He was nineteen years old. He fell for her at first sight

If love, love is not smoke some fate is doomed to lose, some fate is never the result, if love, love is not smoke.

He was nineteen years old. He fell for her at first sight.

He was in a different class in the same department as she was at the university, and on freshman day, when thousands of freshmen were waiting in line to register, he was wearing a blue plaid shirt and jeans, just behind her, and she was also wearing a blue plaid shirt and jeans, just in front of him. Due to the crowd, she stepped on his foot as she stepped back. She quickly turned around and smiled and apologized to him. She, black long hair, in the back of the head tied into a horse tail, big eyes, as if to talk, a smile, mouth there are two lovely small dimples. From that day on, he believed it was the fate given to him by God. From that day on, he fell in love with her at first sight.

He is twenty-three years old. He graduated from college with her.

Four years of college life together, he tried to care for the friendship between him and her, he never dared to express his love for her, he can only use his silent company, careful care, tender consideration to express his love for her, can become her good friend he has been very content.

She had a few love affairs at school, and he became her loyal listener, accompanying her with excitement, and accompanying her with sadness. Every time she fell in love, he would secretly rejoice, every time after comforting her, he would secretly laugh when he returned to the dormitory.

After graduating from college, she went abroad to Canada to study, and he was admitted to the graduate school of the university. Every week for three years he would write her a letter of encouragement, sending it to Canada, wondering how she was doing without him in a foreign land, and sometimes she would write to him, telling him that she was well and reassuring him. He knows that she really grew up, mature, is no longer the need for him to accompany, he needs to care for, he needs to take care of, he needs to comfort the little girl, he does not know, he should rest assured or not.

He is twenty-six years old. When she came back from studying abroad, she was going to marry a classmate she knew when she was studying abroad.

She finally came back, came back to get married, but the bridegroom is not him, his heart has been aching, for a long time, for a long time......

At her wedding, he smiled and gave a speech wishing her happiness.

A month later, he quietly lost ten kilograms.

She never heard from him again.

She is thirty-six years old. Her marriage was not as happy as he had wished.

Her ten years of marriage had not turned out as she had hoped, and she could only describe it as maintenance, which she would not have wanted if it had not been for her daughter. She was used to his carefulness, care, consideration and companionship, but her husband could not do the same for her, not as well as a good friend to know her, care for her, love her, spoil her, love her... Because of her strong personality and career ambition, she didn't have much heart to devote to her marriage.

She put all her energy into her career, and became more dynamic and attractive at work. After several years of hard work, she finally earned a place in the media industry. After her success, she began to feel empty and lonely in her life. She began to miss his kindness to her, and the memories she shared with him kept coming back to her. She really wanted to go to him, but she didn't have the courage.

For she did not know whether he was the same now.

For she did not know whether his marriage was like hers.

Because, she has a lovely daughter, she can only make the marriage work.

She really does not have the courage to change all this, fate and her so pass by, is she does not know how to cherish, how do not want to be reluctant to give up, how can we go back to the beginning? How do you start over?

She is thirty-eight years old. She's still in her marriage. He left her forever.

Her old college friend invited her to a coffee shop and handed her a letter he had written for her. An old classmate told her that he had fallen ill in Canada a few days ago and had entrusted the letter to her when he was dying.

She was shocked, her mind blank. How could he not give her a little warning, a little preparation, quietly into the eternal silence. She didn't know how she got out of the coffee shop. She didn't know how she got to the lake where they used to go. She held his letter in her hand as if she were holding his still beating heart, his still beating heart for her, tight, tight...

Cher:

I'm gone, for real this time, for good.

When you see this letter, I have been smiling at you in heaven, or good like to see you smile.

Don't let the heart stop in the sad sad moment, smile in the face of life, you want to help me laugh through this life? Your smile is the most beautiful in my world.

I've been trying to tell you how much I love you. From the time you stepped on my foot during freshman registration, to the time you looked back and smiled and apologized to me, to the time we wore the same clothes on registration day... I believe this is the fate given to us by God, I fell in love with you at first sight.

Every time I want to tell you, I don't know how to speak of, ready for a car sweet nothings, a see you will run all didn't, you are so pure, so good, so smart, so hui jie, endearing, good afraid you refuse, and your qualifications are not a good friend like that, I can only silence around you to do your good friend, accompany you, care about you, Take care of you, take care of you...

I waited for you for four years. I wanted to tell you how much I love you on the day of the graduation ceremony, but you excitedly told me on the phone the day before the graduation ceremony that you would go to Canada to study. The procedures were all done, and you got the scholarship. I don't know where the courage I just sprout, just express how happy for you, and a lot of exhortation, a lot of worry.

I waited for you for three years, worrying about you for a long time. I want to tell you how much I love you when you come back. You're back at last. But I got your invitation. You're going to be someone else's bride. How can things become such, all my strong confidence in that moment all collapse, my heart hurts, pain can hear my heart "kuang" a sound, broken...

I am afraid you are not happy, summon up the last courage to attend your wedding. I wanted to take a look at you and go, but you smiled and pulled me, grinding me to bless you, looking at you wearing a white wedding dress with a happy sweet face, smile or that kind of beauty, I don't even have the power to refuse you. Looking at you around, I suddenly feel that the distance between you and me is so far, so far that you are no longer the girl who wore the same clothes with me at the freshman registration, turned around and smiled and apologized to me. The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death, but when I stand in front of you, you don't know that I love you.

I do not remember how I was embarrassed to escape from your wedding, only remember my broken heart has been bleeding......

The past is really like a dream, carrying all my love and dreams, it finally because of the inability to dock and again and again. Love is like a door of time, when I opened the door for the first time, I clearly saw your past. But the second time I pushed the door open, the blur of you was gone. I will always remember the most beautiful smile when you look back.

If forever exists, then let me love you every day forever. If never exists, then let time stop at the moment when I fall in love with you.

How hard it is to forget what you brought me yesterday, I can't do that. I only choose to leave you, but it is difficult to leave your footsteps. You are my heart unspeakable pain, you are my heart forever waiting.

I quit my job and went to Canada to study alone.

You left me with memories have been following in my left and right, the heart into the track of memories, can not swing, more do not want to swing. Walking in the noisy streets of a foreign country, I will still be unknowingly looking for your shadow. The quiet night, missing air channeling flow in my dream dream. I know that time has not lost anything, but increased a lot of miss, your smile is still so clear.

Think of you, is my persistent gentle.

Love you, is my helpless regret.

Waiting for you, is my life waiting for you.

I've been waiting for you for nineteen years, but I can't wait for you anymore, but I must tell you, Cher, I've spent a lifetime waiting for you, waiting for you to love me...

It's getting dark and dark,

She was still clutching his letter, clutching his heart that was still beating for her...

She held her head high, looked up at the sky, tears on her face, she smiled at him in heaven...

She closed her eyes, and two more drops of red, glittering tears rolled down from the corners of her eyes...