Misshapen Heart

April 20th, 2025

I don't know why I've always felt that my locket, though still so precious to me, is misshapen. After all, for it even to exist in this world is miraculous. It alone brings me comfort, after having missed out on heaven completely. I still can't believe all that's happened, and especially that Jason was right about so much of it. Now he's dead, and the city's gone; damn this life!

April 21st

Life was good even after he started with his weird stories. Every ten thousand years, a magical city, Nobunaga Oda, Vampires, were just a few of the crazy sounding things he suggested were real. I still refuse to believe it, even though I know it's true. I won't let my heart. And, then he kept saying that this locket proves it. It's a fricken family heirloom, I don't see how it relates at all. But still, it is the only piece of this whole thing that tugs at my heart as some sort of deja vu.

April 22nd

He said seven days! Holy crap, I just remembered this. He said that after seven days everyone who even tried to reach the city would, "drop to another chance". What it means, I have no idea, but another chance sounds good to me. The city was so pretty! I guess it's just one of many in heaven. Oh yeah, he also said it would be harder to make it on consecutive tries. Something about the darkness getting desperate, or closer to the origin, I don't know!

April 23rd

It's my brother's birthday today, or it would have been. I still can't understand how everyone is just denying everything that's happened. There were virtually huge battles and vampires everywhere devouring random people, but nooo, the media keeps to the narrative that it was all just some crazed terrorists trying to make people believe in God or hell or something. It's so crazy how evil this world is, just under the surface.

April 24th

It's odd that my memories of Jason now seem so warped, or oh my God!, misshapen like my locket. Okay, the picture of him is still there. I miss you! Still, why does it seem he should look different? So, the police and everyone are looking for anyone who 'participated' in the 'terror race' now. That's what they're calling it. It was a race, and it was terrifying, that's true. But it was not just some crazed terrorist trying to scare everyone and then blow up a city. It wasn't nuked!!!

April 25th

So, this is great! I've been questioned all night and they finally just released me. Thank God this diary is so small and fits in my watch pocket. I just know someone is ratting me out. It's probably, oh I don't know! I don't trust anyone anymore after seeing people I know turn! I keep thinking of when Jason saw that man in the sky. He pointed and yelled, "NOBUNAGA" with such joy in his voice. It's so odd, that he said he was 'from the beginning'.

April 26th

It's happening, I can feel that familiar feeling of Falling East. Why does it seem so remembered?! No, I'm at home, here in Michigan, and Flint is still gone. So close, some came from so far. What's that noise?..

I'm falling.

April 27th, 1925 ~new diary

I don't know why I dreamt that my locket was square, yet still beautiful with the same intricate designs. Of course it's always been a heart, ever since Jessie bought it for me during our honeymoon. It always has given me that odd 'deja vu' feeling though. I hope he quits his ramblings about, "jumping forward in time" soon. He's so weird sometimes after he's been studying those ancient oriental scrolls. But that dream, no nightmare!, was so strange; men all dressed in black armor busting into my room and shooting me so many times, and with such odd looking guns!