The Silence of That Night

Some nights are louder than days.

Not because of noise, but because of the thoughts they bring.

That night was one of them.

It was a normal winter evening in my small town. The streets were quiet, the sky was clear, and the lights of nearby houses glowed softly. Everything looked peaceful, just like any other day. But something inside me was not at peace.

I had just come home after a long day. My mother was in the kitchen making tea. My father was reading the newspaper. My younger sister was watching a drama on TV. Everything looked so usual, but I felt empty.

“I am going to the rooftop,” I said.

“Wear a sweater. It is cold,” my mother replied.

I nodded and went upstairs with an old diary in my hand, the same one I had not touched in years. I sat on the cold floor, looking at the stars. The wind was soft. The night was calm. But my heart felt heavy, like it was carrying a storm.

I opened the diary slowly. The pages smelled old. On one page, I saw a line written in handwriting I knew too well:

“Sometimes life just stops. Like someone pressed the pause button. And we can only watch.”

It was my brother Asif’s handwriting.

Suddenly, memories came rushing in.

Asif was my elder brother, my best friend, my guide, my biggest supporter. Three years ago, he passed away in a road accident. He was only 22.

The day he left, my world changed. But I never talked about it much. I smiled in front of others. I laughed when needed. I lived life as if everything was fine.

But deep down, I was never the same.

That night, as I read his words, I felt like he was right there with me. I could almost hear his voice. I could see his smile. I could feel his hand on my shoulder.

I did not cry. I did not move.

I just sat there… quiet.

I remembered how he used to sit with me on this same rooftop. We would talk about our future. He wanted to start his own business. I wanted to become a writer. We had so many dreams, but some dreams do not come true.

People always say, “Time heals everything.”

But nobody tells you that time does not make you forget.

It just teaches you to hide the pain better.

That night, I finally accepted something I had been avoiding for years, I miss him every day, and I always will.

And that is okay.

It is okay to carry someone in your heart even after they’re gone.

It is okay to feel their absence in small moments.

It is okay to remember.

As I sat there, I looked at the sky and whispered,

“Asif, I hope you are watching. I hope you know I still think about you.”

For a few seconds, the wind blew a little stronger.

Maybe it was just the weather.

Or maybe... it was his answer.

Today, people tell me:

"Zaid, you have changed."

"You do not talk like before."

"You stay silent a lot."

And I just smile.

Because they do not know, my heart is still living in that night.

The night when I sat under the stars, holding an old diary, talking to a memory.

Author’s Note:

If you have ever lost someone, you know this feeling. The world moves on, but a part of you stays stuck in a moment. And that is not weakness, that is love.

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