Lace diary

That year I worked after graduation and Jiang Ran was my colleague. Young people have a lot of opportunities to play together, and we get along very well. Heard that Jiang Ran has a girlfriend, and long lived together. But a few months later, I saw a special look in Jiang Ran's eyes. On the night shift, he volunteered to me that he and his girlfriend had a bad relationship and wanted to make friends with me.

I didn't want to get involved in his business, so I refused. But he didn't give up. He wrote letters to me, wrote novels, and showed me his hot diary. He kept telling me that he would wait for me. After all, I was young, a man so to me, really moved me, agreed to go out with him.

Soon came the news that his girlfriend was pregnant. Jiangran's parents knew I was with him and thought I was sabotaging it. My parents also strongly opposed it, afraid it would bring me a bad name. When things got really bad, I couldn't walk without people pointing at me, and I was under a lot of pressure. Out of a rebellious mind, I felt I had done nothing wrong, and Jiang Ran insisted on staying with me.

Later Jiang Ran paid his ex-girlfriend a sum of money to settle the matter. My parents still objected to my dating him, and when we got married, they didn't come to the wedding. The standoff didn't change until I had my baby.At the beginning of our marriage, my parents-in-law despised me, and they moved elsewhere. Jiang Ran changed jobs and was far from home, returning only on weekends. I was left with his elderly grandmother. I cared for my grandmother until she died, after which his parents changed their mind about me.

After the birth of her daughter, Jiang Ran was checked out of the "big three Yang", rest at home. I have to take care of both adults and children, and often when my daughter gets sick, I get sick too. When the child was more than a year old, things slowly improved.

After Jiang Ran recovered, she went to work again, and we got together less and left more. I had an opportunity to transfer to his unit and work with him. The RESIGNATION REPORT OF OLD UNIT HAD HANDED IN GO UP, BUT THE TRANSFER ORDER DID NOT COME DOWN TARDY HOWEVER, RESULT TWO ENDS DID NOT FALL, I LOST THE JOB INEXPLICABLY.

After staying at home for a year, I borrowed money to open my own business, while he started to do business outside. He needed funds in advance, and basically had no profits to take back. The expenses of the family and the store were all dependent on me, so life was very tight.

I found out he was writing novels again, the kind he'd written for me when we were in love. This time the protagonist of the novel is a young girl. Was there a new heroine in his life? I heard that he transferred a female college student recently in the unit, to his colleague to inquire, but did not inquire what.

Soon Jiang Ran went to other places to do business. Someone told me that he wanted to take the girl to do it together, but she didn't agree. After I know, although maintain the surface calm, but the heart is very bitter. I thought of his former girlfriend, who had endured his betrayal then, and so have I now. My relationship with my parents has just thawed. How can I tell them about this? Bitter water can only be swallowed in the stomach, say out, I also can't afford to throw this person.

Jiang Ran's business is not doing well, after using up his previous savings came back to find a sales job. A year later, when he was promoted to manager, the company sent him to the headquarters, so he left Shanghai for a while. Once I went to his office and found a large cardboard box containing his novels and diaries, as well as many letters to and from his relationship with the girl.

I called the girl, who was a reasonable person, and told me that she had been rejecting Jiang Ran, and now that he had left Shanghai, they had completely separated. I was a little relieved to hear her say that. Afterwards, Jiang Ran told me all about their communication. When we talked about this matter, we were like friends rather than husband and wife. I endured the heartache and stood in his position to discuss with him. I figured, since they were over, I'd let it go.

[Business trip diary records "Lace"]

With all this going on, I get the feeling that being away from each other all the time may be the reason for our estrangement. So I asked him to hook me up with a job, and he transferred back to Shanghai. During that time, he was kind to me and lived a comfortable life.

In the past, we used to rent a house because our work was far away from home. That year, we finally bought our own house. The down payment and decoration money were borrowed, and we had to bear the mortgage every month. Our goal is to live well, work well and pay off the debt early.

Later, he was sent away by the company. Before we left, we agreed that he would save the money and bring it back at the end of the year to pay the debts together. I also worked hard in Shanghai. I got up at five every day and ran outside. Sometimes I didn't even have food. Although rushing about busy, but feel that life still has a head.

When he first left town, we talked on the phone a lot. Gradually his calls dropped off, and then almost none. He came back once, but when he got home, the phone kept ringing. National Day, he came back again, this time a man directly called me, I just know, Jiang Ran met a female colleague in the field, someone else's husband to find me.

I know what happened again, but still endure the pain to tell each other, Jiang Ran to me very good, also asked him not to doubt his wife. I turned to ask Jiang Ran, he generously admitted, and put forward a divorce to me. Until then, I still felt that I could not make things bigger. I had feelings for this family and Jiang Ran. I work for each other's husbands, and I want them to have a good life, and we want to have a good life.

At that time the divorce procedures, Jiang Ran back and forth several times also failed to solve, and the other side of the husband to his unit, the leadership immediately put him back to Shanghai. Jiang Ran accepted the transfer, still and the woman went out to play a circle. I learned this from her husband, sad but helpless.

After coming back, Jiang Ran brought back his diary and letters written in other places and put them on the table for me to see. I knew the whole process of things. I still did not quarrel with him, to maintain the harmony of the family. But we lived separately, he in the small room and my daughter and I in the big room. I don't want my daughter to get hurt.

My daughter, who had already studied and had seen us living apart, probably knew what had happened. She cried and begged me to let her father and I have a good life. Seeing my daughter in pain at such a young age and still trying to persuade me, I couldn't help but burst into tears. For the sake of the baby, I'll take it again!

This day passed more than three months, we each busy, do not interfere with each other. He had no money, so he pushed me to pay the mortgage. He spends four or five hundred yuan a month on Internet and mobile phone fees to chat online.

【 Other people's "gossip" protagonist is him 】

After returning to Shanghai, he felt ashamed in his unit, changed a company, and soon decided to start his own company. So we borrowed money again, and I pawned my jewelry, too, for fear of adding to his psychological burden. I didn't tell him. I thought that as long as he was in the family, I, as a wife, should support him.

Jiang Ran and friends finally set up the company. But he kept me out of his business, and he kept me out of mine. I met with difficult to find him to find a way, he said that he could not help me, slowly I also feel out of the way, to be able to do it alone. Their incomes gradually improved and their lives became much better. I think as long as he can return to the prodigal son, I would like to grow old with him.

I bought his monthly cigarettes, and I went home early two or three nights a week to help him cook dinner. His heart is bad, I accompany him to see a doctor; He said he was tired and offered to live as a couple once every two months, and I agreed. Because we were busy, we sent the children to boarding school, tuition and room costs a year is 13,000, this money I figured out.

Since we were both in sales, I knew all the colleagues in his company, and a girl from the same area became my friend. I would introduce some clients to her and talk about their lives in my spare time. Her relationship with her husband is not good, although there is no divorce, but already not together, she has a lot of boyfriend outside, life is unusually rich and colorful. She said something with others how how to listen to me, I was when the joke listened to even, other people's things where I put in mind.

This peaceful and contented life lasted for more than three years. A few weeks ago, I realized Jiang Ran was off again. In those days, he couldn't sleep at night, got up early in the morning, and always avoided me. I sensed something was wrong, so I texted him that I wanted to have one last meal with him. The emphasis on "the last time" is also a trick to see what really happened.

He didn't hold back. He confessed that he was already seeing someone else, a colleague of his, a "friend" of mine, and that they had been together for more than three years, just a few months after they started the company. He filed for divorce like last time, I did not agree, he humiliated me again and again, the original she and I said those things are Jiangran and her together.

As insufferable as this may sound, I don't hate him at all. I just hate the girl, and anyway, she shouldn't be sneaking around with my husband and blatantly befriending me.

Jiang Ran made every effort to spite me, but I still didn't want to divorce, I didn't want to hurt my elderly parents and young daughter, and I didn't want to admit that my choice was a mistake. If only he would stay with me, I might have a chance to change him.

When his story broke, he punched me three times in three weeks, perforating my eardrum. I really want to die, look at the daughter, heart down again.

And I didn't show any emotional pain out there. Several times, I have been numb, do not want to give up what easily for feelings. I still have to raise my family and take care of my daughter. How can I lose my job?

Now, what worries me most is that my children are affected by family discord. She even told me why he had a heart attack and didn't die. She has been falling back in her studies and is now at the bottom of her class. She said she was under a lot of pressure, eating snacks, eating very fat, others said she was fat, she also eat. I'm worried. I'm gonna take her to a therapist. I had no hope of marriage, only that my children would have a better life than I did.

The original husband a derailment, a cheating affair, but also so blatantly, I should have given up his, but it is their vanity, self-esteem and soft heart, hard wronged their own, really too tired.