A Seat in the Back Row: My Story of Exclusion

I’ve shared this before, but it bears repeating—because the wound hasn’t healed. This is the story of the day I realized that some churches preach inclusion, but practice compliance. The day I understood that rejection doesn’t always sound like a slammed door; sometimes it’s whispered behind one.

It began when I went to church with Bear’s mother—at her request. She had invited me to sit in the front row, and I did. Not because I was trying to make a statement, but because I was honoring her invitation in what I believed was God’s house.

The service began. Face’s mother—who had spent the past year accusing Bear of being a monster—stood at the front and led the singing. Her voice was strong, commanding. But the congregation? Silent. Not a soul joined in. Not one voice lifted beside hers. The stillness wrapped around me like a warning. I felt every set of eyes. Every unspoken question. Every quiet judgment.

And then Face walked over. Silently. Purposefully. She sat beside me.

Her small act of solidarity was louder than anything sung or unsung in that room. She knew. She felt it too—that we were being watched, marked, set apart. Not in reverence. In rejection.

But here’s the part no one saw:

No one told me to move. No one asked me to sit elsewhere. No one spoke directly to me at all.

Instead, Face’s mother cried to the pastor behind the scenes. And he didn’t come to me either.

He went to Bear’s mom. He told her to ask me not to return to the front.

“If she must come back,” he said, “please have her sit in the back.”

Let that sink in.

I was passed over like a burden no one wanted to deal with directly. Not prayed for. Not cared for. Just quietly removed, to protect the comfort of the woman who had turned the church against the man who brought her there in the first place.

She cried her way to the pulpit.

And I was ushered, silently, to the back row.

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This isn’t just about where I sat. It’s about what that seat represented.

It represented how far a church will go to preserve image over integrity.

It represented how a single manipulative voice can drown out truth, simply because she knows how to cry on cue.

It represented a choice—between standing with the accused man who helped build that church and comforting the woman who tore him down to stay in control of the narrative.

And they chose her.

They chose silence. They chose safety. They chose to believe that exclusion done quietly wasn’t exclusion at all.

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But I will not sit quietly in the back row of my own life.

And neither will Face.

And neither will Bear.

We belong at the front.

We belong in the light.

We belong in every space where truth and justice are preached—and especially in the spaces where they are not practiced.

So I share this again—not as a grievance, but as a witness.

Because if they did it to me, in whispers and behind closed doors, who else have they tried to erase? Who else have they quietly shamed back into silence?

Not today.

Not anymore.

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