Toxicity

You say you want this to work but you aren't doing anything to help. You ask me what's wrong and when I tell you, you get angry. You get mad at me over the smallest things. You constantly yell and scream. If I'm ever upset about anything it's because it's my fault. My feelings are never valid to you but yours are always valid.

You want me to tell you when you're doing something wrong so you can correct it. However, when I do address any issues I see it's always my fault. You are always the victim in every situation. You never do anything wrong. It's always my fault. I am expected to tell you when I'm upset but never say anything. I'm expected to change my behavior if I ever do something that you don't like but you can stay the same. You want me to be with you forever but you refuse to grow and change your toxic behavior.

You want me to tell you if I don't want to be with you. But no matter how many times I tell you, and no matter how many different ways I say it, you're still here. You don't want to hear what I have to say. When you do hear what I have to say you never really listen.

I don't know why I'm still doing this. I don't know why I'm still here. You don't actually love me as you say. If you did you wouldn't treat me the way you do. I don't know why it's so hard to break free of you. I can't do this anymore. I'm so sick of being in this abusive relationship. It's not healthy for either of us.

I'm sick of everything always being my fault. It's my fault if you wake up late because I didn't wake you up. It's my fault if you don't have clean clothes because I didn't do laundry. It's my fault if someone tells you what you're doing wrong because I didn't tell them to shut up or back off. It's always my fault. I'm always left apologizing.

I am done apologizing. I'm done apologizing for things that are out of my control. I'm done apologizing for you being irresponsible. I'm done feeling like everything is my fault when it isn't. I will gladly take responsibility for my actions. I don't have a problem admitting that I was wrong. That's a part of becoming a mature adult. I will no longer be to blame for your actions or mistakes.

You are an adult. Start acting like one. Start taking some responsibility for your actions. You are not my child and I shouldn't have to treat you like one. Stop blaming me for your mistakes.

 I love that I'm the only one that has to be a full-time parent. Even when I worked full-time I was still putting in more hours. I don't understand why you're still here. You've made it pretty obvious that you don't want to be here. Turns out that I don't want you here either.

I've told you numerous times that I didn't want to be with you. I've told you in a variety of ways. Yet you never seem to leave. For some reason, you think you should still be here. I just don't understand what your logic is. I don't get why you think you should still be around.

If you could maybe just leave already. I've put in everything that I can. I've given every ounce of effort possible. I'm done feeling like I'm the only one trying. I'm done being the one giving my all. You're on your own. If you can't figure out why I'm upset by now then I'm done telling you.