Some wrong decisions of my life

Some wrong decisions of my life

If you look back at your life, you will often feel what could have been the direction of life. Some of us can be proud of our decisions, because the decisions taken by them have taken them to great heights and today they are successful. There are some people who will regret throughout their life that if only they had taken the right decision at the right time, then the course of life would have been different today. But this is life, these are its colors. This is its form. There are some happiness here and some sadness. If the decision goes wrong, then sometimes a pang arises in life that I wish I had not done so at that time.

I have been a sharp-minded and prudent person since childhood. But some decisions in life were also wrong by me and sometimes when I remember that period, my mind becomes restless.

This is about those days when I was studying. I was friends with my classmate Kavita. There was nothing like love in our friendship initially. We both were together even on educational tours. Seeing us other people would suspect that we both loved each other. We both liked each other but we could not understand whether this is love. At that time even our age did not want to understand this. Even after the completion of our studies we continued to meet each other. We even enjoyed going out together, watching movies etc. Our families also came to know about us. One day my father met Kavita and even talked about marriage.Kavita was ready to get into this relationship. I could not move beyond friendship but she had taken her steps towards the destination of love. That is why she gave her consent. When I came to know, I wrote a letter to Kavita. Perhaps I would not have been able to meet her and tell her my feelings, so I wrote in the letter that I do not want to get married. I consider you only a friend. Another reason was that our castes were different and no one at my home knew about this. My father also did not pay attention to this. At that time, I felt that later there could be a dispute in our family on the issue of caste. Kavita was heartbroken by my refusal by writing a letter. She did not give me any reply and our meetings also stopped there. I also did not show any further interest. At that time I had started my new business, so I did not get time to think and understand anything extra. My social fear and not being able to realize my love on time created a never-ending void in my life. Five-six years had passed. I had forgotten the feelings of the past long back. I had got married somewhere else. After about two more years, I suddenly had to go to a nearby city for marketing my product. As I was coming out of the other gate of the market after taking the order of my product, my eyes went towards the bank situated on the other side.Kavita was sitting right in front of me. I don't know how our eyes met at the same time. The attraction in her eyes had drawn me towards her. I had reached inside the bank where she was working now. When I came inside, the first words that came out of her mouth were that she was married and had a son. I also said that I too am married and have a daughter. After this small conversation, I left from there. But these words of hers still shake me. My foolishness and cowardice had put a question mark on our friendship. I have not met her since that day. This was probably my first big mistake in life. Someone's heart was broken because of me. I still feel guilty about this.

Time passed. I had left all the past things behind. I had a small family. I was busy with it. My business was now slowly gaining momentum. I had a factory in the industrial area and my business had expanded to distant states. I had started having a kingly position in my product. Here my emotionality led me to my downfall. My circumstances completed the remaining task.I had worked very hard to establish my business. I worked day and night. I used to handle all the work like production, marketing and sales. My other brother in the family was doing another business at that time. He suffered heavy losses in his business and he could not recover from it. Due to the love for my brother and my family, I included him with me. Everything was fine for some time, then later he started taking some decisions in my business. At many places, due to my love for my brothers, I started giving my consent to their decisions. The scope of business and family is different. Both run in different streams. In the family, the flow of thoughts full of love, affection, mutual trust and emotional attachment flows continuously. On the contrary, business is that in which there is no trace of love, affection, mutual trust and emotional attachment. My emotionality had included both the spheres in the same stream. At the same time, my elder brother's illness broke my back. I could not recover from these situations. My years of hard work had gone waste. I had not thought that my brothers' incompetence would cost me dearly. Soon I had to close my factory. I had a lot of debts. One of my brothers had died. As soon as I drowned, my other brothers also left me. All my resources were over. And I had become dependent on money. I was not able to understand how to organize myself again. I had also defaulted on bank loans. Overall, all my avenues were closed. No one was ready to help me at such a time. It is true that in a man's good times, all friends, relatives are his own, but when bad times come, everyone turns their back on him. I realized at that time that a man's worth is only determined by money. Money is the parameter of your success. Your behavior, ability, everything is left behind. Now I understood the importance of money in life. Anyway, now I realized my second mistake.

My children have grown up now. My elder daughter has become an engineer and is serving her job, others are completing their studies. When a man embarks on the path of prosperity, relatives and friends start visiting him again. Man is a bundle of mistakes. When bad times come, even the best of men lose their minds. Even after years, I had repeated the same old mistake again. There is hardly anyone more foolish than me who repeats his mistake. This time, despite my wife and daughter's refusal, I gave shelter to my younger brother. He came to me from the village with his ruined life. If I had not given him shelter, he would probably not have survived. Seeing his condition, I committed the third mistake of my life. After coming to my place, he gradually got my staff removed. There came a time when I had become dependent on him. During that time, I was not able to concentrate on the old project because I was focused on my other project. Now he was taking care of all the work there. I committed this mistake even after knowing his habits. His fraud and embezzlement left me in a bad state.He left me. The limit was crossed when he blamed me for the loss. I was devastated by this shock. I ended my relationship with him. For the first time in my life, my confidence was shaken. It was unbearable for me that the people who ruined me would be my own people. My image in the old business was completely ruined because of my brother. I stopped getting work in the market. Now I was again in trouble. To start a new business without any capital investment. All this was going to be a very difficult task. For a few days, I tried to get a job. But I did not get a job. Then somehow, with the help of some family members, I started a small business from home. There was pressure from the creditors and the pressure of family problems was even more than that. My courage was completely broken. Work would not go on like this. I gathered all my strength and started trying once again to get back the lost respect and prosperity in life. Every time, the desire to win did not let me lose. New customers for a new business, how difficult it is to start from scratch every time.Who will understand this better than me. In today's competitive environment, when you are unable to spend on advertisement, are not able to get dealers of your product in other cities, then many times one feels restless. Even at low profits I was facing problem in selling the goods. Many times I felt that I should take up a job. At least I will be able to help at home. I would lose courage again and again but every time with my will power, I would gather my courage. And then I would put in all my energy. After initial rejections, slowly my new market started getting organised. I regained my position.

I have learnt a lesson from my mistakes. It is very difficult for everyone to start from zero. But I convinced myself that this time I am not starting from zero but starting with experience.

    In life, business should not be run like a family. Your decisions in business should not be made emotionally and your carelessness can also become the reason for your downfall. Even if your brother is wrong, you should be ready for a tough decision. Such betrayals shake you up.

    In this whole matter, when bad times started, everyone turned their back except one or two. Friends are few but they should be true. In our bad times, we have expectations only from relatives or friends. We consider them our own but we get experience like that of a stranger.

These mistakes of mine have taught me a lot. I have now molded myself into a tough shell so that I do not commit any more mistakes in the future. Falling in life is not a problem but not learning a lesson after falling is the biggest problem. I have now changed myself because for how long will I keep making mistakes and hurting my family along with myself.