Bougee Ros'ee

I woke feeling better, iv been so emotional, not knowing what to expect, i mean, i didn't want to have a baby shower but my damn aunties want to get all in my business cause i'm on around much, they all wanted to have twins but ye ye.. i'm having them, i don't want all of the negative energy all around the twins, i mean, i'm toxic as it is, if anything we gone just be a lil smart talking family, lol. I cant wait to meet the twins. i'm still irritated with my Mom cause she wish this on me, i'm kidding, i Love that woman. She be knowing what she talking about sometimes but she don't be wanting to listen to reason at times, such a free spirit.

Hold on i'm getting a face time, its Indica, My favorite person in the world, she is expecting her first baby too, we are such soul mates.

(Bugee): Hey girl, what you got going"?

(Face Time): I'm so irritated, cause i'm just fat, i keep trying to hold it in but i'm just fat now cousin.

(Face Time): Cousin!! why cant i see you on the camera? did you put me on hold? I tired of this, you not gone be ignoring me. Cousin!!! i know you breathing but why you not responding?

(Bugee): I'm here, i'm texting on my other phone, where are you? i hear wind, where you going??

(Face Time): I'm on the way to strangle you for not listening to me, i'm telling you how i feel, you texting on the other phone.

(Bugee): Don't act like you don't keep me on hold when you baby Daddy calls you, you just forget you on the face time with me at all. disrespectful as ever.

(face Time): Lol You got jokes huh?? i'm too hungry right now, i'm on the road to my mama house. where you gone be in like 5 hours??

(Bugee): I'm gone be here so you need to see yo eyes on the road. love you

(Face Time): Whatever, Bye

So yeah i gatta get my mind together on weather or i want this baby shower, but have a registry set up though, i mean, i'm not stupid. I want this double bassinet, a silver cross wave double stroller plus the extra $500,000+ that it takes to have and then raise a set of twins in the first place, so where is the first $9,000 to $13,000 going to come from in the beginning? in having them both natural and that's final. not only because a c-section costs $5,000-$10,000 but because i want to keep my girlish figure or what ever, i don't want that scar or the healing time that it actually takes, have you seen the care that it takes plus the down time, i'm putting it in the universe that i am having my twins both natural. i have the mantras in place that i have been faithfully practicing both in my head as well as aloud.

If i'm going to be absolutely honest wit you guys, i'm very afraid but i got this. they me coming in for appointment's every week know. i'm losing more then i'm gaining at this point, weight that is, they said that baby B is full of water and everything, on the other hand my baby B... not so much, i'm doing my best. i know that my mind is ready for this, my body was made for this. I have a huge system of support, i'm blessed and highly favored. These twins are going to love my unconditionally for ever, i know they will cause i can feel it in my heart, i love them more then anything. you see, my mom taught me that you should be a team with your children, you should build a forever bond from the time of conception cause some how you just feel the conception at least i did, but that's an entire talk show of its own.

So you guys, i think that if i accept the offer for the baby shower then i can at least get some of the items on the registry at wal-mart, buy buy baby, baby bump.com, amazon, babylist.com. I mean, i don't ask for very much, which i i am going to tap into my feminine energy and open my sweaty hairy palms in order to accept some help from loved ones who want to help anyway, so yeap i'm in. I hope I get a couple of flights our the deal, it is family and friend who know that i like trips. Ok so i'm texting my grandma first to let her know that that baby shower offer is officially accepted. then she hopefully can put the wheels in motion cause these are her siblings lol.

Now for the Dad, he is so weird to me right now, like he keep asking me to move to the state that he lies in and move in with him so we can be a big happy family... i'm like??? cause we not no family, you are the Dad and i'm the Mom so don't get any cute ideas, like him and me in a happy healthy home together with our happy beautiful twins which happens to both of our first children, we are both available, hummm!!! let me rethink this cause i don't have to raise our twins alone, he wants us to be a family, what am i thinking? in not stupid, once again, just very pregnant with twins that are using all of my genius for their own little reasons, iv been brainless this entire time, let me sit back and look at some of my past notes that i started taking the second i realized that i was not only pregnant but loosing my entire right mind. Good thing i was raised to take notes and keep logs. cause i have some decisions to unmake. Until i see you beautiful souls, again... hold on to your hats cause ill be back. Be Blessed