Little Black Book

Im A Poor Kid In A Home Of Hate. Some Nights I Was Allowed In And Some Nights I Was Not. Some Nights I Was Allowed To Eat And Some Nights I Was Not. I Have Been Trying To Find A Job And Make My Way Out But Nobody Wants A, At The Time, Seventeen Year Old Who Wears Ragedy Clothes And Probably Smells. So I Just Dreamt Of Money And Getting Away From This Monstrous House Of Mines. I Said Dreamt Meaning, In A Past Tense Cause Now I Am Somewhere Better Sitting On Money. And I Am Still Shocked On How It Happened.

It Was The Night That I Wasn’t Allowed In The House. So I Went To My Favorite Warm Spot In The Park By Eddy’s Fish And Chip Diner, Where I Sometimes Can Get A Good Meal For Free. But This Time It Was Different. There Was A Bridge I Had Never Seen Before Right Where I would Always be At. I Walked Over There In Hope That The Spot Was Still Warm. It Was But It Didn’t Feel The Same. It Was Almost Like I Sat In A Different Dimension. And The Longer I Sat There The More I Started Hearing A Voice Trying To Guide Me To A Object By The Tree. That Was Way To Far To See At The Time. But As I Got Closer This Book Appeared. It Was A Little Black Book. I Picked It Up And It Was Titled “Little Black Book”. The Condition Of It Was Almost Old. Like It Was From The 1800s Or Something. I Wanted To Open It Right Away But I Waited So I Could Read It At Eddy’s In The Morning.

I Found A Better Spot To Sleep Last Night. And As I Rested I Had Dreamed Of Someone Warning Me About my My Wishes In Life And Had No Idea What It Ment. Then The Dream Switched, It Was A Dream Of My Before And After Life. And The Ending Scared Me Woke And Also The Cold Breeze That Hit Me Hard.

After I Woke Up Fully, I Realized I Had Still Had That Black Book In My Hamds. And Wondered Did This Cause My Dream,Then I Thought About It And Realized How Impossible That Was And Laughed. I Sat There For Awhile Freezing. Waiting Till The Sun Hit All The Way To Check My Watch, And After A Guessing Of An Hour Or Two It Did. So I Checked The Time On This Out Dated Watch I Had Found At That House. That Monstrous House. But Anyways I Seen It Was About Time For Eddy’s To Open, So I Headed That WayAnd Of Course Brought My New Book Along.

I Had Finally Arrived At The Diner And Thanfully They Were Open. And As Usual, On The Days I’m Forced To Be Homeless, I’m The First Customer.

“Hey Ms.Wanda”

“Goodmorning Baby,You Are Shivering Honey You Got To Stop Walking Here So Early We Are In New York” She Laughed And Went To Star The Coffee Machine “ Hey Where’s Your Coat, I Never See You With One”

“ I Don’t Have One Right Now” I Felt Embarrassed And Shamed So I Lowered My Head And Held Back My Tears

“It’s Ok Hunny, I’ll Tell You What I’ll Get You Some Clothes And A Brand New Coat When Eddy Get Here”

“It’s Ok”

“Figure Out Your Size And Write Them Down On Here Sugar” She Handed Me A Pen And Paper “You Want Your Usual”

“Yes Ma’am, Thank You”

“Mmmhmmm”

I Wrote Down My Sizes For Everything While She Cooked My Food. And I Also Wanted To Cry. Because Nobody Has Ever Treated Me Like A Human Before. But Every Time I Come Here That Ends. Eddy’s Is Warm Home Filled With Love I Have Always Wanted. Eddy And Wanda Are The Parents I Always Wanted. And The Sweet Regular Customers Are The Siblings. I Feel Safe And Wanted Here.

Some Time Passed And She Brung Out The Food. And While I Ate I Started To Venture In The Book. The Book Had Questions And The Was All About Me. For Example, One Question Said “ What’s Your Biggest Goal?”. I Answered With “To Be In A Family Who Loves Or To Get Money That Will Get Me Away From The One Who Hates Me.

“Hey Sport”

“Hey Eddy”

“What’s Wrong With You”

“Can You And Wanda Adopt Me” I Hurried And Covered My Mouth Because I Did Not Want To Say That. And When I Opened My Big Mouth Again To Say Sorry This Is What I Said “ Please I Am Literally Hated At Home, Sometimes I’m Allowed In And Allowed To Eat And Sometimes I’m Not, And On The Nights I’m Not I Sleep Outside At The....” I Covered My Mouth And Moved My Hands Just To Uncontrollably Speak Again. “ Park Across The Street And...” Tried Again And “ That’s Why I’m Here So Early With No Coat Or Good Clothes And Shoes, And Every Time I’m Here I Feel Like I Am Home, Not That Home But A New Home, And You Guys Are My Only Meal Most Days And I Really Need You, So Please Adopt Me” After I,My,Whatever It Was Got Done Speaking I Cried, No Sobbed. And Both Eddy And Wanda Hugged Me.

“Oh Sugar Pie, I Had No Idea”

“Why Haven’t You Said Anything Son”

“I Don’t Know”

“ Ok Look We Need A Second To Talk Ok, But For Now We Need To Call CPS”

“Wait What About My Little Sister ” I held My Head Down And Was Thinking Why Did I Spill Everything Out Like That.

“ Well Figure It Out Ok Honey”

After A Full Investigation Into My Parents, Me And My Sister Got Tooken. And Eddy And Wanda Agreed To Adopt Me And My Sister.

We Have Now Been Living With Eddy And Wanda For Almost A Month Now And Everything Has Been Going Great. And We Are In School But A Different So We Could Start Fresh.

I Was Writing In My Journal During Dinner And The Question “What Would You Do With Twenty Thousand Dollars?”, And You Would Think I Would Answered It Like “Spend All Of It On Shoes And Clothes”. No That’s Not Me. See Since I Was Young I had Dreams For My businesses I Would Build And The People I Would Help. Same Vision. And Even Now As A Almost Twenty Year Old In College I Have The Same Dream. Even Though I Am Struggling To Financially Provide For Myself. And Hopefully That Changes.

Update On My Journal, I Recently Answered The Question, “ What Challenge Are You Facing Everyday?”. And I Answered “ To Get My Business Started And Financialy Provide For Myself And Might Have To Drop College Until I Can Afford It”.

It’s Officially My Birthday. And I Wasn’t Planning Much. And It Was Still Morning So I Just Layed In Bed And While I Was Laying Down I Was Scrolling On FaceBook When This Ad Popped Up. It Was An Ad For This Best Picture Competition For Twenty Thousand Dollars And As A Joke I Entered It Cause I Turned Twenty Today. And Also I Hoped It Would Give Me Good Luck To Win,You Know With Me Turning Twenty Today. And What I Find Funny About It Is I Had Just Did Some Photos At The Zoo A Few Days Ago. So Of Course I Entered One That Was New But It Was After I Read The Details And Stuff And It Said The Competition Ended Today At Twelve PM, So I Already Expected To Loose Since It Was Already Ten. And They Had To Be Professional Photography Of Your Inner Self But Using Nature.

I Had Nothing Else To Do While I Waited For This Competition So I Took A Shower. Did Homework And Exercised. I Even Cooked Me Breakfast And Called Family. I Checked My Email And At Twelve Exactly Just Curious To If I Won. And To My Suprise I Won. And I Really Got The Twenty Thousand. I Was So Shocked And Happy. Eventually I Started Thinking About The Journal Cause I Wanted To Write About It. And I couldn’t Find It, I Checked Every Where. I Thought I Dropped It Outside When I Checked Mail, So I Checked. And When I Went Outside To Look, This Kid About Six Gave Me This Note. And The Note Read “Question Twenty. And You Don’t And Never Needed Me For Strenght Just For Guidance And Support”. After Reading It I Sat And I Thought Back To Every Moment I Written In The Journal And Answered A Question The Book Helped.

Like When I Blurted Everything Out And Boom, I Was Adopted. Or When My Mama Was Finna Pass To Cancer. And I Wrote About It. A Piece Of Her Cancerous Tumor Had Went Away And It Gave Her A Fighting Chance. One She Didn’t Have. Or When It Asked “ What Was I Going Through?”. At That Time I Was Struggling With Depression,Anxiety, And PTSD. From Going Through Abuse And Being Unwanted. See I Only Told You How I Was Forced Homeless. But I Was Only Allowed To Eat What Was Dropped. I Was Only Allowed To Sleep On The Hard Floor With A Scratchy Cover That Smelled. I Used To Hang From My Arms In The Basement With Chains On My Waist So I Wouldn’t Move. I Have Been Through So Much More In That House. But Because Of The Book I Had Strength. Strength Enough To Say I Forgive You And I Still Love You. And The Book Just Helped. I Am Now Able To Stay In College. Rent To Own A House Like I Want To. And Just Some Other Stuff That I Have Planned. And Question Twenty Said “What Would You Do With Twenty Thousand Dollars?”. This Whole Time That Book Helped Me And I Never Knew.