stopped people from getting success. The one thing that comes when you try to do something new and that's normal nothing to worry about. The feeling that stops us from moving one step forward. Most of us are just walking the path that has been already walked by many people so, we can clearly visualize how our life is going to be. It's just an stereotype that you should complete your high school, go to university and then get a job, get married, have children and now you have the responsibility of your child, you need to give them proper care, education and every sorts of thing and while fulfilling that you forget about yourself. Your dreams now no longer exist cause you got to feed your child.
The emotion of fear stops us from achieving what we really want. We care less about our own opinion and give priority to others. Most of the people concern: OMG what people might think about me? Did I did something wrong? What if I fail, everyone is going to laugh at me. What if I made mistake, I will be punished. Instead of thinking in such a way we should be questioning ourselves What if I succeed? What if I get it right? What if I didn’t even try?
Do you what’s the difference between being young and old? I feel it’s energy. When you are young you are energetic to give whatever it takes to get your goal but when you are old you have plenty of time but no energy. So, I want you to work hard for your dreams no matter how long it takes have patience that one day I am surely gonna make it so that when you grew old you don’t have to regret that why didn’t I even try? Life’s beautiful and we should enjoy every part of it.
THE BEGINING OF FEAR
It’s already 12 o’clock and I’m just turning sides so that I can fall in sleep. But I'm not able to do that. I don't know what am I feeling. may be I am feeling lost. The fear is eating me. The fear of not getting it all right, the fear of not being successful, the fear of always being average that's killing me. What am I even doing? I just can't hold it anymore. Is it the loneliness that's haunting me or it is me just overthinking about the future. I am surrounded by many people but I feel like I'm alone just lost. Now that I'm growing I fear to meet people may be because I don't want to hurt myself by my own expectations. I want to do a lot of things for my family especially for my mother and for the poor people to become their savior but not being able to do anything is killing me. I am getting older day by day. My energy is draining. I just can't imagine what's ahead. Am I missing something? Am I being traumatized ? Why am I so distracted?
The fear of being judged gets me right before when I try to express myself. Everything that I have done, everything that I'm doing comes infront of my eye just like the flashback. Everyday it feels the same it feels like the those thing have already happened and I'm living those moments twice. Being responsible is hard and I fear what if I mess up everything. I'm trying harder to fix myself and the situation to smile and say everything is alright but deep down I knew it's not. Everything is falling apart. Is it just the feeling that's letting me down so I stood in front of the mirror and asked myself What do I lack in your life? Is it the love am I looking for or is it the purpose am I trying to find. May be we all are lost in certain way and we all are trying to figure out and be happy.
May be I should think about the good things that might happen to me. It feels like I fed myself with more negative thoughts than positive ones now that is making the great difference. People of my age are making money out there, going an dates, going for abroad study but me when I see myself I feel I couldn't make any of these things true. May be my time is yet to come. IF everyone's life would be same then what's the point of living. So, yes everyone has their own story, their own way of presenting life.
The fear of not trying is killing me even more. DO I fear failure? May be yes, but if I didn't even try how would I know what's going to work and what's not? the confusion is getting real.
The alarm clock rang. My head is getting really heavy. I just stooped the alarm and turned my side. Today, the most difficult day of my life..................
TO BE CONTINUED......
PART II
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Comments (1)
Nice story i like it. Dear we have to support each other its will grow us faster do you agre with me i am already your supporter now don,t forget me also i need.