Does he contain all knowledge

She cried. She often wept about her past. A pain she could not erase. She had searched the internet for him. She knew, that you could not return to the past. She knew according to logic he would be married with children, but still she just wanted to know for sure, but the worldwide web had not yielded the answers she had searched for. But did she really want closure or did she want to hold on to the hope. He had been the love of her life. Not the one she had wanted to be a housewife with. Not the one she had once thought she had wanted to marry, but the one she would do anything for. Who she would have stood by through any storm.

She remembered the other one, the one she had wanted to marry. Now she realized that he had not been her destiny. That God, yes God had stepped in as her protector to save her from that fate.

Tonight she was alone. The barn was usually empty, but tonight she heard the soft cries of a barn owl. The animal of myth, that knew everything. She looked for the animal. Did he really contain all knowledge, could this bird tell her what technology could not. She had brought her guitar with her but she did not want to break the silence or scare the bird. She wished that the bird would magically tell the man what she thought and felt, but the song sometimes stuck in her throat. Tonight she prayed. The wise old owl was watching her. Was he offering her his support? Could this wise soul tell her what it seemed God could not? It had taken her months to learn the song. Finally she could perform it without breaking into tears. She quietly started strumming the guitar. The owl actually started cooing with her. She hesitated before singing, but the bird did not seem frightened. She sang out . "Hold on, hold on" "Can you hear me?" She wanted to hold her knees, hang her head and cry, but instead she sang " Remember her name" more to convince herself that she was not afraid and that she could hold on. How and why she wondered would someone just magically disappear. Why would he have abandioned his career dreams. She was strong, the owl flew over her head, but he did not leave, and no she did not cry. She would face whatever her destiny was. " She was that girl in the mirror who felt no fear, and always went after what she wanted." She longed to feel her heart sing. She wanted to feel the sensation of a kiss with a man who felt the same magic towards her. When everyone else left she would remain through, any storm or up and down. She had once felt that he would have done the same. The owl flew from the barn. Her heart ache flew out with the animal. The hole in her heart was a condition that she did not know how to change. The conventional wisdom, hold your head up high, do not cry. You are better than this. Show him that you can find a better guy. She sort of laughed,at the options, the typical southern guy. So easy to be friends with. So conditioned to the life of a wife, dog, leafs and white fence. She wanted to fly away with the owl. She held onto her dreams, and prayed. She held onto her dreams,and saved her money so she could afford to fly away. She held onto her dreams, and played her pain away. Tonight she lay in the hay. Tonight she slept. Had the owl taken her pain away.