Waiting for Green

I don't have much time or energy to write another story, especially not one about Rich White Folk, but i promised that i'd write one. It's called "Why Wealthy White Folk Bite Off More Than They Can Chew?".

Can i be clear that i mean "WEALTHY WHITE" folk, not the one's, you who can't pay for your grandmother's hospital bills or your own teeth whitening dentist appointments. I'm not talking to you if you can't afford avocados and almonds, imported goods and bananas from the bio shop. I'm talking to you rich, wealthy white folk who can afford all of the above and yet continue to bite off more than you can chew!

I mean look at this 'Black Lives' matters campaign and the ripple affects its had into white society! Great i tell you, but talk about biting off more than you can chew! As a self-proclaimed "Person of Color" ( yup you heard me, i now have a new identity thanks to your xenophobia and social awkwardness with naming me as a category of my own; don't worry i won't hold it against you) i'm calling you out on this one! Really i've never been more eligible for a job, a fancy-ass scholarship to a fancy ass school, every and any course i want to do via scholarship offered and kindly donated by a 'white person' of course. I mean when are we going to stop with the 'hand me downs' and 'hand me offs'. I've never seen so many black people in ads on tv or spread across billboards, screaming racial innuendos like "we're not racist anymore because we have black people in our campaigns now!"

Really do you think that's going to cut it!? Do you think that's enough to pull the wool over our eyes? Do you think that's enough to feel deeply, not our pain, but your own pain for what has happened? Yes, you might'ned have killed, rapped or even robbed a person for power or wealth before but you sure as hell are jumping on the bandwagon of let's 'use these people again to increase our material gain' not because we really care.

You see it's fashionable to be a 'Person of Color' or 'Black' these days . Also has anyone noticed that very few people in this world are actually black!! Theres like a majority brown people in the black community and loads the same colour as the 'brown community'! If i we're to start again, as a kid, from 0 yrs again, without my schooling and fancy education (or social media), kid me would say "theres a lot of brown people in the world, a lot of yellow people too, some white and loads of tanned ones that are in between all the colours we see. Oh and once i saw this person who was actually black because there skin was so dark! And i'm one of the ones in between all the colors cause i change colors in the Sun."

i diverge.

As i was saying, its fashionable to be a 'Person of Color' now, just like it's fashionable for 'Garnier' to sell shampoo bars and banana scented conditioner in recycled, possibly compostable bottles, still full of chemical and doing harm to our earth just by way of making alone. Never mind distribution, chemical reaction and the skin rashes it induces.

Same thing for all these fancy poster campaigns and scholarships that we're now suddenly all eligible for. Is it to make the world a better place or is it to make you the 'Wealthy White Folk' feel better about your position in life? Please 'Poor White Folk', i'm not talking to you, you've birthed our kids, you've fed us when we've had nothing, you've housed us when we were down and out, not cause you had anything to gain but because the systems screwed you over too, and you've learnt, or already knew nothing matters more than heart, more than being a human heart and soul connecting to another human heart and soul. And so for this i thank you 'Normal and Poor White Folk' who've birthed a better place and accepted integration and our more than different ways'. Why am i thanking you? Cause i live in the land, the world of the white folk, where i was told i was different, where i was told i was 'other than', 'less than', 'better than' but never equal to 'white folk' all my life. I've never been equal to you, and maybe will never be.

I just sure as f*ck hope that one day we can all wake up and smell the roses, get the green light to do the work that needs most doing. Not the plastering faces all over posters across the world, not the whites only dinner table discussion of race & colour, the true xenophobia of all cultures disguised in the politically correct, super polite, logistically un-inclusive, woke conversation of our 20-30 year old kids talking about race and colour as though they themselves were not white and talking of a "them", other than, apart from and separate from the exclusively white's only dinner table, i'm currently sat at. I'm accepted cause i'm only "half another race", not full another race. I don't even get why there talking about race- did they not attend first semester biology class? Aren't some of them Doctors and Scientists and Physiotherapists?

"You do know we're the same race, right?" - i want to slyly add. But i can't be bothered to counter a table where i'm clearly outnumbered by 10 "Hot & Bothered" (that's what they're drinking) White Folk who skipped out on first semester biology class. Too lazy, too shy, too not bothered and sober to carry on caring what they have to say for or against my 'separate half-race'. I swear half the time they forget i'm 'half another thing' when they're not sober and feeling awkward cause i am 'half another thing'. Which is great, thats the point we want to get to, but we want to get to that point sober and because they've truly gotten over their xenophobic beliefs, and not just because they've downed a litre of something thats made them overlook the fact that i'm in the room and still still here. Theres something about money, fame, sex and alcohol that fuels the man to become cockier than he already is. And my friends are no exception. The men, more daring in their grandiose speech, and the women more pitifully sorry for the black and yellow people who cooked the food they now eat. Though theres never an association of the two, being the same people. Those who slaved for the food we now eat and the poor people suffering from race discrimination and deserve our sympathy, empathy even, who grace our dinning room table in conversation only.

i grew up in a white world. and i live in a white world. ignorantly self obsessed.

I am sick now, of listening- to my white friends talking about racism as if it's the devil itself and they have nothing to do with it. When will they allow themselves to get emotionally close to this topic, sober? When will the light bulb moment go off in their heads when they stop talking about black people or yellow or brown people as the one's discriminated against and suffering here. When will they start to address their own pain and suffering and stop outsourcing that onto the still called, 'third world' (!!!??? factually incorrect much!!??). When will they stop seeing it as 'us and them' and when will they start accepting that this is our country too, this is our land too, our world too? Our society too?

When will we all get the green light to go ahead and see each other all as humans, suffering or not suffering, living human lives, on a human inhabited planet, filled with colours, smells, tastes, places and beings- multiple.

I'm sick of this Race discussion. A race to where, a race to what. What Race are we talking about?