My life, my humanity.

I remember it all began with remembering things and noticing the world around me at ages three to four. My life was difficult, My mother was a raging nagging bitch, I was lucky if she ever shut the heck up and enjoyed a cigarette and a beverage of her choice while listening to music. Life was repeatedly a jerk, throwing mass stumbling stones in my way. I won't share her real first name so we shall name her Dodochelle in this novel. I would rather keep it copasetic. My aunt Dodochelle's sister just recently cut me off completely because I made the right decision on 2012 January day 18 and adopted my children out at birth due to poverty and my own personal issues. I thought and still believe to this very day that I made the right decision in regards to my twin daughters and my aunt Rose bitched me out and cut me off, and still to this day I feel like she was in the wrong for overreacting to my situation and my choices and I was not going to change my mind regardless of what anyone said to me. I made the right decision and I dare anyone to say otherwise. Mama bear knows what's best. My aunt rose is the cunt of cunts, no better than my other aunt on my ma side, Roland. Roland always kept her hair and nails done like a wanna-be-high-maintenance bitch, makeup too. Dressed to the nines for the Keebler company working for Dennis her boss crunching numbers constantly but always pretending to be some high maintenance type of broad. Always mean-spirited a total jerk.

Dodochelle never desires to take her medication for schizophrenia a disease that is crippling her mind day in and day out because she will not take her medication. And she is a jerk like her sisters. My father Jerry was right, Once a cunt hoe bitch always will be, when it comes to my ma dukes and her preppy Lil bitch ass stuck up prude sisters. I have always proven to be more of a sweetheart dearest type than the asshole type, however, do not push my buttons in the worst way or gaslight me, I will go the hell off when gaslit.

My mother was careless to a certain extent, the state of Ohio took me away when I was about 5 or 6 years of age, she did not feed me as she should have, I never slept well at my father's apartment, ma dukes was always being a cunt bitch screaming from the bathroom while taking a piss how she regretted giving birth to me, she said she wished she had never had me. What a cunt bitch asshole she is. No better than her sisters. My dad is far from perfect however he had managed to be better treated towards me than the others on my father's side or mom's side of the family. I am beautifully and wonderfully made in God's image, my mother and her sisters could never take that reality away from me. I love my flesh and blood to death however I have difficulty understanding why they could allow themselves to be therefore damn cruel towards me, I feel like I did nothing to trigger their disrespectful ways. My aunt was there during my recovery by the NICU however my mother was not present. I do not miss my mother however I miss my kids every day. I do not miss my aunts or my dad, my dad disowned me after he found out he is a grandpa. What a shameful family right? I won't miss my people when they pass away. I am numb to them they are dead to me. I hope that I continue to heal and I am currently healing right now.

I hope my readers enjoy this true human story. Thank you for reading. I am blessed and highly favored. Tips are appreciated much, I hope to get over 600,000 reads soon.