Slow Ride

We drove up the snowy, winding road towards the cozy A-frame cabin. I could see it nestled in the middle of two tall blue spruce trees. Everything was sprinkled with the freshly fallen snow and looked like something fresh from those travel magazines. I pinched myself so I knew that this was real.

He placed his hand on the center console and I slipped mine in his. It was so warm and strong. I felt safe with him.

The entire ride up here we said nothing. Nothing needed to be said. The connection I felt with him was one I have never experienced before. Just his presence was enough for me in this moment.

He pulled into the space at the front of the cabin and turned off the car. He turned to look at me and his gaze was so gentle and sure I knew I had made the right decision coming here with him for the weekend.

He leaned over and his lips brushed mine in the softest kiss I’ve ever received. I punched myself again to make certain this wasn’t a dream. He slowly release my hand and started to climb out of the car. I took his cues and followed him out. I headed to the trunk to help with the bags. He gave me the most peculiar look as I lifted my bag out of the trunk and began carrying it to the cabin.

Had he never experienced this from a woman? Clearly he’s been seeing the wrong type of person. I am perfectly capable of carrying a bag. I got mine into the cabin and returned to the car to help with the other stuff. Again I was met with that look. I was raised by strong independent woman who told me that I had to relay on me first and foremost. My man would be an extension of who I am and not someone who could take care of everything for me.

Lost in my memories of my mamas teaching I forgot where I was. I pulled myself back to the present moment and continued on. As I carried the remaining items in and placed them down I was met with placing his hands on my waist and slowly turning my to face him. He looked at me a moment and then spoke “Never in my life have I had a woman help me with anything from my car, I'm not saying I've done this sort of thing with a lot of woman, but the ones I have gone away with always expected me to handle everything, This is refreshing".

"You can't be serious" I responded with disbelief. "sadly I am being serious, as it turns out there are a few selfish woman out there" He said with a sort of chuckle. "Well, I can only hope that I redeem the female species and show you that there are those of us with good morals and upbringings" Another chuckle escaped his lips, but as quick as it happened it was gone and his expression changed to one of passion. He pulled me in and kissed me, the passion between us was electric and I could feel the fire ignite deep in my belly as the kiss deepened and became all encompassing. I didn't want this moment to end and yet as suddenly as it started it was over. He pulled away breathing hard. He even took a step back from me and a hearty laugh escaped his lips. "I am so sorry about that" He roared. "that is not what I was aiming to do, that was way more intense than I anticipated".

"I'm not sorry" I responded with a devilish grin. "I thoroughly enjoyed every second of that and hope that there is more of that to come" For whatever reason I was feel more bold and brazen then I have ever in my life. To know me, you would know that I am normally quiet, reserved and almost prudish. Something about him made me want to break free. He stared at me with disbelief for a moment and then began busying himself with the cabin. He clearly needed a moment to clear his head and I wasn't going to get in the way of that.

We spent the next little while in silence, moving around the cabin and getting ourselves comfortable. It was amazing to see that he was someone that like me needed to make it feel like home and not a temporary stay. We worked together to put the food away they we bought, put our clothing away in the dresser that was nestled in the loft above the living room. The more I saw the more I loved this place and could see myself coming back to this place for sure. I think he was taking everything in as well. We finally got everything set up and I realized we needed some firewood for the adorable brick fireplace. I couldn't wait to get one going and cuddling up in front of that.

I walked over to the door and got myself ready to go outside. We had been here for about an hour or so, but I could already see from the frosted windows on either side of the door that the sun had already gone down. Xander was in the kitchen distracted by the food preparation to notice what I was doing. I opened the drawer to the small table at the door and found a flashlight I could use to find my way to little shed that held the firewood.

The minute I opened the door I was glad that the firewood was kept inside, because there was a blast of cold air followed by a blinding flurry of snow. While we were getting cozy the weather had taken a turn for the worst. "Alexi, where are you going?" I guess the onslaught of wind and snow caught his attention from across the room. "We need some firewood and I was just heading out to get some. Do you know how far the shed is to the cabin?" I had no intention of making him do this if I could help it. "I don't know if you should do that alone. That weather is looking bad. Just wait a moment and I will help you."

His concern for me was touching. It had been a while since someone had enough feelings for me to care about my well being. I closed the door and waited for him to finish up in the kitchen and get ready to brave the cold that waited for us outside. He moved pretty quickly so I didn't have to wait long. "lets make sure we get enough to last us a while, I feel like we might be stuck here for a few more days than we anticipated" As Xander spoke those last words I couldn't help but get a little excited at the thought of a few extra days with him alone. Keeping some mystery to my expressions I moved toward him and brushed my lips against his ear and whispered "seems my prayers have been heard". He could not help the smile that spread across his face if he tried. "I'm glad we are both on the same page" he whispered back.

As if we both had been zapped with the same electric jolt, we rushed out the door and headed in the direction of the shed. The snow had started to fall faster and heavier and it was getting harder to see. We pushed through and made it to the small shed. We each grabbed the biggest wood bag we could and filled them up as much as we possibly could handle and made our way back through the mess of snow to the cabin. We practically fell through the door, glad to be out of that chaos and in the warmth of the cozy cabin.

Another few minutes to unpack it and place it next to the fireplace and then we found ourselves cuddled up on the couch. I decided that being pushy wasn't the way to go and that I should give him some time to adjust. He was clearly as out of his element as me. Kind of comforting knowing that I wasn't the only one feeling so uneasy.

As the night progressed things got easier. The conversation was flowing, the flirting was organic and my uneasy feeling had disappeared. It seemed the same was for Xander. I felt like making a move might be the next step. As I had finally made up my mind to go for it he stood up, I swear his inner monologue and mine were not on the same page. "How about some dinner?" with those 4 words, my stomach made it very clear that I needed to become more in line with his thoughts, because I was so hungry. It had been hours since I last ate anything. Without a second thought or internal argument, "That would be lovely, I am starving". Smiling he took my hand and led me to the kitchen. "I'm not a renowned chef, but I know my way around a kitchen, I brought us some steaks and sides. How does that sound?" It was like Xander had stepped into my mind and just known what I would like. "Did you consult with someone before we came here? That's my favorite meal." The smile on my face must have been bigger than I anticipated. "I won't lie to you, I may have consulted with Elyssa about what you love to eat. I mean she did set us up to start with and I wanted this weekend to be perfect. I wasn't leaving anything to chance" "You are amazing you know that Xander." His gaze met mine and again I felt myself melt inside. His eyes were so intense and I could feel how much he wanted me, but in that same instance I knew I needed to wait.

I sat there and watched him as he cut and sautéed and cooked with ease. Having someone like him as a partner would definitely be a wonderful thing. No more fast food and ramen noodles for me. I couldn't help but smile at him as I watched him move around. There wasn't very much conversation happening, but my comfort level was through the roof. I have never felt so safe with a man before. Sitting here was so easy to do. He served up the food and we sat there making small talk and I couldn't stop complimenting him on how delicious the whole thing was. He said a simple thank you and nothing more. We flowed from topic to topic and the night was absolutely perfect.

I could feel the night coming to what would be the end if we were back in the city at home, but we were nestled in the mountains, looking out into a snow wonderland. I just stood at the window staring. The cabin was quiet now and I could just enjoy and embrace it. I watched the snow fall silently and settle all around us. It was a magical sight to see. He thought he was being quiet, but I could hear him making his way across the room and then I felt him. He came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He was warm against my back and as his lips touched my neck I felt a shiver flow through my entire body and start to heat up some very vulnerable areas. I didn't rush anything and neither did he. He began letting his hands wander across my body, I think he was ready for the next step and my body was definitely letting me know I was ready. I was very aware of the reactions my body had to his touch. It felt so good, I was so wrapped up in the sensations that I wasn't even aware of where he was headed until he got there, it was like an explosion of fire that reached the very core of me. His hand had slipped up my skirt and had gently moved my panties to the side so that he could get better access to my most intimate space. He glided his finger into me effortless and I couldn't help but respond and the groan escaped my lips. Since he was still behind me there was no way to muffle the sounds that were coming out of me. I surrendered to the feeling and embrace all that he was bringing to me. With one last thrust of his finger he brought me over the edge and his strong arms caught me as I began to fall.

He was prepared for what came next and I am surprised I hadn't noticed him setting it all up. There was a soft mattress pad that had been placed on the ground in front of the fire place and pillows and blankets had been laid out. My heart was racing as I began imaging all that he was about to do with me. He sat me down and slowly, painfully slow if I might add, began to remove my clothes. I worked on his and removed something each time one of my articles of clothes found their way to the floor. It was the most intense and sexually charged I have ever gotten with a man. I was almost panting as we came to the last pieces. I was breathing heavy and my body was so ready for this. I moved close to him and began climbing onto his lap. I felt his body respond with such eagerness. He came so close and I could feel my juices sliding down my leg as he teased me. He did this for a little bit until I couldn't handle it any longer. without warning I brought myself down on him. He let out the loudest moan I have ever heard, which prompted me to do it again and again and again. Eliciting some of the most primal sounds known to man. He began to match each my thrusts with his own. We gave in to one another completely. It was as if I could feel everything he was feeling. I knew he was close, I was too, I held onto him and laid down so that I could give control to him, I want him to have me body, mind and soul. He responded exactly as I hoped and made sure he knew what I wanted. I lifted my hips, while pulling him to me. "faster" I breathed without thinking, "Harder, I need more" he didn't disappoint and matched me push for push.

I could feel us climbing, getting closer and closer to the top of that mountain we had been climbing for month. All those months of built up sexual tension, stolen glances, brushes of bare skin. It had all led up to this. He was so hard and so strong and it just kept building and building until he pulled my eyes to his and held my gaze as he brought us crashing over the hill. The eruption shook me to my core, I couldn't stop my body as all those subsequent waves kept crashing down on me. I think I counted 6. Did he just give me 6 back to back orgasms from one love making session?

I hope I wasn't being presumptuous when I said love making, but the connection I just made with this man had me saying I was using the write terms and as if taking the thoughts from my head he said it. "I love you".

I was left speechless, and if you know me that is not an easy task. I grabbed his face and said the only thing my brain and mouth would allow "I love you too". I was so bound in the moment I hadn't noticed what was happening. He had begun grinding into me again, I could suddenly feel his cock getting harder and harder and it made me get so wet. With the admission of love it allowed me to give him all of me and that included my inner freak. I let her fly and let all of my feelings escape from my lips as his thrusts got deeper and deeper. It was building again, only this time I wanted to bring about the finish. I caught him off guard and pressed him to the floor and began sliding up and down him. I watched with fascination as his head dropped back against the pillow and from his throat came the deepest growl tonight. I was holding him down and even though he knew he could have overthrown me, he let me have this. That made this moment even sexier and brought out more and more of me. I began racking me nails across his skin and watched as he arched his back against the sensations I was causing. He surrendered himself to me the way I did to him and that was all it took, seeing him give himself to me. I wanted to look him in the eyes as we came together. I met his gaze and rode him all the way to the end. This one was more intense than the last time. I collapsed on top of him and let the orgasm wash over me. I didn't let him pull out of me. I just wanted to stay close to him in this moment.

Out breath was laboured as we lay there together, but it didn't matter because it was all worth it knowing that this amazing man loved me with everything he had. I was afraid to move or even speak, and again as if on the same wave length he filled the silence for me "when did you know?" he asked.

How do you answer this without sounding like a crazy person, I don't want to scare him away, but I don't want him potentially finding this out from someone else and leaving me for not being honest. "If I'm being honest, the third date." I said.

He looked down at me and had this puzzled look, but not in a bad way. "why the third date?" He didn't say it like he was weirded out or anything like that, it was more curious as to how I arrived at that date. "Easy I said, when I informed my girl friends that we were going on our third date, I was told I needed to get myself prepped for you, since the third date was when you took things to the next level. Now I did what they told me, because I thought this was normal, when you didn't pressure me or insinuate anything, I knew that you were a keeper. You didn't follow the normal way of approaching a relationship. The fact that this is the first time we've been together in an intimate fashion and we've been together for 6 months shows me that our relationship was always more than physical."

He leaned over and placed a gentle kiss on my lips. As he lay back down he said, "I felt the same to be honest. My buddies told me that this was what women expected and when you didn't push it on me, I knew I had a keeper."

I snuggled into him and looked out the floor to ceiling windows at the falling snow and admired the vast white scenery that was in front of me. I lay against his chest listening to his heart and slowly drifted into a deep sleep. That night I had the most amazing sleep knowing that when I woke in the morning I would have my love next to me.

The wait was totally worth it!