Autumn afternoon, a little warm sunshine

Autumn afternoon, a little warm sunshine.

The heating pipes are being installed downstairs, and the piercing sound of the machines rumbles, like a toothless clock numbly and tired of hitting the human soul, arousing a sense of irritability...

Close the window, sit in front of the computer, listen to the song of the mean, a person's room, hear the sound of the keyboard.

Bored and shaking on the Internet, QQ is always that a few head pictures, do not know, but all are silent. A few frequented sites didn't do much better. Immutable pattern, immutable content, a little tired taste. I'm too lazy to go out, because I don't know where to go and what to do. The streets are always full of traffic, tireless sound and zombie crowds. Do not know why suddenly on this originally numb city full of boredom.

The success of the application for world Heritage was followed by a great deal of publicity, followed by a flood of tourists, followed by the construction of buildings and roads to improve the supporting facilities to beautify the urban environment, the originally quiet small city began to become noisy and crowded, or a good thing, improve the city's visibility, stimulate consumption and drive economic development. However, I do not know what kind of appearance is hidden behind such glorious scenery.

Idle to play in the school friends, so large teaching and research room, rigid blackboard tidy tables and chairs, a whole afternoon, sitting there and friends have not a build of gossip. Because they had to sit, the teachers who didn't have any classes stayed there, some at their desks, and some were bored. Several female teachers are enjoying discussing a new down jacket on the market. Four or five punished students lie helplessly on the dignified ground of the teaching and Research office. During the break, the corridor is full of noise, maybe left the school days a little long, really a little not used to such an environment atmosphere......

When I got home that day, the taxi I used to take drove straight and didn't take me to the place I wanted to go but still charged me for the whole journey. I feel cheated, and I still feel angry after an argument. A short distance from home but let me fully walk for half an hour, sunny, my heart is full of darkness, why even an original simple taxi driver has become so vulgar??

There are students, has been with so long, I thought I was very kind very attentively, devoting his mind to teach him to take him, but he is still very capricious very insolent attitude. Yes, they're just a bunch of ignorant kids who don't know anything, and I shouldn't bother with them too much. Just in a flash of a lot of memories. Suddenly feel very cool heart very grievance. I do not know when I became so fragile and vulnerable. Perhaps I had been repressed for a long time. At that moment, I could not help but let tears flow out of my eyes...

At the request of my parents, I came back for nearly two years. Nothing, feel live very tired. If at the beginning one graduates to come back won't be present this kind of state, if did not come back all the time go to work outside also won't be such state. But just don't have those if. That's why we're where we are now. I remember that time when I went home and greeted an elder. Maybe there were too many people present or maybe he didn't hear me. He didn't talk to me and went straight to someone else. Made an excuse and left. It is not that I am sensitive or fragile, but that he has always been my most respected elder and the person who always cares about me and loves me. I can stand other people's attitude and words, but I can't stand his attitude. Then very long period of time even go home I can deliberately avoid him. His unconsciousness hurt me. Not blame the fickleness of the world, just a little hate social cruelty hate their own incompetence.

Very tired, really feel very tired...

When I saw my old classmate on the street that day, I instinctively looked away but was recognized. Also because each other have things to do, hurriedly chatted a few words left. Now I contact very few of my classmates. I don't want them to see me as I am now. Very sensitive, don't want to contact too much. Sometimes I really want to sit down and catch up and remember the good old days, but...

Good friends one by one also married, began to have their own life, contact with the natural less coupled with psychological effect, and then will feel lonely for no reason. Sister said she had been used to being alone, because such a life was inevitable. But I'm still not used to it. Still hope very much to be able to chat together with once as often as crazy play together. Selfish thinking...

Tell yourself to live hard and be happy. Take responsibility for yourself, no matter what. And then one day you'll get your confidence back. Get back to the happy