Farewell, the healing lodge

Lin was gone, and he went to the land of cherry blossoms with the woman who would bring him career, who would bring him tenderness, who would bring him everything. Before he left, he only said to me -- "I'm sorry". Is such a pale word, we gently wipe away all the past, all my pride fell to pieces......

For a long time, I could not believe it was true. The sound of Lin's leaving footsteps echoed like an empty valley in the middle of every silent night. I used to walk down the street and cry. The psychiatrist said, "Go for a walk and calm yourself down." I quit my job and withdrew all my money from my savings account. I want to go wandering like this, to one day my money ran out, my life will stop there!

I traveled a lot and finally arrived in Beijing. I stayed in a small hotel near Qianmen and spent most of my time in a pottery bar not far from the hotel. I felt small in a place where history is everywhere and culture is everywhere. Love the world of mortals, all will turn to dust.

I carefully formed a piece of clay into the shape of an apple, concave in the middle, and made the handle of the apple into the handle of the cup. Then he made another apple cup just like it. I colored one of them green and the other one red. When the cup was finished, I looked at the two exquisite apple cups and felt a pang of sadness in my heart. Lin, have you ever experienced tore heart crack lung, heartbreak is what kind of bitter?

I went to the bar with my own glass. I filled both glasses with wine and placed the red one in front of me and the green one opposite. Probably had too much to drink, attracted the attention of the person next to him. "Hi, how are you? It's the first time I've seen a Chinese girl drink so much." A tall foreigner sat down opposite me. I squinted at him, a good-looking foreigner with deep blue eyes. I smiled, in this lonely city, in this interpretation of the story of countless fool, tonight, whether also want to stage a different kind of love?

"Miss, you drink too much. May I treat you to dinner?" His eyes were clear. "All right." I gave him a charming smile. I don't have much money, and my heart is lonely. If he can save my money and relieve my loneliness, I don't mind having a man around who at least looks like a gentleman, especially in such a cold winter.

He didn't say anything. He punched me. Get me out of that bar. As the car pulled up in a beautiful neighborhood, he held out his hand to me. "Would you mind coming to my house? I will cook you the most beautiful food in the world." Although it is very risky to go to a strange man's place like this, but without Lin, what am I afraid of losing? I went into the apartment with him. It was a very small, two-bedroom apartment that could be seen as the abode of a single man. It's just, the room is tidy.

"My name is James, from Canada, you can also call me auspicious, my Chinese name. Will you tell me your name?" He handed me a glass of juice. "Apple!" I just made up a name. Yes, I am an apple, a dry winter apple.

"You have a nice name." Auspicious raised his eyebrows, "Apple, now you can have a rest, watch TV, drink anything, I'm going to prepare the midnight snack." He had a lot of wine in his liquor cabinet, many of which I couldn't name.

But also listen to a few piano music time, auspicious came out from the kitchen. "All ready, come into the dining-room." I was amazed at Auspicious cooking. In such a short time, several Western dishes are mouth-watering. I'm really hungry. "Come, Apple, to our acquaintance!" Across the candlelight, I actually found that auspicious age is not big, there is a very sunny face.

Wine, is the best wine, into the mouth and cheek; The food is excellent delicious, feel the fragrance of the five viscera. In this cold night, two strangers, because of loneliness together. I gently close my eyes, all the world of the past is forgotten. Today, I'm just gonna be myself.

I was drunk. When I woke up, the sun was three poles high. Unconsciously, I touched my clothes. They were neat. I walked out of the bedroom, auspicious is not at home. On the table was a fried egg, two slices of bread and a glass of milk. Under the key was a note: "Apple, when I go to work, remember to take the key when you go out. I hope to see you again in the evening."

I smiled and finished my breakfast without ceremony. Are you taking me in for the long haul? All right, I'll check out the motel and use his place as a free hotel. He is such a simple person should also let him know the heart of the sinister, pay may not have a return, now accept a lesson, for example, I was hurt just understand the good.

All day long, I played in the mud in the pottery bar. I made a vase, painted on it a look like a lucky little man, on the side of the sign "apple" two words.

Back to Jixiang there is already 8 p.m., he saw me a face of surprise: "Ah! I thought you wouldn't come back!" I handed him the vase. "How? I want to continue to have free room and board." Auspicious looked at the vase laughed, took out a lily from the crystal vase, inserted in it, hug me: "Apple, thank you!" Seeing his very sincere appearance, my heart can not help but a twinge. I have paid too much for Lin, but when did he ever say a "thank you" to me?

After spending a few days with Jixiang, I gradually got to know his story: when he was in college, he had a lover. Both of them liked Chinese culture very much, and they agreed to come to China together after graduation. However, the girl died in a car accident before she graduated from college because she had been drinking at a bar and was driving home when she hit an oncoming van. After graduating from college, he came to China alone to help his girlfriend complete her unfinished wish. When Jixiang talked about his girlfriend, his eyes were shining with tears.

I cold to the freezing point of the heart actually has a trace of warm, no wonder auspicious first see me on my special concern, he must be worried that I drank too much wine in the bar to repeat that tragedy. But, lucky, do you know how I wished that day that I'd never wake up?

In order to thank auspicious for my care, I cooked a table of rich Chinese food. Steaming hot food, warm each other's stomach. I even kind of wish I could fall in love with Jixiang, who is a nice guy, a much better guy than Lin. But if love were such a simple thing I wouldn't be pining away like this. But the auspicious kindness warmed me, and my mood gradually became calm. For a man who is not worth to grieve for him, I have paid so much. If I sink so low again, I am sorry that I can only be myself. Lin's biggest harm to me is that he made me lose faith in love, let me no longer believe that there is love in this world. However, after listening to the auspicious story and witnessing the purity of auspiciousness, my extreme heart began to tend to peace.

Twinkling of an eye has lived here in auspicious L0 days, it is time to go back. At the thought of leaving auspicious, my heart actually gave birth to the feeling of reluctant to part, in this word of the current era, his cabin, his sunny smile, his generous heart, let me linger, let me moved.