Life without My Mother

Well hello guys i been waiting so long to get this story. out its been extremely me hard to talk about this subject and it is “Life Without My Mother”. and i must admit it is excruciatingly hard to deal with out my mother then due to the fact growing up the only child makes it ten times harder especially if you go threw separation anxiety, abandonment issues, depression, stress will all in fact get to you because you have that time to think you have no other allegations but yourself and growing up in a single home my dad was around but wasn’t around my mom had to force him many of times she let me up on is slick and ceniving ways then i didnt listen now im glad i applied myself so i wouldn’t do anything foolish and don’t let him manipulate me into doing anything mind you my father left my mother in 2011-12 for another woman and family. he made that decision on his own as he is a grown man at the end of it all my mom still. carried on the bills regardless weather she had it or not she made it work so my mom wanted the house since he decided to leave she had him sign his rights to the house over but it was hand written then he went to start a new family now fast forward to 2019 my mother has passed in august of 2019 it could be another story for another time but my mother basically as i said passed me down the home so i take up on her estate but now my father wants a piece of the house but have put a single payment since 1999 my mother continued to pay this man. debt mind you couldn’t pull a loan out because his credit he needed my mother but now she not here he tries to sell my home and tries to go from under me not to mention alot of the stuff right now all i need is a parents loving not someone thats trying to take more from me mind you he has a happy family “ 3 beautiful children “and a “wife” and a home. so for him to be selfish and to be worried about a home you gave up 6-7 years ago now the only thing i can do is just pay the bills cant i can’t pay them no more as for my depression and my set of mind right now since a year has passed and its going on two. i feel like i needed my father being as though he was still here. and alive and well i wish he. would had stepped up. and actually acted as a father. i didnt receive. guidelines for the house i ask you you tried manipulate me into selling the house know i didn’t want that i didnt care at first for my mother assets but i know how much time and energy she put into the home like i said ill be damned if i let this house go without a fight mark my words yes it gets hard sometimes. i have my cousin helping me along the way everything in my home is coming together slowly but surely and i will reach an alternative happiness along the way. i just smile each day and do. what i can if can be done my lovely boyfriend helps me everyday get through my tough battles and i say my cousin/ siblings. shit they. went through tough battles too but they stayed when no else did and i appreciate and love upu all for the support. i really couldn’t did it without the love of you guys yall make me happy but all in all i do not depend of my parents for happiness my mother i talk to her all the time on my free time my dad imma leave him where he at and imma live life imma accomplish all my long term goals i will be restless and my perseverance will shine through. i have my cousin/siblings and my auntymama and my love thats all the love i need this is my everyday life after my mother died unfortunately. but i get better every and i work hard to let all my efforts shine through if you would like. more about me and how i deal with everyday life or question. ask below thank you leave feedback .