My Wife's Mothers Day Gift

I have a confession to make...

Time and time again, I've thought about our story; actually I've got another project in the works that speaks on exactly that. It has never been a secret when it comes to how much I regret the way things ended between us. Fell in love as kids, met at the end of the aisle, had our beautiful daughter... almost a fairy tale story except we didn't reach the happily ever after. Even still, you're the love of my life and I will never hesitate to express that. However, you have moved on and to a man that has earned nothing but my complete and total respect at that. Seriously, if there was anyone that I'd want you to be with that wasn't myself, he has proved with out a shadow of a doubt to deserve that opportunity. I sincerely mean that, swear to god I do. Either way, that's not really the topic of discussion I intended for this letter. Rather, it's something to keep in mind going forward because even though you have hurt me in some ways worse than anyone else ever has in my entire life, I couldn't have chosen a better woman to be the mother of my little girl and that's a significant factor in why I'm still in love with you as I type these words this very moment.

You and I have what can be considered as completely reversed circumstances in terms of our mothers. While I was brainwashed by my biological father at an early age in order to sabotage my relationship with my mom, eventually he went to flee'd the country, ending up in prison and I've had nothing but my mom ever since. You on the other hand had an extremely tight bond with your mom throughout your early years and the majority of your teens but then you lost her when she passed away... I know how much that took a tole on you... I know how much it hurt and If I could go back in time to any point of our relationship, it wouldn't be when I fucked up to fix it, it wouldn't be when you walked out to stop you, It wouldn't even be when you cheated on me. If I could chose a single moment to go back to, I would chose the days after you lost her... So that I could hug you as hard as I possibly could.

Although it wouldn't seem that way initially, a beam of light came from that dark period in your life... That beam of light being the the kind of mother you would be to our daughter. It's crazy because out here in the town that I am currently living in, I hear so many stories from girls about why they don't have their kids... most of them usually on drugs... and all I can ever think about is how blessed I am, how blessed our precious Gabriella is. In those girls weakness, I see your strength, in their excuses, I see your dedication, in their failures, I see your success. Success that you execute every single day of your life sine the day I lost sight of who I was leaving you with no other option but to step up twice as hard. I know for a fact it wasn't easy Greta and although you may have had help from Jorge along the way, at the end of the day it was your performance as a parent that made so much effort appear so effortless.

Our little Girl... She's beautiful isn't she? I swear almost every time I take a second to admire the princess you and I created, it rarely ever fails to take my breath away. Even if you and I remain separated for the rest of our lives, I couldn't be more sincere when I tell you that I wouldn't change a thing when it comes to the family we have, when it comes to the light that we brought into this, at times, dark world. She's like a bright star in the pitch black night time sky. There isn't a woman on earth that I would've rather given birth to our angel. Regardless of how much pain you've caused me, regardless of how much pain I've caused you, there isn't the tiniest grain of regret over you being the mother to my first and, thus far, only child.

I mean that Greta... If you never believed a single word I've ever told you and if you never believe a thing I ever say again. You have to believe me when I tell you It is an honor and I'm more grateful than words can possibly express that you allowed me to have a baby with you...

Happy Mothers Day Greta...

P.S. Forever & Always Bonnie

- Clyde.