Living with a Narcissist

The reason I decided to add a trigger warning is because I am a straight male and we live in an age where so much can be assumed about me just because I am male . I am a sociologist in North America, and I think at this point it’s important to understand that just because I say no to something it’s not because I have any biases towards anybody and yes I have been aggravated by a female, but the difference between being bitter and being me is that I have not given up on myself , humanity or the goodness of other men and women. Sorry , but I had to make a disclaimer to cover all the slanderous comments internet trolls like to leave below content that could threaten their narrative.

That being said here goes:

When I moved into my cousins after being tired of dealing with my dad and his drunken bullshit, things were peaceful. I remember one scene where I was telling my cousin about how everywhere I go people end up trying to control me like they own me, and how somehow I always end up putting them to shame through my skills and good deeds, they always try to bring me down and make me feel shame for something that I shouldn’t that only they feel shame for!

I thought telling her about this spirit that seems to be able to possess anyone through anger would help her grasp her own emotions because at this point she had driven just about everyone away; the reason I agreed to stay was that I thought I could help her see her own demons and control them and it seemed like She was already recovering , but she constantly loses control of her emotions she ruins her relationships with people and then she uses any sob story she can think of to control people or so that they’ll wanna do more for her.

...and she has a daughter who soaks it all up. I know how that is. My mother wasn’t around much in my early years so my aunt- her sister was my primary care giver , and she had the same anger management type problems, but she didn’t go looking for trouble like my cousin does. I absorbed the anger and tried to dish it out as well, but I was saved from that spirit through motivation from my youngest aunt and meditation . I was about 7 or 8 at the time.

The reason I bring up her daughter is because she watches her mom beat up on people who care about her including her husband, and then she tried to re-enact what she saw on me, because I’m friendly, I’m nice and I won’t hurt her and I’d play with her but after a while it got old and she became annoying like a little fly, always running in the room with no other social skills other than to be annoying, and somehow breaks your consentration , you want it to fly away but it just won’t leave you alone, but you can’t kill it.

After a while when I’d grab her and pin her down so she can’t move , when it once was laughter now it’s screaming for mommy like I’m trying to kill her, and little girls already make me nervous as it is, so yeah now I definitely don’t wanna have anything to do with this child. It has no social skills except what she learned from her mother, which is to listen to half of what you say about one thing and the cutt the other half off with an unrelated less interesting fact about herself.

I bought an electric skateboard to help with my commute to work or wherever and they know I don’t want them to play on, as it is not a toy, yet they keep asking me to ride it, and everytime I say no, and my cousin gets mad, no matter how many times I explain why I say no, I’ve found that its just better to just say no, because an explanation gives her a petty excuse to be petty, and try to come up with some kind of punishment for an adult male because she can’t have what she wants.

I mean for example: I don’t get mad and try to burn down your house because you won’t let me drive your car.

One nite we got into an arguement in which I was making her argument look ridiculous, because she thinks she’s so “intelligent” that she can’t see how intelligent she is not.

She keeps claiming she’s supposed to be on bedrest, but all she does is run a muck on society, which is why she has no friends as she has no concern for other peoples general social and physical boundaries. Some people that don’t really know her think the behavior is cute, but they just don’t know.

She threatened my life if I touched her daughter and I told her I really didn’t want anything to do with that child and that pissed her off, then she went in the house and ruined my already fucked up relationship with my dad on, came back outside and tried to do the same with my mother , putting me on camera like a I’m a hostage

Since the arguement I remember deciding I needed to lead by example and apologize like a man, but she wouldn’t let me , she wouldn't forgive. So everyday now she wants to argue and threaten people anyone who the negative spirit in her head tells her is a threat. Last week she threatened a delivery guy , lost because he can’t see the house number, in an incredibly racist way as well. I hope that guy doesn’t go back and say it was all of us because it was just her.

So now days she threatens my life on a regular basis, and is currently trying to oppress and extort anyone and everyone she thinks she can get away with it on. She’s done it so many times that her daughter even her daughter thought to Say a death threat, because I was feeding her turtle that she kidnapped from the wild, and she thought I was feeding it too much.

And it’s like , “excuse me, but if you had any regard for life, I wouldn’t feel the need to feed your fish or turtle”.

The only reason I’m still here is because I am waiting for my packages in the mail to arrive, because surely she is so spiteful that despite amazon telling me they have arrived, I still can’t rule something ridiculous happening before I can get back to get it out.