Single Momma Blues

I am a single mom. I didn't choose to be as the other half of my beautiful daughter's DNA said he was all in when we found out I was pregnant. A whole lot of him bouncing in and out of her life, finally he decided to just stay away and we are so much better off without him. Raising a little girl alone is still no easy feat though, even if we are better off. Her attitude and her determination are something to be reckoned with, that's for sure. As a single mom, working is hard to do outside of the house because the cost for daycare is so high, however I found a job where I can work from home which brings its own challenges. I am so glad I don't have daycare to pay for, but having this little voice in the background doesn't always help with customer service, however, it does melt some of the angry hearts that call in.

We also have 4 cats that love to try to climb on my lap and y desk, trying to "help" me work, which, if you have cats, you know the struggles. We also have a dog that is super well behaved, until he sees a person walk by the house or hears a noise he doesn't recognize; and people ask why I prefer cats over dogs. My daughter is slowly learning how to treat the animals as well, though she is getting a lot better. She now at least only pets the cats unless I tell her to chase them when they are doing something they shouldn't be. She hasn't quite figured out how to give the dog space yet, though she is really nice to him and loves him so much. Because of the lack of personal space, she has gotten a few small bites from him, but he also isn't used to little kids either since he is my brother's dog and he doesn't have his own kids.

Part of being a single mom though, is getting ready to send my little one to kindergarten in September. I have the option to send her to a private school or to public school and it isn't an easy choice. The school I was hoping to send her to has become less appealing as I research other schools and find better curriculums. I did not do well when it came to school so I want to give my daughter more opportunities than I had growing up. Financially, I can send my daughter to any school, but I want her at the best place. I have applied to so many schools, I feel like it is college applications all over again. I am so excited for her to go to school though, for her to be a little independent girl and continue to grow into who she is. I love watching her personality form and grow from day to day. I do believe she has ADD or ADHD, which she is getting tested for in a few weeks.

Being a single mom has its challenges, but it is also so rewarding. Getting to be the only one who gets all the love and all the snuggles is the best reward of all, and knowing I don't have to confer with anyone else and get their input on my parenting choices means I can raise my daughter the way I want her to be raised. if anyone out there is also a single parent, know you are not alone, support each other and be there for any other single parents, we need it.

All the love!