Your Voice

I want to feel better.

Please, somebody help me through this pain.

I want to feel better.

In my heart, soul and brain.

I want to feel better.

I just want to scream, scream and scream.

Please, just take this pain all away from me.

Please, just take away my pain

It can not last forever.

It feels like lightening running through my veins

Passes through my blood like a level five hurricane.

I want to feel better.

Put on a mask, smile through my teeth and just pretend

I know, I know it is never going to end.

They want to pump my body full of chemicals

Treat the symptoms and the side effects but never find a cure.

I want to feel better.

I can't get a diagnosis with out them laughing in my face.

Saying it is just my anxiety, relax your healthy and have faith.

I want to feel better.

I feel like a fucking hypochondriac with no one believing in me

Testing after testing it is still all the same you see.

I want to feel better.

Now I am a science experiment, just right for your thesis

Let us just open you up and see what is inside.

Do you even realize it will cause me more pain that I will have to hide.

I want to feel better.

Understand this, I am not just a number on your statistics.

I hate to break, but I am the main character in this storyline

So let me just reiterate I do not feel fine.

I want to feel better.

There will be cause and effect to my body not yours

Since you are not the one living through my pain and the daily horror.

My pain is invisible something that you can not physically see

So it is easy for you to just say it is all in my head and dismiss me.

My feelings, my thoughts and all of my research becomes moot

You have already labeled me and categorized all of my faults too.

I want to feel better.

So I will just cry in the dark because that is all I can bare

All alone in my thoughts with no one who cares.

I want to feel better.

As I am trying to think faster, collect my thoughts and voice my fears.

Do you even have patience waiting for me to speak clear.

You all are not listening, can you not hear!

I want to feel better.

I'm just trying to be free of this pain and to be understood.

But really I just want to stand tall and loudly demand

For you to sit down and hear what I have to say.

Do not try to pacify me and then go on to explain.

Do not patronize me and just listen instead.

Do not underestimate me and respect my intelligence.

Pay attention and be aware of what is actually being said.

I want to feel better.

I have to make it through this.

I want to feel better.

I have hope that tomorrow will change.

I want to feel better.

I hang my head in defeat.

Fidget my fingers and hop on my feet.

Be brave, be strong, do not show them your pain.

Bare in mind your tears will be judged .

They will not listen to you in the same way.

Unless there is something for them to gain.

So just line their pockets deep

While they not hear, understand or even comprehend

While they say you complain and always pretend

So hide what you fear most, just take a breath and breathe.

Look up.

Raise your chin.

Look in their eyes.

Stay calm in your seat.

I want to feel better...

Please can you help me!

~C.H. Enchanted Collections