HER

I could never explain to her how much love I have for her. For she is my oldest daughter out of three girls and her big brother. For I have no favorites but it is HER that I feel jealous and envious of the people around her...

She was named Aaliyah after the RnB singer Aaliyah Dana Haughton. Her father named her after his female long time crush and added Ontoineyce and I hyphen the JaNae as I did her younger sister. She were born Nov 15th 2010. I feared for her life the whole time I carried her. I actually think I had became a Pro at blocking her father's pushes and kicks to my womb that carried HER. His bites on my arm and busted lip seem to satisfy his his hatred for my pregnancy with HER.

I prayed to God that no matter what He keeps us safe from her father and that she look nothing like him. I was not about to abort a gift from God no matter how brutal she got inside me. I bore the painful secrets how she came here, but I'm glad she made it and at such aww of God's work on HER! Just look at HER...my twin! It's as if I had spit you right out. God had honored my prayers of her image.

For almost 9 years she were fed, well clothed and kept safe and sound from any hurt, harm or danger. That is until her father after 9 years of his disappearance after sexually violating her and her brother in their youth. She's no stranger to this because his own cousin revealed HER telling her of HER age that she could clearly remember during their private one on one Facebook video call with each other. She had to ask me did I knw that she knew what happened to her. Parents are sleeping on the knowledge children carry and hold onto is all I could tell her. But it was greed and power that brought her father back into the picture all this time. He had been misguided on how long I have been receiving HER SSI check and thought that he could capitalize on it by having HER with him. He thought that I had been getting this money the whole time that I had HER and that I had been filling her head up with lies concerning him but none of that is true. I have done my absolute best taking good care of her without his physical nor financial help for well over five years and never once complained. I held my head up high and thank God for HER and getting us out safely.

It's funny how someone who hasn't sent a dime let alone not one penny to assist in HER care all these years yet try to tell his followers/listeners what kind of mother he thinks I am. How unfit, neglectful and abusive I supposedly am lol. It's amazing the amount of lies and manipulations that has gotten him and those up in high positions thus far. There's record of no payment which he was court ordered to pay, but he ran from his responsibilities due to his wrongdoings with two innocent children I trusted him in care of after I left him. Her father was able to have her overnights and weekends. I tried to co-parent even sent her and her brother, who was not even his child, because he requested them both.

These days I wish I had never listened to the law that stupidly joints custody of families with domestic violence. They have no idea of the flashbacks I endure more now because she is with her father. I know the dangers her father is possible of. I've lived it and was blessed to make it out with her and her brother alive. I just pray you are as strong as I am and somebody somewhere speaks up on HER behalf. Speaks up on what they know and what they have seen. It's a problem when his own foster mother in Austin, TX has fears to speak up yet knows that she is not safe with him or any child for that matter. The foster mother had the neve to tell me that this is not her fight. Should I be mad? Nope because this fight is not meant for weaklings. This fight is meant for those who don't mind going toe to toe against their abuser who abuses the system and loves to play the victim role.

Her father is a man who never forgets and always seek revenge and I knew this day would come with greed and manipulation to follow. No woman should be punished for leaving unsafe dangerous conditions. How much less of a mother would I have been to keep her and her brother around him? I'll never get the memories of him throwing a tv at my son when he was barely one or when he punch my son in his face trying to hit me. Oh the cries, the blood splatter and the firefighter that wanted to kick his ass for the number of knots he left on my head that day. He refused help and treatment even therapy so I had to leave this man. There was a concerned apt manager that used to manage the old apts that use to be right next to Sharpstown High but only if only she had of offered me and my son with my pregnant self an apt in a sisterly apartment away from him I would have been long gone. Or when I tried to finally have my own apt away from him I struggled with rent and had to deal with more abuse. You see people are always quick to say what you should of or could of done but never stood in your shoes nor physically helped. Least not the ones I've ran into.

I haven't seen my Aaliyah in a little over two years now because her father has secrets that he doesn't want to get lose. It's an ugly truth but once it's out and gets deeply investigated it will be his own fault because there were better ways of handling this. If abduction never happened in front of my own eyes I would have never believed children right here in Houston, TX are being taken without reason except to allow the abuser to do as he wishes through and to the child. To the parents of other states I hope your voices get heard one day soon. It should lead to kidnap nor death for a parent's outcry to get heard. Not everyone can just drop $5,000 for a decent let alone excellent lawyer to get their child back once abducted especially if that parent has multiple children depending on them.

This is my fault for keeping her sheltered yet he believes I'ved filled her head with lies and nonsense yet he thinks everyone has. Oh you didn't know he is bipolar and schizophrenic though MHMRA. Yep you're wondering the same thing I am huh? How could a Republican judge and two lawyers...one being her ad litem allow this to happen? Easy, NONE cared about the well being of the child. Their only concern was more money. If someone could playback the images in my head and see everything that was done and said to me and Aaliyah in that Harris County Family courthouse. There are no justice for women and children there. The abusers run the system.

Her father tried to use CPS to get Aaliyah taken from me, than the rest of my children. Than he bother the man I was with at the time which was my younger two girls' father. CPS deemed me safe and for all 4 children to remain in my residence with me THIS is what pissed him off. He even tried to get me locked up in court but that didn't work so abduction it was and he found the right circle of people to help him get away with what they have done to me.

Black and white facts ignored! Postponing out of state witnesses to tire them out to keep them from appearing in court. Coverups and trashing documents! Any and everything this judge and her cronies tried to do to sabotage me. Even tried to go after my other children to cover up the abduction. Her father wants a fight and believes he is untouchable currently. To the survivors out there know that I still serve the same God that honored my pray for Aaliyah's image. The same one who kept us safe those almost 9 years is the same one I'm praying to even today. Aaliyah is 10 now. Don't give up hope! Don't give in! Speak up because silence kills!