I’ll see you soon…

I know you don’t remember, but the first day we met, it was a sunny day. Birds chirped a happy tune outside of the window. My stomach churned in anticipation of teaching the first class of my career. You came into my classroom, smiling so big, you made me smile. You sat in the second seat, back over by the window and placed a notebook on your desk.

You were and still are, breathtaking. Your peers filed into class, but I couldn’t take my eyes off of you. The bell rang, signaling it was time to start class.

"Good Afternoon, welcome to AP Government," I said.

You looked up, and when you saw me, I knew it was a mutual attraction. You smiled at me and my heart flipped in my chest.

Do you remember that? I do.

I went over the syllabus with the class and explained all of the assignments. I invited everyone to my classroom anytime after school to discuss the work. I knew right then, that I was in love with you. I really wanted you to come, just so I could spend more time with you.

Later that week, after school, you came to my room. My stomach fluttered when you walked in, I was so happy. Do you remember telling me how excited you were to take the class? Do you remember expressing your concern about the workload? Do you remember telling me, you would do anything it took to get an A?

I do.

I know now that it was wrong, the balance of power and whatever other bullshit people want to call it, but I couldn’t help myself. You were just so...young and desperate.

Do you remember feverishly shutting the blinds while I locked the door?

Do you remember the sound you made when I took your virginity? I do.

***

In your junior year, people started to get suspicious. You were coming to my office at least twice a week, even though you weren’t in my class anymore. Your English teacher made a comment about how you spent more time with me than people your own age. I laughed it off and told them I was mentoring you because you wanted to teach.

When you came to my classroom, I told you about it. You said someone had asked you to prom. I told you, you should go with them, so people wouldn’t keep looking so hard at our relationship. You stared at me, your brown eyes bore deep into my soul. You blinked slowly, not saying a word. You unbutton your jeans. I stopped breathing and watched your every move. You were so damn hot. Do you remember what you asked me?

I do.

“Do you love me?”

Your voice was barely a whisper.

“Yes”

You slid your jeans down, “How much?”

“More than you’ll ever know.”

“Enough to kiss me?” You unbutton your shirt.

I kissed you in response.

“Enough to kiss me in the hallway?”

Do you remember asking me that?

I do.

You caught me off guard. I didn’t know what to say. I’d kiss you anywhere if I could... but,

“I would lose my job.”

“I know.”

“I could go to jail”

“I know...but would you do it?” you asked and took off your underwear. I couldn’t even think straight anymore.

Do you remember what I said?

I do. “Yes”

***

Trust me, I love you with all my heart baby, that will never change. Do you remember that night, your senior year? It was the night you changed my life forever. It was pouring rain. The wind blew so hard my shutters shook all night. It was rainy and cold, and I was never the same again.

Do you remember what you did? I do.

You came to my house in the middle of the night. I didn’t even know you knew where I lived. You came to my home and banged on the door. You didn’t know it, but I had company. A math teacher from our school. I went downstairs and opened the door. You walked in without saying a word. You were soaking wet, but goddamn, it only made you more irresistible. I could see the lust in your eyes. You took off all of your clothes. I loved it. So fucking sexy. But, bad timing. You took off all of your clothes at the same time my company came downstairs. You looked at each other. Then back at me. I wanted the floor to swallow me whole. But, life is not like cartoons. I had to deal with the problem you caused.

Do you remember what happened next?

I do.

I was reported. The school was upset. Your parents were outraged. They wanted me dead and hanging. But, I still believed we were meant to be together. Your parents pressed charges. And, do you remember what you did?

I fucking do.

You spoke against me in court.

***

So, now I need to know what to do. I still love you with all my heart. You never write back to me. You never visit. But, I’m still in love with you. Maybe now, even more than the first time I saw you.

If I’m doing the math right, you graduated college a few years back. You are living out your dreams, as a teacher. You were living your dream when I was stuck in that hole for almost ten damn years. Do you think anyone will let me teach again?

I don’t...

I’m out now, can we start over, baby? Mature adults and all. The only dream I have left is you. No matter what, I still love you. Do you love me?

I see that you moved to Michigan last year. So, where do we go from here?

I’ll see you soon, baby.

I’ll see you soon.