The Forbidden Love

What do you know about forbidden love?

I mean, the kind of love everyone says should not be, because it falls short of the society’s standing definition of what an acceptable love is.

You meet someone, and everything seems to be just perfect. Is there even such a thing as perfect love? This is the question you ask yourself over and over again because it is right in front of you.

Unexpected

Unplanned

Yet it blooms

It is this kind of love that gives the adrenaline rush each time you are in it

It is the eyes

It is the smell

It is the voice

It is the aura and warmth

And then there is the ‘spark’… yes, that electrifying spark that comes with the touch. A touch as light as fingers intertwined, or lips brushing, and even a hug.

It is the feeling of satisfaction yet craving the same person over and over again.

The kind of moist that fills your innermost parts just by the thought of them because they are both physically appealing to your eyes and your mind.

Yet…. You know it is forbidden!

You ask yourself a thousand questions…questions you truly do not want the answers to.

Perhaps, you already have the answers you so desperately seek.

Late at night, when you crave the warmth of the one you love, it dawns on you that they are unavailable and then you sigh – And on nights like this, you just want to lay in their arms, taking up every warmth and listen to the rhythmic perfection of their breath.

But hey, on these same nights, you are alone, as you have always been.

Maybe, just maybe, this is it - the beginning of the end or just a closed chapter?

You wonder to yourself aloud “If I’m all he says, he’ll be warming me in his embrace and not be in another’s arms”. But how can he share his love with someone else and share his dreams with me?

Are his words true or just to placate me? I mean when he says ‘You’re all I want, all I’ve ever wanted’… Yet, to another, he gives his heart, body and sweat.

The questions I have no answers to.

Because it is forbidden!!!

Is this all I deserve?

Is this my curse?

Still, you can’t help but look forward to jumping in their arms again.

You know fully well this person has you in a cock hold – the sex, the intimacy, the friendship – all in one person and you can’t even lust for another, because each time your mind envisions the pleasures of desires, only them comes to mind – and then you realize that this is love, but is it?

Yet… you know it is forbidden!

You know it is because how your entire day turns out is dependent on the look on their face, the tone of their voice when they call, or even the slightest change in the message and timing.

You find yourself wishing them good at every turn – so bad that you can go to the shop and you they pop up in your head and when they smile, your world is alright.

Yet… it is forbidden!

It is this kind of friendship that transcends time and prevailing circumstances because deep down in your heart, you know for sure that you can never make an enemy of this person, no matter what.

This cross is a burden you chose to bear willingly, knowing the risks and consequences of it all.

Yet, an experience you won’t mortgage for anything else.

It is loves like this, that makes you say yes – I’ve been loved by the best!