The Clown's Rose

It's just not the same tonight. Tonight, it's his last show. Still, he wasn't sure he had the courage to send the roses.

Ghost white face, star eyes, red nose, big red mouth, clown Yu carefully finished the last brush paint, straight to the stage. Familiar opening words, a little means, the atmosphere of the scene immediately hot up. He performed here for five years, with a variety of new jokes, difficult antics, never fail to make the audience laugh.He brings joy to others, but he is incompatible with joy. If it wasn't for the rapunzel in the front row, he would have run out of steam. He knew he was performing for her alone. Recently, the girl had a man sitting beside her. Joker Yu felt heartache and knew it was time to leave.

The girl's happy eyes streamed down like a stream. The man's eyes were like a hostile snake, pulling the clown Yu off the unicycle. He endured the pain in his body and heart, got up, ha ha ha laugh, continue to perform.

The audience whistled and clapped wildly.

Suddenly, the audience before his eyes became a group of tigers, their jaws open and white teeth exposed. The applause he had longed for and sought suddenly became a swirling black hole, sucking his soul out of it. He shook his head vigorously, and the tiger became a spectator again. Tonight, he cried, is my last performance! But no one heard him, and his shouts were drowned by applause and laughter.

At last the show ended and the audience began to disappear.

Yu, very tired, lay down on the stage and dialed the phone.

I'm so sad, doctor. I can't be happy. After a short silence, he sniffed his sour nose and said, I want to really laugh, just once. I feel like there's no point in living.

"I recommend you to go to the amusement park and see the performance of the clown Yu," the other person said enthusiastically. "He has a magic power that can cheer everyone up."

Yu strangely smiled twice, but, I am the clown Yu ah!

How can you be Joker Yu? He's so happy, he's never sad.

More tired, he hung up the phone, tears like countless lost children, have fallen on the stage.

Hey, is there a problem you can't solve? I'm so unhappy. Let me be happy to say it. It was the long-haired girl sitting in the front row, imitating his tone and joking, sitting down beside him and handing over a can of Coke. Why did you fall down? Very ache? She stretched out her white fingers to touch his head, and he refrained.

When I was a teenager, I wanted to be a master performer like Chaplin. One day, I joined an acrobatic troupe, dressed up as a clown and performed everywhere. Joker Yu told his story to the girl, and seemed to be talking to himself.

That's good. The world's a big place. You can see it for free. The girl paused and then added, When did you become unhappy?

When Mom left this world, she wanted to see me one last time, but she never did. I was so sad that I quit the acrobatic troupe and returned to the town where I was born, missing my mother while performing. From then on, I just laughed mechanically, like a wind-up machine. The clown Yu grinned the corners of his mouth, sending out a string of laughter.

I've been meaning to tell you a secret for a long time. The girl looked at him gently and said, three years ago, I got depression, the doctor let me come to see your performance, auxiliary treatment, your performance brought me joy, my disease is getting better day by day.

If it wasn't for you in the audience, I wouldn't have made it this far. Joker Yu wanted to say this to her, but said another thing, it is my honor to bring joy to the audience. He avoided the girl's eyes and hung his head, his eyes burning.

I have a secret, the girl blushed, paused for a moment and then said, in fact, I have long fallen in love with you, every time I see your performance, always can't help but think, if we live together, life will be how happy ah!

Yu blinked, I also have a secret, you step down from behind, through the children's park, you will see a parking lot, under the third street light, parked an electric car, basket has a folded up newspaper, open it, inside is my gift to you.

Wow, what is it? Is this one of your shows?

Joker Yu nodded and grinned.

The girl nodded, got off the stage and followed his directions to the parking lot.

Yu, the clown, jumped off the stage in front and walked quickly into the night. Goodbye, girl! I don't deserve to accept your love, you love a clown, not the real me. Just like I'll never be able to love you the way anyone else does. Off the stage, the clown Yu's smile is very bitter. Joker Yu is a person of low self-esteem, every night to prepare a bouquet of roses, but always do not have the courage to give her.