Tender Harbor

Seeing the empty house, an inexplicable sadness welled up in my heart. It's been six months since we divorced Wang Lin, and this home, which originally belonged to us, is now listed for sale with an agency. But in a week, I received several calls one after another asking to see the house.

When the house is sold, there will be no more connection between Wang Lin and me, everything is gone with the wind. Before I got married, one of my elders seriously said to me: "Shanshan, the relationship between husband and wife is the most delicate one among all human relationships, when two people are good, they are like glue, they want to become one person and never separate. However, if the heart is far away, in the blink of an eye, they can become strangers, even more than strangers. A long-lasting home is to be operated by two people together with care." I also have a lot of shortcomings in this marriage, but Wang Lin's uncontrollable bad temper is the root cause of the eventual dissolution of this marriage.

The company's main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the public. In this way, we put together two tables, two men and two women, one of the men is Wang Forest.

I work in a career unit, coincidentally the place of work and Wang Forest unit are very close, a five-minute bike ride to. So, Wang Lin in the pursuit of my time, every day at noon finds me to eat lunch together. My friends say I am slow to warm up, but Wang Lin came to me every day but did not make me resentful, maybe this is the legendary fate.

Wang Lin was born with a kind of affinity, often with a smile on his face, sometimes it is not funny a thing, he can also be happy for half a day. On the surface, it seems to be the kind of gentleman with a good temper. I am the opposite of him, look too serious, and seem not easy to approach.

Six months later, Wang Lin and I received a marriage license and stepped into the marriage hall.

I often hear people say, "For people who love each other, time is not an issue, it feels right, on the line". Time can prove the problem, I and Wang Forest together for half a year is too short, so short that both sides have not fully in front of each other to expose their character defects.

Marriage opened another window of life for me, the original gentleman, there is quite a violent side.

In the third month of marriage, we had our first argument. The day I got home from work, I was supposed to buy food and cook dinner, but the unit had a temporary problem, so I forgot to notify Wang Lin. When I pushed open the door, he was sitting on the sofa watching TV with a serious face.

"I'm sorry, I was supposed to cook the meal. Let's eat outside, it's getting late." I didn't expect him to be so angry about this little thing. "Eat outside! Eat outside! Eat outside all day long!" Wang Lin suddenly stood up from the sofa and slammed the remote control in his hand onto the floor, "Do you look like a housewife? How many times have you cooked since you got married?"

After three months of marriage, in addition to vacation, we are almost all at home to cook and eat, most of the time I burn. I didn't understand where his unwarranted accusation came from.

"What do you mean by housewife-like? Have I cooked less since we got married?" I also came home from work after a long day, and for no reason he accused me, I could not help but be angry, and my voice also followed. The consequences were more and more serious, Wang Lin not only dropped the remote control but also smashed the glass to the kitchen floor, sending a small piece of tile flying.

This is the first time I faced the state of Wang Lin's fury, he shot the table and hit the bench to drop things, and the usual gentle look disappeared without a trace, at that moment, I realized that I do not understand the man who has only been married for three months.

Later, in my tears, the quarrel ended. When Wang Forest returned to calm, he was a million times more chagrined and regretted his fuss. He then told me that the unit encountered a bad thing, in front of others is not a good attack, it is held in the heart, plus home to see me not at home, cold pots and pans, the fire.

Which person is not angry when the teeth will also touch the tongue it? After the anger subsided, our lives returned to peace. However, just like Pandora's box was opened, Wang Lin's bad temper in their next married life, not only did not restrain but also intensified and intensified.

The most unbearable thing for me is that his bad temper can only be deeply experienced by me who is closest to him, in front of outsiders, he is always Mr. Good Temper.

In the spring of 2012, my cousin suffered from breast disease and went to the city for treatment. To save money, my mother discussed with us whether she could stay at my home. I agreed, and Wang Lin assured my mother on the phone that he would do his best to host.

My cousin stayed at my house for half a month, and Wang Lin was polite. The cousin just left, and Wang Lin used it as an excuse to get angry again, not only as before to drop pots and pans, but also cursed, saying that my mother's family does not respect him, and preempts him, he does not like it in his heart, but also can not refuse.

So, whenever he encountered something that didn't go his way, he jumped up and down like a thunderstorm. What makes me feel even more aggrieved is that when I talk about his temper is not good, most of my friends around me do not believe it, but think I am fault-finding and demanding of him.

At the beginning of this year, he once again used his home as an emotional dumping ground to vent his anger, disregarding the fact that I was more than two months pregnant, and amid the tug of war, our child was miscarried.

I heard this story during my recuperation: L likes to ask friends to come home for dinner because Mrs. L is a good cook, with surprises in Western and Chinese food, and when Mrs. L was washing dishes, her friend came up to her and exclaimed: "Sister-in-law, you cook well. She was surprised: "Really? I've never been complimented by L on ordinary home-cooked food." My friend was about to add a sentence like "He doesn't know he's in a happy place" when she heard L's voice ringing through the living room: "Why are the baby's pants soiled?" The first thing that happened was that the baby's pants were stained with a piece of paint, and L complained that his wife was at home all day and didn't even notice it, so how could she be a mother?

I suddenly understood: a decent family, comfortable and clean living room, nutritious and delicious meals, these, how much patience and energy a woman needs to pay. However, a pair of unrelated dirty pants is enough to wipe out all the advantages. The fact is that you will be able to find a person to come back to and pick your faults for the rest of your life. I don't need a husband who is always singing from ear to ear. At my insistence, we quickly went through the divorce process. I feel that home should be a warm place, a harbor for the soul, and everyone in this home must maintain its peace and tranquility.

I sincerely hope to meet a man who knows how to love and give, knows how to create the warmth of a family, hand in hand with life.