My Badass Mom

Where do I even begin with my mother?

First and foremost I am thankful for my mom having a good relationship with my father despite being divorced. They are still friends and both have a mutual understanding that their kids come first and too often do i hear about how that isn't the case in divorces.

She also taught me restraint. I am prone to mood swings cuz of how my brain works but never have thrown the first punch regardless of how much I wanted to. I was taught a lesson that I stand by to this day. "Never start a fight. Always end one." Me and my siblings were taught to be nice, but to stand up for yourself if you start getting pushed around. She saw my younger brother get repeatedly kicked in the back while he is just sitting on some steps, she was about to rush in when she sees him sigh, calmly set the tablet down, turn and grab his leg, and throw him down the steps. The kid was about to run to the office crying when she stepped in his way with the most deathly glare. "Turn your ass around, you earned that."

She also taught me that you are more talented that you will ever believe. She is the most phenomenal singer i have ever heard, professionally train for choir. I sing with her to the radio and it is my favorite thing to do yet she says "You haven't heard me sing, you've heard me dick around." and yet she REFUSES to listen to herself sing. She hates it and thinks it sounds awful, despite her knowing she's talented. "You will never find a more harsh critic of yourself than yourself.". Knowing that she hates the sound of her own voice on recording has made me more confident in my own singing, since clearly you can't be your own judge.

My mom taught me to own up to your mistakes. So many times we've had our fights that turn into full on screaming matches, but after the smoke clears and we take a moment to breath with talk about the fight. We apologize for things that we didn't mean, we talk about how we both felt and understand the other side. Mom will apologize for not understanding me at first and vice versa, and we always try to meet each other half way.

She taught me that family comes first, a lesson also taught to me by my dad, something they had in common. There was one time where i had gotten into a fight with my step father cuz he was drunk, I made the mistake of threatening him and it turned into a physical confrontation. Mom seemingly appeared out of nowhere and threw him to the ground yelling "GET THE FUCK OFF MY SON ASSHOLE!". That night my older brother stood guard at the door while he sobered up and I could hear mom screaming at him from across the road after I snuck out to get from fresh air. The next day me and him talked about the incident and we came to an agreement, if I ever needed to fight, he would fight me so I could let my pent up anger out. He has never raised a hand to me since. Mom taught me that night that she cares about me more than I had realized and will absolutely destroy a man twice her size if her kids are in danger.

Finally she taught me to follow my dreams, but keep it realistic. I told her I wanted to start making a gaming YouTube channel and she simply responded with "You certainly have the personality. Just PLEASE don't quit working until it takes off okay?". I ask her if she thinks I would be good enough to make music. "Yes! Just don't blow all of your money on gear, slowly get it bit by bit as you have the money to spare."

My mom is one of the most incredible people in my life, she helped make me the man I am today, and I will never be able to properly express how much she means to me.