The loneliest on the planet

“Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them” Jodi Picolt.

How beautiful is this quote and so awfully true

The loneliest place on the planet is the moment when you know you have left your home country and you walk out of the plane into your new country.

I remember clear as day how excited I was when I walked out of the plane at Hobart airport in October 2005. I had arrived in Hobart on a working holidayAnd I have three months so exciting holidaying and enjoyment to Look forward to.

I had the most amazing time seeing new places and everyone around me making this time amazing.

Of those who have read my previous story would know, I met my now ex husband while on holiday so I left Australia but within a few months back here.

Which brings me to the story of the most incredibly lonely feeling in the world. When you walk out of a plane and you know this place is now your home but there’s nothing here to make it homely that is when it hits you how incredibly alone you are, Despite hundreds of smiling faces and arms to greet you.

Those of you reading my story what in the situation will be nodding along and feeling that sadness in your hearts and will remember that every day for the rest of your life. this is not to say that hasn’t been amazing amazing days here in my new country and still more amazing days to come, but there is just nothing comparing to that feeling of feeling utter utter alone.

I don’t think it matters how long or how short you have left in your new adopted country, if you arrive as an adult it will always be a second home never never truly HOME.

I love Hobart and I love Australia and it’s an absolutely amazing country and I’m so lucky that this country adopt me and let me become a citizen on the same merits as Someone born here, Feeling lonely is not the same as on grateful.

I hope for my children that when they want I go to Denmark and stay for longer than 3 to 4 weeks at a time, but when they stay there and live whether that be four months or four years, I hope they never feel the same feeling of loneliness and out of place that I feel on bad days in this amazing country. I hope they feel love a feeling I belonging And that they walk with their heads held high and a citizen of the world with two passports but the whole world in the hands and they will love every plac they go........ But should I feel lonely or not sure what to do, I hope they turn someone close to them and just asked for a hug.

I’m not sure if the feeling would’ve been less, not there or even more and I rather the country completely different versus the country that is essentially the same just with a different language. Sometimes I think because the countries are so similar, it makes it harder to fit in because no one expects you to feel alone because everything is essentially the same where is how I arrive in a totally different country it might have been easier for people to understand because everything is so different.

* love will always win *