He Might be Lying!

I'm not sure why this man is speaking to me on this train ride. I just want to relax, take a nap and just do nothing but sit here until my stop. I did not want to be late for my job interview. He should get the point and understand I am not really interested in what he is saying by my "uh huh" and "really" responses to everything that comes out of his mouth. The train ride from Trenton NJ to Midtown Manhattan during this time of day is usually without incident and the train cars are mostly filled with seated passengers.

The man was very well dressed in a business suit, groomed, and appeared he was heading to the city as well. He looked as if he had just left the barber shop and his tailor at the same time. His voice was very distinctive and familiar to me-but I did not know this man at all. I could have just as easily got up and changed my seat, but I did not want to embarrass anyone, so I listened and nodded as much as I could.

He was going on and on about his trip to Barbados he had just come back from and how the water was beautiful and crystal blue and how wonderful his life is because he has a 6-figure income, in the best shape of his life, and has a beautiful girlfriend who is smart and working on her doctorate. Just because we are sitting right across from each other does not mean we are obligated to speak or hold a conversation with one another. "Let me speak to Carl" the man said. “Who the heck is Carl,” I replied? The man took out his wireless earpiece and said, "you talking to me?". I said I thought you was talking to me this entire time! Awkward silence and I was so embarrassed. I got off at the next stop and waited for another train.

After about 35 minutes of waiting, the train pulled up and I got on. Located a seat to the rear of the car and sat down. No one across from me or next to me.... just like I like it. After about 5 minutes, I heard a familiar voice soon after I sat down.

It was a male voice, I thought maybe someone I knew. I looked for where his voice was coming from and saw it was the same man from the train that I just got off from! This cannot be, I must be hallucinating. I looked at him and he looked at me with a smirk on his face. It was the same guy...same clothes...had his same wireless earpiece in...and same annoying voice talking about his trip to Barbados. I sat back down and tried to grip what was happening. I got off the train heading to Manhattan to wait for another train heading in the same direction and now I am on the second train but with the same guy that I left on the 1st train I was on! How could this be? I started to look around at the other passengers just so to rule out if I was on the same train as earlier. The passengers appeared to be different, and the train car is not the same as the seats are all colors of the rainbow. The seats on the 1st train were all grey. Okay, let me see what the next stop is as it will let me know what direction the train is moving in. Okay the next stop is Grove Street, so we are heading to Manhattan. He then smirked......then the smirk turned into a big grin and now he is showing all his teeth with a big smile. I am scared and confused at the same time! I just froze and was locked in an eye-to-eye stance. His eye pupils were dark, big, and cold as ice. The man repeated, over and over, "5,4,3,2,1.........5,4,3,2,1, wake up slowly and open your eyes." I quickly found myself laying on a couch and my regression therapist is looking at me smiling. "How do you feel?" I am relieved that I am out of that nightmare on the train. Every session, I relive that day on the train, and I feel I am not getting any closer to recovery or solving the "mystery man". How are these sessions helping me? "The mystery man is you! It has always been you. You saw yourself on the train in a nice suit, talking about a nice trip to Barbados, on your cell phone talking in public, just experiencing the ride on the train, and not taking a nap until your stop- as you normally do. The mystery man is who you wish to be in real life. The train is the world in motion and the mystery man is the alternate you. Do not be afraid and engage with your surroundings. Wake up and start enjoying life and become that mystery man in your present life"........

I have been doing sessions with "Dr. Loftin" since that day on the train and was introduced to regression therapy as an option to assist with this mystery that has been haunting me for the past 6 months. When I first started my sessions with the "good doctor" I was impressed and was confident I would be helped, and my problem would be solved. Now here we are, 180 days later, and no progress......in my opinion! You are telling me that I did not experience something unexplainable that day on the train and it was my mind playing tricks on me that the mystery man I saw in 2 different places at the same time was ME!

"Dr. Loftin", this was my 10th session and my very last as that is the dumbest thing I have ever heard! I need a second opinion. Is there any way to get my money back?

Oh....I forgot that my sessions are free because the "good doctor" is my girlfriend working on her dissertation for Grad School and I am her guinea pig! This is some nonsense! If you wanted me to step my game up as a man-as your partner, all you had to do is just talk to me as we are both in this relationship together. Accept me for who I am and help build me up and not tear me down......don't try to influence me into being someone I am not.

The "good doctor" looked at me, smirked and said "your session is now over. The nurse will escort you back to your room for your daily meds". As the nurse guided me down the hall, it was clear that I was in a psychiatric hospital wearing a gown, as many others were, and my room is where I am confined to. Not sure if this is real or in my mind. Someone, please help me!