Word of the Day: 下敷き

I learned this word as a different meaning, or used more as a simile. I know I sometimes overly empathize with... well quite frankly, psychopaths.

I mean, I know that people accuse me of that, but it is more that my nerves are stunted in certain places and the ones that are still working are so inflamed that it almost causes pain. Is this narcissism? Hmm... I don't think so, I have done many things without any sort of merit attached to it. I also consciously made those decisions; sometimes people do things they don't want to do, so sometimes they don't want to take credit just because they don't necessarily want to be associated to that thing. But they did participate... So what do we accept?

The desire of someone to forget their past, or to be a faithful chronicler of time?

I do reserve some things, I don't write everything here. How could I? I don't desire to have every moment written down, but the moments I am here are true.

I am super proud of myself for being 2 days ahead of schedule, this is amazing. But I told myself that 3 days is the key. So, I am just keeping to my timer and pushing on,

I think all the sugar in the pizza and pepsi is what gave me all this energy. I mean I am glad I got some carbohydrates or whatever but I... Oh well yea, I am well fed now. I am good.

I have time on my timer, I have a full belly, I am good.

I know that putting on make up is on my todo list but, I am sort of reluctant right now. I also sort of foresee packing my backpack being a bit difficult.

I am not too worried either way, I mean I don't need my make up anyway, and I already know that I would be able to do it more fully if I had my vision back.

Clean kitchen is on here, that might be the one for right now. I really have to clean to the point where I can at least get a nice pot of tea going.

I have to do my Planner but that might have to wait for when I get home. I guess I am a bit nervous right now. Yea that is the most important thing. Not whether I have make up or not, but do I have the confidence in completing the tasks I have. I am kind of cleaning the kitchen but it isn't going too good. I can't do the counters until i get back but I am slowly making progress on the dishes. I am hoping I can have the machine running by the time I need to leave.

Make up would be great but if I can at least get like 3-4 layers of skin care on, that works just as well.

When I was in highschool, I used proactiv. Even like the new formula too, the one that made your skin feel like a rubber balloon. The first formula was actually the best.

I am surprised I actually had enough products to look halfway decent. I am not really wanting to put on foundation or anything because then my brushes would be dirty and I'd have to clean them.

I don't know how long Keely has today so I am just going to have to focus on the main stuff and handle all the rest when I get back home.

I might've deposited too much time in the timer right now, I feel a little too ambitious now.