Refuse to money packaging, I don't want to change the flavor of love

In early 1998, I was working as a tally clerk for a large supermarket chain and living in an urban village. At the beginning of March, a boy named Li Rui moved in across the door. He is a part-time computer major in the adult Education Department of Henan University of Finance and Economics. He works as a part-time graphic designer in a computer company. Li Rui is tall and thin. He looks like my favorite singer Zhang Xinzhe.

One morning, I was hot soya-bean milk, saw the blue eyes, eyes bloodshot Li Rui came in from the outside, took out the key was about to open the door, suddenly "Gu dong" fell on the ground. Startled, I hurried to help him, only to find that he had fainted. I shouted for someone to take him inside and lay him down. After a while, he finally opened his eyes. I asked him what was wrong, and he said, "Nothing, just rest..."

That evening, Li Rui specially cooked a few dishes to invite me to dinner, saying that he wanted to thank me. I just know, the original Li Rui not only in school, there are a younger brother and a younger sister are also respectively at the same time in secondary school and university, three people a year to spend ten or twenty thousand, his family in the countryside, the condition is not good, almost everything depends on him to find a way. In order to earn more money, he did some private jobs outside of his part-time job. Because there is no computer at home, he has to work overtime in the company every night, often all night without rest. We chatted very happily, he knew that I was in college self-examination, and English is my biggest obstacle, he took the initiative to say: "My English is OK, later if you have any questions, just come to ask me."

From then on, I went to him for advice when I had any questions, and he always answered them with enthusiasm. Li Rui not only looks like Zhang Xinzhe, but also imitates Zhang Xinzhe to sing. Later I jokingly gave him the Japanese name "Nobutetsujiro". Close contacts let me more and more to his strong and kind heartache. At that time, although my job was not good, because I was pretty, I was surrounded by a lot of warm-hearted people who introduced me to boyfriends, some of whom had very good family conditions. But I have a mind of my own. I am a girl from the countryside, only a high school education, I will not marry myself for the sake of comfort and enjoyment. I like Li Rui, who comes from the countryside like me. He is tough, honest, hard-working and has a sense of family responsibility. I feel safe with him. And I looked at me from Li Rui unusual eyes also see, we have a heart.

In order to save the money earned for his younger brother and sister, Li Rui's own life is very hard, almost every day is a uniform "noodles boiled in clean water". Three months later, Li Rui fainted again. I forced him to take time off to recuperate at home. I USE MY MONEY TO BUY RIBS, CRUCIAN CARP SOUP TO SUPPLEMENT NUTRITION TO HIM EVERY day -- AND THESE THINGS, always frugal I USUALLY A month NOT willing to eat. That night, when I carefully put a spoonful of soup into his mouth, his eyes filled with tears and he choked up and asked me, "Lingling, why are you so nice to me?"

I quipped, "Fool! Do you have to ask? Of course it's because you're Nobutetsujiro..."

He hugged me from behind, pressed his face against my back, and said, "Lingling, I want to give you a present. I've been buying it for two months, but I've never had the courage because it's only ten yuan. Do you want to see it again?" I nodded. He let go of me and pulled out a little red gift box from the drawer and handed it to me. I opened it and there was a green ring. He took it out and said, "This is a jade ring. Do you like it? If you don't like it, I'll throw it away..."

I said, "Why wouldn't I like such a beautiful ring? As long as your love for me is true."

Tears rolled down Li Rui's face. He said in a trembling voice, "I swear I will love you with all my heart and soul for the rest of my life..."

I reached out to him and said mischievously, "Then you will put it on for me, will you?"

Li Rui awkwardly put the ring on my finger, and then we hugged each other tightly. After a long time, he murmured, "Lingling, although I have nothing now, please believe me, I will make you happy through my own efforts..."

Three months later, Li Rui and I moved in together. In order to get him to stop working late into the night, I took out my savings from my job in Zhengzhou and bought him a computer.

Through the "bitter romance", under his "packaging" our feelings began to "sour".

In spite of my mental preparation, I had no idea that our life together would be so difficult. In order to save money, we live in a house of less than 10 square meters, and I have to calculate the daily living expenses with my fingers. To feed him, I braised ribs every two weeks, which I refused to eat because I was afraid of gaining weight. October 21, 1999 is my 24th birthday, Li Rui insisted to take me to eat "McDonald's", said to make an exception for me "luxury" once. However, when I saw that such a small hamburger should cost nine dollars, I firmly pulled him out of the "escape". We went home, cooked two or three dishes together, and had a warm and special "candlelight dinner". While we were eating, we sang Faye Wong's song "You are happy, So I am happy". Later, we both burst into tears unconsciously, and truly experienced what is "bitter romance"...

With the graduation of Li Ruidi and sister, our miserable days began to improve gradually. Subsequently, Li Rui also got a diploma, to a better treatment of the advertising company. However, I did not expect that life gradually better, but between us gradually produced irreconcilable contradictions. The reason is that Li Rui has begun to spend freely. I advised him to save a little, but he constantly stressed that life should pay attention to emotional appeal and taste, which is now the most fashionable way of life. He also advised me to "change my mind" and learn to enjoy life. In my heart, I feel more and more that I do not know Li Rui, and Li Rui does not know me.

On May Day in 2002, all employees were expected to bring their families or lovers. Li Rui said to me: "Lingling, I must dress you up as a noble white swan, let them see your eyes have to fly out!" He spent tens of thousands of yuan in one fell swath to pack me, leaving us with very little money in our bank account. Usually always frugal accustomed to me distressed straight tears. He coaxed me for a long time, but I just ignored him. Finally, he took my hand and took off the jade ring I was wearing. With tears in his eyes, he said, "Lingling, you have suffered so much with me before. Do you know how sorry I am? I dream of letting you live like the other girls, but I don't have any money. Now, I can make money, I must let you live the happiest life! Why shouldn't you have what other girls have?" I was moved by his words and said, "Actually, I don't care about these things, as long as you are kind to me." He said, "My first task is to make you the most beautiful and admired woman. Don't worry, my next step is to buy a house, and not only a house, I'll put you in a car." Looking at his complacent expression, I feel particularly lost and lost. Could it be that the simple and progressive "Nobutetsujiro" I loved at the beginning was such a vain and wasteful boy?