Dawn to dust worrior

At the start, I though life was simple living and growing and learning.

No it's so much more complacated.

To begin, I had the most wonder man in my life til one day it all change, I let some friends tell me he wouldn't amount to anything, he wouldn't be good for me. I though maybe they are right, so I kinda cheated on him with some other guy and well in the time of blissed and being young and stupid, i fell for him. A short time went by and i became pregant with him, we get back from the hostpital and without letting me think about it, he goes and tell everyone. While im scared and lost and confused, he didn't care so he started controlling me telling to stay at home, you don't need a job i'll take care of you bits of lies. Little by little i started loseing myself, i had my first child, she was beautiful and wonder, after two years i finally was able to get a job with his permission.

The moment I started doing things for myself he started getting mad at me, and six months later I upgrade on jobs but, Before I got into my other job i was out of my job for a week and he was mad at me, but when he was out of work for a month and half he sat there playing video games ignoring me and our child.

Than a week before thanksgiving i found out i was pregant again, instead of living with the roomate he wanted to live with i found a way with logic to have us move in with my mother. Than i started feeling free to do thing more on my own.

After two years I finally was able to leave him, but my mom and i started my first divore with him, but he came in again wanting to start over 1,000 miles away from my hometown in pensacola fl. When we moved i started having regrates and haveing a break down wanting to go back home to the man that was making feel better, the man that i truly loved that i wanted to be with all my heart.

After five months in a new state i start feeling at home ignore my husband because all he ever did was played video games and hide away. while my mother and i and my two kiddos started enjoying everything around us. I even started going to therpy to help get uses to the area. I was making friends and everything. Than one day he asked to borrow my car and take the kiddos to a friend of the family on his side for the day and bring back my kiddos and than he'll stay there for a week cause i had noitced for away a long time it wasn't working. I didn't want him near me or my children.

Than i let him borrow my car while i used his, and when i got off work that day i had a bad feeling and my mom and i and our friends shearch hi and low for hours and tried calling the cops and everything in our power to find my children.

The following morning my older brother drove over to my husband dad house and saw that my car was back in pensacola fl. and than i started planning to get back there asap to save my kiddos, and restart a whole new paperwork of divoring him and save my children, its now been over a year and half and i'm still fighting with everything thing i have.

wishes me luck