Mom tribute

Okay here it goes, I selected this specific tattoo to submit because there is a true sadness but REAL LOVE and meaning of love. My mom was my best friend, boy hunter, crazy, adventurous and spontaneous woman. She was the definition of WONDER WOMAN to me and my brothers’ because she raised 3 children on her own and she crossed the river to live the American Dream with my siblings. Both of my oldest brothers’ were born and raised in Mexico with my mom and I was born in California, U.S. My mom was a cool but yet strict mom of course. At the age of 18, she got me my first tattoo of a tribal hibiscus tattoo in color. It was my birthday/late Christmas present.

Years pass by, its 2011/2012, I was in a rebellion stage whereas, I didn’t walk across the stage at graduation(graduated though), lied to her saying I was going to my cousin’s house or brother’s house but went out to party with my friends, drink and do wild shenanigans. April 2013, I took it upon myself to move out of my mom’s and with my boyfriend. She was furious and made my life hell until the day we moved from California to Texas.

June 10, 2013 I received a phone call from my brother Chris breathing and holding back tears, he told me my Mom had passed away. I asked him how and he told me that she committed suicide, she injected herself with insulin and fell asleep on the couch. He said the next morning that he found her not breathing and the insulin bottles with the needle next to her. Apparently before taking her life she was crying and telling my brother how much she regret trying to hurt me that all she wanted was for me to be with her.

So when I did this tattoo it meant so much to me for the artist to capture all the things I described she liked and to incorporate the year of her birth to the year of her death, originally I wanted the saying “You’ll Be In My Heart” with the years but its perfect the way it is. She was obessed with Indian culture and beauty, hence the dreamcatcher, she also had two dream catcher tattoos herself one with a bull skull and the other with all our birthdays. Peacock feathers because she loved the beauty of the bird along with the color of the bird. And a yellow rose because I love roses and she loved the color yellow.

I miss her everyday and wish she could be here with me, watching me grow into a woman and a wonderful mom. I wish she could be here to meet all her grandchildren and spoil them all. I hope I made her proud with all the accomplishments that I have done so far in life. I want her to be proud of all of us and how far we made it in life so far.