A letter to my future self

February 21, 2022

Dear Future Self,

As I write this letter to my future self please learn from the mistakes I have made in the past. I know it's hard to reexamine your life. Examining parts of your life will help you from making the same mistakes over and over again. As I write this letter, I would advise you to choose your friends wisely and be able to handle betrayal.

Remember when family and friends let you down and you were alone for a while. During that time you relied on yourself when no one else came to bat for you. Over time, after the betrayal, some family approached you if nothing happened and still have a relationship with you. Although there is still a relationship, the trust is gone. At least, from my point of view. Once trust is gone, what is left, just empty relationships.

I would tell you to dream about the future and to have a goal for yourself. My goal was to be a professional writer but life interfered in my dream job. I had to work other jobs just to pay the bills. As I write this letter I would advise you to never give up or of your dream of writing. Use Vocal and other platforms to write your writings and achieve your dream.

As I write this letter I would wish that you would stop working so hard and find the time to travel and enjoy life more. Life is worth living its not only work. Find the time to travel more and see the world. Take more risks instead of playing it safe in life. Safe travels and great adventures in life. I would take that leap and move to Canada and visit Australia.

I would tell myself to not overthink decisions made. Be more spontaneous and try to be adaptable to change. I admit that I am not used to changing in the present and sometimes change can be good. Finally, I would wish to rebuild relationships that have been ignored. There are relationships with people that have been lost by not communicating over the years.

I would try to reach out and reconnect with those people so that I don’t have to feel alone anymore.

In conclusion of this letter, I would advise you to stop procrastinating and just do what you want to do in life. I mean that if you really want to write then just write and stop putting it off. I would advise you to be happier in your future life than you are today. I would be much happier if I stopped thinking about what others thought all the time. Stop being anxious and stop being unhappy. The anxiety of living in the present has been taxing on my psyche. I would like to forget about the chronic anxiety and depression that has plagued me for years. I wish I could be more like my younger sister who just goes out and does what has to be done. Regardless, of depression and anxiety plaguing her too. I wish I was more of a doer and not a talker. I tend to spill my guts on paper but not in person and I wish I could change that. I hope that when you read this letter from my present self that you make these changes that I suggest. So that your future self will be in a better place than my present self. I want to Live life to the fullest. One should live their life as if each day was their last. So remember to live!

Yours Truly,

My Present Self