Family Love

I think back to the very first time we met, I looked at you sitting across the room from me in our math class and thought wow, he is handsome. What I would give to talk to him only once at least but, me being me, I was extremely shy at the time. I remember sitting there at the group I was tabled with laughing about a joke someone made and looking up to see you staring at me. I couldn’t help but smile thinking “wow, he noticed me” that made my entire day. After that day I noticed more and more of you looking at me or sitting closer to me in classes, then one day I was sitting at home after school and heard my phone ding, when I looked at it, you sent me a message on messenger saying “Hey”, we talked for hours! The next day I sat by you in class and we talked and the more and more we did the more and more I was starting to fall for you.

Eventually you asked me to be your girlfriend and that was one of the best days of my life. I fell in love with you. I loved every moment with you… until you decided you didn’t want “us” anymore, I could not figure out why.. I was heartbroken but was happy we stayed friends. There was a lot more going on in your life at the time that I didn’t know of that I know now and why you did it. I understood why much more now that I know than I did back then.

As time went on we slowly drifted apart, you moved in with your dad and went to a different school, we talked. But, not a lot. Eventually we didn’t talk at all but I always wondered how you were doing. I met this guy who I thought I was gonna spend my life with, We had a baby and I remember so specifically you messaged me congratulating me on the new baby! I smiled because I was so glad that you were doing okay after not hearing from you for years.

As time went on the father of my baby and I starting getting into it, we fought, we argued and when I finally had enough I said I needed a break, I was a new mom, our child was only 2 months old at the time, I didn’t know what to do. He packed his stuff and left me… I messaged you, I asked to talk, I wanted to vent and get it out what has been going on and you listened, you gave me advice, and you told me no matter what you would always be here for me. I cherish that so much to this day.

As of today, I’m currently in college and working full time as well as taking care of our baby that we had, I love you more than words. I love that you cherish BOTH my children like there the same.❤️ Our child loves you so so much and the child that’s not yours loves you just the same. In the end I know who was there for me and who wasn’t and I know now that I wouldn’t want to spend another day or life with anyone else but you. They say, everything happens for a reason and I know you’re my reason.❤️ My reason to love, my reason to be me, my reason to want to keep pursing and strive for better. You keep me sane. I know in my heart that it was all worth the struggle to get where we are today, with two beautiful children!