Forevermore the blue ghost

Have you ever seen a ghost? Do you ever talk to the ghost and if you do, do people just think your plum crazy. I know I’m crazy and I see ghost. I see them out of the corner of my eyes. I’ll see a head , legs or a full body just for a second. These sightings drive me crazy because I question myself and I think did I just seem what I saw. But this ghost that’s haunting me at night is talking. He sometimes calls out hey good looking what you doing? He’ll say hello. I’ll say hello. I won’t dare go over to the window where he hangs out because I’m not sure if I can accept what I’ll see.

Meanwhile my pet bird has gone missing. It’s my own fault he’s missing because I let him out of the house and cage during the summer so he can feel free. Hell fly away for a couple of days and comes back. This time he has gone missing longer.

If you have a pin cushion and on that pin cushions there are hundreds of pins with heads. I sometime wonder I’m like a pinhead in a world with hundreds of people that were born and how can I be so important in the world to have a life and how am I supposed to make my mark on the world.

There are two days we don’t have to worry about in our life is the day we’re born and the day we die. In between those days are ours to live the way I want to. There is advice books and advice people who can tell you how to live, but I’m the one who has to choose or in my case chosen. So when I see a ghost I would like to ask him what do I do next.

But this ghost keep saying one way or another I’m gonna get you I’m gonna get you. What does he mean by what he’s saying. Why is he coming to get me. I haven’t done anything that bad. May be it’s my comfort food eating because when I do that I gain weight and I’m close to totally destroying myself. Mr ghost is my diet coming to get me or is it the time I found twenty

dollars under the couch and I took it. Later that day my brother told my mom he lost his birthday 20 dollar bill. I didn’t have the integrity to give the twenty dollars back to him and my mom ended up giving him another twenty dollars. I didn’t have the guts to spend it so I snuck it underneath his bed where he could find it. I guess it’s karma now this bird is coming to get me now. I also put a-small

dent in the car. I ran the truck into the front of the car and bent up the listens plate. Everyone was asked what happen to the front of the car. Course I said I didn’t know.

So if the ghost comes and gets me I guess that will be the end of questioning life. The number one question is this a real ghost talking. I still have more living to do. I want to top the last 50 years. It was full of hopes dreams and active living. Now it’s dying. The hope is day by day. What am I going to have to do to get this ghost to stop haunting me. Living is day by day minute by minute. Time does heal the sing of death. The things that were living aren’t present in life. But the energy stays. I wanna ask this ghost where s the gold wen you get older. All I’ve got is Rusty old bolts. Life is catching up with my body getting old. But I still have lots of time. Please ghost done come get me now.

I’m getting worried where has the bird gone. I’ve set a trap to see if I can get my pretty bird and then it won’t get out again. My pretty pretty bird I’m gonna get you back.

I’m gonna get you! I’m gonna get you! One way or another. I want you back. Your my only friend.

Another thing I would like for this ghost to tell me how I’m supposed to keep up with all the technology. A program changes or it’s discontinued. Then I have to buy a new one. What about the cell phones. There’s a new one every year. It’s more expensive than my social security payment each month and the insurance payments how am I going to stay healthy with those high bills. Where am I going to fit in! So ghost if you want to come and get me you can come get me. Im not special though you may end up regretting it. I’ve decided I’m going to open my window and let you in.

So come and get me I’m ready!

If your truly a gosht why do you come back to the living where there is so much hurt and pain. But with the hurt and pain there is love and joy. When you want to be happy the opposite is waiting around the corner. When one dies another one is born. Crying turns to laughter. Cheers turn to oh no’s. Beauty turn to beast. Life turns to death. So mr.ghost why do you come back to the living why don’t you just stay dead. If you have unfinished business just let it be. What has happened in real life can’t be erased only worked over in the mind to help make things seem like a dream.

Before I lay down I’m going to make sure my window is open.

Squawk! Squawk!

My bird my pretty bird are you back! you know there’s not many left. Oh will you forgive me for letting you go.

Well the ghost has just told me to forgive. I think this is one of the most painful things to do in life. It is a good reason to stay dead and not come back either way you forgive it’s going to hurt. If I forgive I feel like a doormat for the person who done me wrong. I can’t make them hurt the way I want the to hurt but they won’t anyway so I just hurt myself more in the process. Then if I died and came back to haunt the person who hurt me I still get hurt because I would only torment myself. If I forgive I will keep the love cycle going on earth a keep a little hate from staying in the world. I won’t hurt and forgiveness can actually empower me to improve my life and myself. If I died I can have a peaceful rest from all the torments of the world. So I think I’ll choose forgiveness.

So I have decided my gosht for you to just go I don’t really need to talk to you anymore. You have given me great advice. I think you’re here just to give me a reason to understand what it means to be human. So you can go away and leave me alone. And then I saw the ghost up and fly off into the sky and saw him no more.

I put my birds cage out on the port home. I’ll check in the morning to see if it came back for food.

He’s back all I did was close the door. I won’t let you go again. But to keep you happy I’ll get u a mate. This way I can have many more of the beautiful red and blue birds in this world. Keeping you in a cage is cruel but letting you go extinct would be a worse fate. Sometimes what looks bad may actually be the best solution for life to keep going. Life is all how you make choices and handle them. The outcome can be good or bad. In the case of my bird being in a cage I think it’s the best choice so he can keep thriving by creating more birds like him. Y pretty bird may you stay alive from forever more.