Lovingly Wicked

Hiding in the shadows I have waited and watched over you for years, as even a whisper in the dark could never reveal my true love for you. For without a word I can keep you safe and allow no harm to fall upon you.

"I love you, I love you not" as I whisper my sweet nothingness in your ear hoping, no wishing that one day you will hear me.

Through centuries I await for our love to finally become one and yet as time passes it tragically ends, one after another.

"Why cant you hear me my love? Is it truly meaningless to love someone so bright, that even with one small smile you turn even the darkest days into bright ones" . I live in the shadows surrounded by nothing but the dark, in hope that one day I can feel that light you bring upon to so many others.

With every secret that I hold dear to my heart, I sit and wait for even just a minute to hold you within my arms. "I know you cant hear me, but only if I could take away all the sufferings you have endured in your life" I truly thought you would be the one to pull me from this. But as it seems the closer you get the more afraid you become and then the more afraid I become: because what if you can not except me for what I am.

"SHADOW KING!" as I scream it from the top of my lungs and have for all of eternity. " my sweetness i only have a little more time and I don't know how much longer I can hold onto this form, I know its not your problem but even just a whisper of you knowing i am here could save me" as I turn around to get one last look at her I feel the shadows pulling at me once again, sending me into a deep slumber of darkness.

"Morning my beautiful queen, did you sleep well?", "Did you dream of beautiful skies?" of course no answer.

As she continues to pack her things I wonder how long I was gone this time before returning to her, for something is different about her.

The warmth of her smile has faded into nothing but lines that sit upon her face, eyes replaced by something dark and unknown to her.

Panic fills her life and there is nothing I can do to help.

"Damn I hate car rides, where are we going?" she seems in a hurry but I can not tell what for."I want you to know wherever we are going I am here for you my darling, can I tell you something on our travels?" looking over to see a tear fall upon her cheek " I had a dream of you while I was lost to the dark the first one in I don't know how long. It was lovely walking beneath the sun and trees, feeling the warmth of the sand between my toes. I admit never wanting to awake from it, but I knew never seeing you again would be so much worse"

We have finally arrived to a place along the water feeling the chill in the air that gathers around us, under the stars of night. " Isn't it beautiful?" as I turn my head to see her crying watching all the light fade from within her. " If only I knew what had happened while I was gone, I could help you in some type of way" as she walks toward the water she whispers goodbye. Then and only then did I realize what was going to happen.

I rush to her side as she lets the waves carry her further and further into the sea, i wrap myself around her covering her in a blanket of shadows. "Why my love? I don't understand what is happening. Could I have helped save you from yourself I don't understand" as I hold her tight I hear a whisper " I love you too" she said.

My eyes open and look at her as she is looking at me, not through me but actually at me for the first time ever. I cant help but cry as I truly hear the words I so longed to hear and yet only because of her death.

"I'm here my love!" as my eyes fill up with tears "But why do this, you have so much more to live for" I said as she placed her hand upon my cheek.

"I've always known you were here and when you were gone, I just never truly knew how to see you until now. I wanted to give you something you always gave me and wanted to thank you for all the Centuries you kept me safe and know I loved, love and will forever more love you through all of time" as her hand feel from my cheek with a smile on her face.

Screaming out in pain as I watch her fall further and further beneath the waves, I feel a pull so much stronger than I could have imagined.

The air feels my lungs and I find my self above water but not as a shadow as a human being, and in those few minutes of lying on the sand I wept.

"I understand now and I will miss you my beloved queen" as I smile I realize that for the only way for us to be together is in death and life reborn and that is in its own lovingly wicked.