I don't know I Love You spoiler

DESHA'S POV

I was sitting fine at the park when I suddenly heard his skateboard sound. As it comes nearer to me it makes my heartbeat run crazy. I knew it! Today he'll pass by this park. I turn my gaze at him carefully so that he may not catch me. From his sneakers into his firm tall legs standing cool on his skateboard. Then to his skinny long arm, sleeveless black shirt, his cute biceps, and yellow bag. His ears that plugs with a white headphone.

His face has a beautiful jawline, lips, nose, and eyes. His eyes were looking away and it seemed like he was thinking something deep. His messy hair and lastly his gaze that's now facing me on his back. His firm and wide back that I know to myself I easily recognize even though he’s pretty far from me. He's so tall and cool, especially with his skateboard.

Now he’s slowly losing my sight. He never knows and he will never know. I like him so much because I choose to remain silent. No one knows how hurt I was when I knew he had someone he likes and he is currently courting her.

No one knows how much I still like him despite publicizing his relationship with the lucky girl. No one knows that I'll still love him no matter what happens. Even though I'm the loser in the end. But there's a thing, I'll never sacrifice myself if the day comes that it’s too much. If I know I should stop.

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"Okay, class dismiss,” as soon as Professor Drey said those words I immediately packed my things scattered on my table I don’t why I let it be scattered just to end up cleaning it up immediately. I check my wrist watch and it’s 4:55 in the afternoon. I only have five minutes left! I almost ran towards the classroom door when my class leader Kim yelled my name because I was supposed to clean up the room today, not today, please!

“Deshalyn, where do you plan to go, girl? It’s your turn to clean the classroom today!” I’m completely aware that I will be doomed if I do not listen to her words but please do not this time! Not this exact time! I will just deal with it after today. I ran past our classroom and did my best not to be caught by her.

While I’m running as fast as I can, I keep on checking my wristwatch to monitor the time that I only have left, which is exactly three minutes. Heck! How long did it take me to put my things in my bag? Still, I focus on the thought that I should go to the wide park just beside our campus before my time runs out. The park was the perfect place for people who love extreme sports like bike exhibitionists, roller skaters, and skateboarding. Street dancers also love the place to do their practices and showdowns. Next to the park is an overpass where different vehicles pass by every day. When the night comes the beautiful view of city lights shines so bright.

I immediately sat at the usual seat in the park while gasping because I just arrived exactly three minutes later from our campus. Dang! I came in time! This park was also used to be an alternative way for light vehicles like e-bikes, bikes, or even just causal walkers just to go home to different destinations. But right now it’s just a hang-out place for some people and cute birds freely flying back and forth. Since the free shuttle to the bus stops was sponsored by our suburbs chairperson, people stop to consider this place as their way to pass by every day.

Right now I’m here because of one person who loves to pass by in this so-called abandoned park. I immediately fix myself while he’s still not coming. I put light powder and lip balm to at least color my face and have a tiny hope he will somehow remember me or recognize my face. I comb my hair pull out my book from my bag then wear my headphones as I start to play the current song that was paused from my shuffled playlist.

I check the time on my phone screen and there are only 59 seconds left for the guy I’ve been waiting to pass by through my seat here on one of the benches in the park. I open my book making sure it’s not turned and place it in front of my lap allowing me to have access to the view in front of me in case he passes by and somewhat throws a look for someone strange like me who chooses this place to read a book and listen to an effin music.

One deep breath I take when the birds peacefully hanging around in the headway fly one by one. He’s already here! My mind shouts and my heart starts to pump crazy in oppositely on how I look on the outside who acts cool and effin calm! I refrain from checking the special person who’s passing by which causes the birds to fly like crazy. It felt like time started to pass by so slowly as he also passed by in front of me.

I secretly watched him from his skateboard to his red shoes to his pants embracing his long limbs to his black sleeveless hoodie. His bared lean arms down to the silver bracelet on his wrist. To his cute biceps, his brown bag, and his white headphones. To his beautiful jawline, perfect lips, sharp nose, his small eyes that wear eyeglasses. His black soft hair to his whole poise every time he stands straight on his skateboard after pushing some steps from his other feet. He’s slowly losing in my sight and only his poised back was the only left view in my vision.

It sounds crazy but even just his poised back I know that he is or not. Probably whatever he wears I can easily recognize if he is or not that person. I can’t help myself to smile so big. I was too consumed by another moment I shared with him just seconds ago. My headphones play the exact song that fills my heart twitching because of too much happiness. I sigh deeply. I lift my vision to the beautiful sky this afternoon.

“This afternoon feels good,” I suddenly vent out of too much happiness seeing the guy I liked so much that close. Adding up the beautiful blue sky right now. His name was Jerome Reyes. The same guy I was deeply annoyed with before but now am deeply obsessed with.

It’s obvious enough that I like him but there's a crazy amount of hindrances out there to be the reason to stop how much I like someone like him. So here I am acting weird and crazy to do something that I can see this close without fear or shame.

Only if he will still pass by this park again. As far as I know, it’s really rare for him to pass by here since he’s almost graduating and he seldom brings his skateboard anymore. Probably if he doesn't have any plans like gigs, practice in his musical band, practice at badminton or school events he might consider bringing his skateboard again like what he did today and pass by this park.

Yes, it sounds creepy that I know his every move but this is how I’m so obsessed with him and I freaking know how wrong this is. But what can I do? This is the only thing I can do to like him that much because I will always be out of his league and it’s hopeless to fight for my feelings when I can just have him secretly, only to me.

After the whole internalization, I did while looking up at the sky and listening music to in my headphone, I immediately fix my things and get up to go back to the classroom and meet Kim who is nearly killing me the way she madly looks at me before I run from her and from my task which is to effin clean the classroom. Dang it!