What changed?

"It hurts….. it hurts so much. I could literally feel the pain seeping out of my chest”.

We were so close, very close. We tell each other everything, we talked like most friends do. We planned our stuffs together. We take permission from our parents together whenever we needed to go out.

So what changed?? What changed?!!!!!

Weren’t we supposed to be the best friends people envied?? Weren’t we supposed to be friends till our old age?? Weren’t we supposed to fight each other but not let it separate us?? Weren’t we supposed to be fight for each other?? Weren’t we supposed to never let anything come in between us??

So what changed?? Tell me.. what changed??!!!!

Why am I seeing you with someone else doing everything we planned to do together?? Why are you both talking and laughing without a care in the world when I’m with you?? Why are you not seeing that this pain is making me depressed?? Why have you decided to push me to the side and take someone else with you?? Why aren’t we talking to each other?? Why am I speaking to you and you keep ignoring me?? Why are you posting another bestie on your status?? Why did you not tell me that you are no longer interested in the friendship??

What changed?? What exactly changed??!!!!

Is it because I am not up to your standard?? Is it because you need someone of your class?? Is it because I did something that you did not like?? Is it because you never approved of my boyfriend?? Come to think of it this distance began with me having a boyfriend. Or is it because there was a time I wasn’t there for you?? But I was always readily available..

So what changed?? What exactly changed??!!!!!!!

How do I move on now that I’ve given you all my trust?? How do I move on now that you’ve broken that trust?? How do I tell others that I don’t know the reason we broke up?? How do I explain to my siblings that we are no longer friends?? How do I move on from this trauma you’ve placed me in?? How do I get my time to start ticking once more?? How do I tell people our story without making it feel look like you are not at fault??

Please I really want you to tell me what changed..

I’m really trying to move on but it isn’t easy y’know.

Not after we became best friends because you told people I am your best friend without my knowledge. But you know I still accepted it because having someone you can call a confidant, a sister, a bestie is a thing of joy for me, well maybe not for you.

If only you told me what I did for things to turn out this way.

I’ve thought about it for so long but maybe the problem isn’t from me. I really wish I could ask you why we aren’t best friends anymore and what happened to us? But I guess there won’t be anytime to do that since you are happy with your new bestie and I hate to be a bother.

But I still do want to know what changed… What changed??!!!

How do I get you to see this so you can explain to me what changed or what exactly I did.

But I really do hope you have a good life, and be good to your new bestie so she won’t have to go through everything I went through.

And whenever you see this, I really hope you tell me what changed!!.