A Letter Awaits Him

"Milton said you're bipolar, he said he's diagnosed bipolar, and you're undiagnosed".

"That's just like him, he's always trying to pull me down into what ever hell-hole he's down in". "When did he say this?"

"When you were in line getting drinks, He and that woman he was with."

"That's Bobbie"

"He and Bobbie, came over to the table, when you were in line the second time. He said he's been diagnosed as bipolar, and he knows you are too, but you're just not diagnosed."

"Of course he did. I haven't seen that man in years, and haven't communicated at all with him during that time period, but he believes he knows me, and that I have the same mental issues as him. This is why I told him to beat it when we were in line the first time, and why I don't have a relationship or any communications with that man. He never has anything normal and decent to say. It's always some contentious bullshit wrapped up in his insecurities and jealousies. He can't just say Hey, How's it going, it's great to see you, how's life going, you know; but, it's not like I even care if he did do that. That ship has sailed a long time ago, a r - e - a - l l - o - n - g time ago."

"Milton wanted to know what it's like to live with you, if you're difficult; then Bobbie spoke up "ohhh yeah, it's no fun some times" she gave Milton an apprehensive look as she said it, sensing she may have said something that will get her in trouble later. She gave off an abused women vibe. I thought it was all weird, and why talk about this kind of stuff at a wedding."

"Yeah, I'm sure she got it on the ride home that night. That's why I told Milt to beat it, when we were in line together that first time, because he was bringing up the stuff about me having a warrant for my arrest, which was absolutely ridiculous. First of all, we were at a wedding and it's not the appropriate time nor place for that; and second I have a Top Secret Security clearance with the U.S. Government, if there was a warrant for my arrest, the government would not allow me to hold that clearance, and they'd know where to find me to arrest me. This is the type of stuff he'd know if he just struck up normal conversations, instead of the crazy shit he says. "

"They were strange. He said your mother abandoned you with him"

"WHAT?"

"When you were talking with your mother, Milton looks at you two and said, "I don't know why he has a relationship with her, she abandoned him with me when he was a little kid"

"And the hits keep coming don't they. He is absolutely deranged, and lacks the ability to understand any of this stuff objectively. This is the man that I watched hold a knife to my mothers throat when I was four years old. This is the man, who had someone burn our home down, because my mother left him, and was getting the house. My mother did not abandoned me with this psycho, I went half afraid, and half willingly, in hopes that he and that evil woman he remarried would relent in fucking with my mother.

"Why would you go with him, if he's that horrible?"

"I know it seems outrageous, right. But you had to be there, and experiencing what Mary, his second wife was like. She was malicious. She would have my mother's utilities turned off, and change my mom's address at the post office, to have her mail and bills sent to an unknown address. She didn't care if utilities were getting turned off on my sisters who lived with my mom, she would just use that in court as evidence my mother was unfit. Can you imagine how horrible that woman would have been with the aid of social media? Milt and Mary would constantly bad mouth my mother, and do their best to manipulate our minds into believing it. I thought if I just went with Milt, they would stop all the nonsense and fighting in court."

"Wow"

"Yeah, wow doesn't even begin to cover it.

"I just can't imagine that taking place"

"It did take place, and I put up with it for about 10 years. Milt bounced me around a lot. I went from living with Mary, to living with his parents, while he was actually the one who abandoned a child, because he was never around. I rarely every saw him. He was either working, or out doing what ever it was that he found more important, than raising his son. And he had the nerve to say my mother abandoned me. That guy is something else. A complete narcissist, who is jealous of the relationship I share with my mother.

"He seemed very disingenuous when he said it, like he wanted me to agree with him, and talk bad about your mother"

"It's not like I enjoyed my mother either when I was young, or more precisely the man she remarried. Between Milt and my mom's second husband Dave, I didn't have great male role models to choose from, so I actually chose to be on my own. For my 7th and 8th grade years, Milt actually got us into an apartment, where it was just us, or really just me. It was like I had my own place as a young teenage boy. I had a paper route that I used to support myself. It was actually the best two years of my childhood. I never did better in school. I was on the honor roll those two years, and I saved up enough money from my job to afford the summer school trip to Washington D.C., I was living the dream"

"You lived all by yourself has a kid? There's no way I'd ever allow that to happen."

"Yeah, it was actually the best situation for me, considering. But it all came to an end, when I returned from Washington D.C. Right before I left for the trip, Milt stole the $300.00 I saved up for spending money; the mother who abandoned me had to jump into action and get her side of the family to donate money, so I would have money on the trip. My mom was the one who dropped me off and picked me up from that trip. The day she picked me up, I was going to spend the weekend with her, so I asked her to stop at my apartment, so I could get some clean clothes. When I walked into my apartment, it looked like I was robbed and squatters were living there. All of my stuff was gone. My Nintendo, TV, stereo, and most of the furniture was all gone. The only things left were my clothes and my bed; but everything was filthy. I was so angry. I went out to my mother's car and told her that I'm going to be living with her permanently from now on, and I'm getting all my clothes out right now. That's when I wrote Milt off, for good.

"That's so sad, I can't believe a parent could do that"

"He's an abusive, self-centered man, and after he publicly, on social media, called my oldest nephew a "pussy" a handful of years ago; I have blocked him completely out of my life. He's not the patriarch of the family he imagines himself to be. He's a bully that looks to insult and abuse people, who always has some criticism for everyone else, while he hypocritically ignores the work that needs to be done on the man in the mirror.

"Are you ever going to talk to him? Maybe he just wants to have a relationship with you, and..."

"No! I don't ever plan on talking to him, He hasn't changed, and he never will. I have so many stories that reinforce the example of the man you experienced at the wedding. When I was 21 years old. He was arrested for some type of theft and drug charges. Instead of just facing the music and doing the rehab assigned to him by the court, he had to tell me that I'm an alcoholic or addict like him, I just don't know it yet, because I haven't gotten in trouble for it like him. So he demanded that I go to AA like him. He can't accept that I'm not abusive or an addict like him; and constantly believes that I am. After 10 years of marriage, you know I'm not bipolar, nor am I addicted to anything. Look how long alcohol sits in our fridge, and how easily I turn down cannabis or refrain from any type of drug use."

"You are many things but bipolar and an addict you definitely are not. LOL"

"That's why he was being so annoying about us drinking at the wedding, and why I had to finally tell him to beat it. He can't handle his alcohol, or any substances for that matter, and he wants so badly to project his dysfunctions onto me, because he can't handle tackling his failures alone."

"After you told him to beat it, he and Bobbie cornered me when you went to get more drinks and were talking with your mother."

"He just took advantage of you and your curiosity about my life, to try and convince you I'm like him, as a way to punish me for cutting him out of my life. I have a letter, that I've written, rewritten, but have held on to for years that I always intend to give him, but just haven't. I've tried to just ignore him, but that isn't going to work. Before the next trip we take back to my hometown, I'm going to mail him the letter. I recently got his address from my sister, so I have it when I need to send this letter."

"Why are you going to wait until then?"

"Because I want what I have to say to him, to be fresh in his mind, and to know I'm serious, and to prevent him from even approaching us or you with that type of rhetoric again. Besides, it's not like I'm going to talk to him before then. A letter awaits him..."