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I'm starving for attention and not too many people know about it. Much less me. Is it fate that I let it slide or something else? The gummy bears you see up there match the tides that i feel. Depression is not fun, but the people surrounding you can help a great deal. They can uplift your down days and sometimes even drop your happy days. That is all part of life. As long as you know how to manage it is the thing.

I believe that I am blessed by the people that surround me. They are a big part of why I am here. They share the day with me, even if I do not want to share it with myself. That is why I am here, I believe to share my stories with the world. Whether they like it or not. So here I am take it or leave it. I am going to show the world that I enjoy life to at least my fullest potential.

That is a lot to say for a small time writer like myself although it had to be said. And my vision for all my stories, is for the readers' to pick something up from them. Maybe I could share a little bit of my wisdom and brighten someone else's day while I am not there. That is after all part of a writers' responsibility. Whether they get something out of it is for the reader to decide. I just parlay my emotions and hope that you pick up on it. And the best part of writing is that some days you just don't feel like writing, so you take the day off and reflect.

Battling the Covid we all are, but in our own ways. We all know a few people in our lives touched by it in one way or the other. One of my friends has and they have been vaccinated as well. That is a crying shame. And we all have people we can talk to about the battle eating us up inside, like the little chewy sugary things in the photo up above.

I use the nicotine I smoke as a back up plan. But all is not well. Although I am keeping on top of it, which is all I can do it seems. Its a circular motion writing on a Sunday it seems. We all collect something, some of us friendships, some of us cans and bottles for the free nickel that we receive from it. But I'm just babbling. Sometimes it seems like that is all I can do to keep my emotions in check.

It is a tournament of parades to keep us in check. One after the other. Listen to me blabber on and on. In a way it is a good thing that I can do this and others' will learn from it. In their own way of comprehension. And with their own light to guide the way. Dr. pepper is very tasty and is very addicting in my family. So is watching TV. But that is always another lead off from what I am about to say. These chairs down in the community room are a lot more comfortable than my air up mattress that I sleep on. It is helping my back quite a bit.

I have noticed that people have their own quirks that they portray. Whether it is a nudge or not. Or something that they do with their feet? Or something they do with their toes? Well its time to go now, see you later?